Faithy's Diary

[deseleigh]

CONGRATULATIONS Faithy


You should be soooo proud of yourself you are looking really GOOD .

Deseleigh

[Faithy]

Thanks again so much peoples .. I sure am feeling good.. even though I'm stressed out to the max..

I've pretty much had the last 6 weeks or more off work (On & off) & well now I have paper work up to my eye balls.. it's starting to spill into my lounge room big time so I need to get stuck in to it.. *bleh*

On top of that we still haven't found a house to move in to. Trying not to stress out & get all negative is VERY hard I have to ay. I'm generally OK, but every now & again I feel this nasty feeling of panic come over me. It's so interesting to see how my body & mind react when that happens. I had baked a banana cake for my family yesterday & tonight it was just sitting there looking at me. In the past I wouldn't think twice about downing a slice or 5.. I just stood there & looked at it.. *evil poison*..

My consultant seemed a little concerned when I told her the trouble we were having & about having to move.. I suppose it's the perfect opportunity to make an excuse as to whey it's too hard to diet during that time. I assured her (as well as myself) THAT I wont let this get in the way.

Throughout my whole life I have managed to make excuses as to why I couldn't stick to a diet. I use to say that it was just circumstances that got in the way, but it's really just me. Any excuse was good enough, & perhaps to the rest of the world it was, but really, who was I kidding?? In the end that thought process just got me bigger, sadder & less truthful with myself.

My moto, 'if I'm honest with myself I can't fail' is SO true.

[hexi2]

Great advise Faithy - listen people the Guru has spoken!!!

Yep I use the *poison* thing too...works a treat

I am sure something is just around the corner in the way of housing, goodluck hope you find a magical little place...it will have the 'new' Faithy in it so of course it will be magical!

[shaz72]

Hi faithy,
Just looked at your fotos. WOOOOWWWW. What a transformation....
Your truelly a legend. Your words on making excusses for the way we are was so true, n i say WAS, but not anymore ah..
my eldest child is 12 n youngest 6 n i uded them as my excuse. I wanted all my kids they were my choice n it was my very bad choice to eat the wrong foods.
Your stories always inspire me n seeing your progress gives me the confidence to carry on.
Thank you Faithy.

[Jeannie]

I totally agree with Pen, Faithy you should enter the Slimmer of the year competition.. you would breeze it in... how awesome would that be, dont you get a new wardrobe with that prize as well?

Good luck with the house hunting..

[hexi2]

Yep Faithy - go for Slimmer of the Year! Your story would help so many others out there - oh no this little family might get A LOT bigger shhhh

[FotoHijinx]

Hi Faithy girl

Look at you - you've taken ownership of your life and you are totally in control of it - yay for you. How easy it would be for you to sit back and play the victim and emotionally eat to supposedly make you feel better. Nup, not our Faithy girl - she's got her **** together now and she's taking on the rest of the world. Yay you!!!

Go get em girl - we've got your back.

Irene (aka Fred)

bloody hell...I gotta stop being so serious....go have some quality time with your hubby

[Faithy]

Thank you Beautiful Peoples ..

I am incredibly tired today. Weary in the head.. I just want to sleep. This house hunting thing is really getting to me. We actually got offered one yesterday but turned it down because there were so many issues with it, things that needed to be fixed & the Owner's just weren't interested in fixing them...
I looked a 3 houses yesterday & applied for 2 of them, so fingers crossed etc that we get accepted for one of them today...

I went to go drop off an application form this morning & I ended up going to the wrong Agent.. I then realised that the Agents I was looking for were way back up where I had parked my car. So after the rather long walk back, then up the stairs I was thinking, I just want to eat. Walking back to my car I let the thoughts flood through my brain, why do you want to eat, why do you want to eat that??! I phoned hubby & said to him, isn't it amazing how when I feel stressed & tired the first thing I think of is food. Yesterday I felt a bit the same but all I craved was an extra apple or maybe another crispbread (succeeded at saying a big fat NO to myself :P ).. but today I was thinking ooo bacon & eggs or chocolate & cheezels.. oh AND a movie.. nothing like denial LOL.. So I'm proud of myself today. I am seeing the trigger that use to set me off and now I'm learning to just reason with myself & I'm OK....
I realise now more than ever, even though I'm sure I've said this before.. food to me is like drugs to a druggie or alcohol to the alcoholic .. I will always have these emotional issues, so I jut have to continue to stay strong & be totally honest with myself.. I need to keep my drive, I need to stay positive & I need to stay away from foods that are poison to me, the foods that make me fat..
I'm still 100% deviation free & I'm so proud of myself for that. I have NEVER in my life felt so strong & in control. My thoughts are just thoughts, they don't make me who I am. What I do with those thoughts is what makes me me.

