JennyC's Diary

[JennyC]

Well as I sit here after a punishing game of basketball I feel like I found a small part of me that has been missing. I am so happy to be back on the court even though I have ice on my elbow and knee.....just a small run in with a court barrier I feel like I'm home!!! Sorry to sound sentimental but it has spurred me on to get even fitter and get my groove back, cause I can feel I am going to be hurting tomorrow.

I am feeling a little like I have copped out on getting to my top end goal range.....I don't want people to think I just gave up on getting there. I know that I have the go ahead from my consultant because of my current symptoms etc. But I feel like I am associating it with failure....stupid me. I am very proud of my efforts but a little bit of that feeling sneaks in and get's to me. I guess I'm scared of it being the wrong time to start refeed but I know it is the right time.....I feel like I am going a little loopy..hehe

Thankyou all for your support while I have been on my own personal rollercoaster it has helped lift my spirits when I have felt like c$#p.
But I am going to finish cohens with my head held high and know I have given it my all. I will attack maintenance with the same determination I will be attacking my next game of basketball

I must be coming down of my adrenalin high from tonight. I just reread what I wrote.....that was a serious vent and a half.....I love my diary

See you in refeed tomorrow........I'm still hungry

JennyC