I'm scared

[shuki]

Hi,
I have lost lots of weight on other programmes and put it back on. I am now 60-70 kg over and feel awful. I am ashamed of myself and embaressed to be out in public. food is my consolation and comfort. I hate myself though and my self esteem is always consistently low.
I am a mother of 2 kids and can't do anything physical with them and I am afraid as to what other health issues I am sitting on....climbing stairs is a problem and walking any distance is tiring.
I would love to be different but am scared to try again because of the what if I fail thing.
Can anyone relate?? and help?
I am considering Cohen's but need to hear from you who are on it ...
Shuki