[ropemaha]

jesus woman, do you ever post anything that doesnt almost bring me to tears.....

you are just unbelievably motivational and fantastic and driven and focussed and persistent. god you rock.

wow i just realised i have made two religious references on this post. not like me but clearly an indication of the depth of impact you have on my thinking.

love your work faithy.

cheers penny

[kgb]

I can relate Faithy food for me is a drug, when I am down or stressed or tired that is the first thing I think about.

Hopefully it does get better.

KGB

[Kohinoor]

Wow Faithy,

Another gem if ever I saw one - you give so many so much by sharing what are such important thoughts. No doubt you are inspiring 500+ people here. I sit in awe of what you may achieve into the future - you just say things so well.

With that kind of focus, I reckon your next house is just around the corner for you, and it should be a doozie - you SO deserve it,

Koh

[FotoHijinx]

Hey Faithy girl

I love how you now argue with yourself - see you are in control - you can tackle anything now and win!

big hugs and kisses and good luck with the house hunting - I know you'll get a great one!

Irene

[Annabelle Joy]

Wow, Faithy, 77 kg down without a deviation. That's fantastic, incredible.

Thank you for your last post. I learn so much from others on this forum.

AJ

[Jeannie]

Good Luck with a house Faithy, I know how hard it is in Canberra and not to mention expensive, our Son and DIL have been through all that several times.

You are really so inspiring, Great work and I really mean it when I said you should go for the "Slimmer of the Year" you have my vote..

[Faithy]

Thanks for the vote of confidence peoples (Koh, I adore you ).. Penny, I hope those are good tears .. can't have sad ones you know ..

Well the good news is we've FINALLY found a house YAYYYYYYYYY .. I'm still a wee bit stressed cause of how much it's costing us, but in the end it will be worth it.
We'd gone to look at this house last week & we didn't get accepted for it, which my whole family felt bummed about, so we applied for a couple more. The other couple, one in particular is just GORGEOUS, but way out of our area, so for our business etc it was going to be a real pain.. anyway we were feeling really good about the last 2 we applied for, pretty certain we'd get offered them both, so the decision was which one to take.. we then decided which ever one we get offered first we'll accept.. then out of the blue this afternoon we get offered this other one from last week.. the first people they accepted feel through.... it's $170.00 more a week than where we are now, but it's WAY bigger, like 2 to 3 times the size which means we'll no longer have to hire a storage shed for our business' equipment etc..

Such a relief.. so now I just have to make sure I'm organised through the move.. my scales & frying pan will stay with me at all times.. no excuses to stuff up!!!

Thank you all for your constant support, you really do help push me through the tough times.

Loves to all XXX

[ropemaha]

great faithy, problem solved.

i was going to repeat in here what i just wrote in yr photos but i am still trying to catch my breath after the shock.....

penny

[hexi2]

Funny how things just fall into place hey Faithy? Congrats on the new home!

[FotoHijinx]

Oh yay hon!!!!!

I'm so glad you got your house. New house and a new you - doesn't get much better than that.

Eeeew now the packing - hate packing - sorry hon, I'm glad its you and not me. Though I would gladly help you if I could. Think of it as stomach muscle building - all that lifting

Have a great Cohen day hon.

Irene

[Faithy]

Oh it is SUCH a relief!!! Now all I need is a Keyboard that works.. this one keeps going on strike!! It's wireless & it's not happy.. and No!!! It's not the batteries...

Easter... I HAVE to write about this when I get this fixed (grrrrrrrrr).. It's a significant hurdle for me...

Glad you all liked my photos.. I LOVE the one of me & my dog. He's my Baby.

[ropemaha]

hey faithy your dog is gorgeous. i am mad about dogs, i have 3 and i have a few regular visitors from the neighbourhood who pop in for a pat now and then.

oh yes easter....i had forgotten. be good to hear your thoughts when your ready cause as far as i am concerned its just another scam, invented by WW or JC to make us fatter and feel like crap and spend our money on their products. scheming multinational b@#stards!

oops sorry, that was a bit harsh.

cheers penny