My new life

[katiefrank70]

Hi Mette

Sorry I wasn't ignoring you, I think you posted while I was typing up that novel entry. Welcome back too Mette Hope you had a wonderful time.

I've read that too somewhere (this forum is sooo huge). I'm hoping it does, but if it doesn't happen overnite, it will happen hehehe

Come to peace within myself and know that I chose the right course. The internal demons are are rest Or I punched them out Who cares, either way they are gone.

Bring on refeed

Have a great fat busting day all

Katie

[Mette]

I didn't think you were ignoring me, pretty lady. I kinda guessed I posted while you were typing. Besides, if I feel ignored, then I'll jump up and down and yell at the top of my lungs until I get attention
Yay for you for punching out those demons Keep up the great work miss Katie!

[thenewvee]

Yay for finding that inner peace Katie!!

It feels good to do the right thing for yourself and I'm so glad that you have worked out what it is and gone and done it! Well done!

I know you will keep us informed on how you are doing!

Hugz

Vee

[SuzieQ]

Hey Katie,

Just read your post from yesterday and I totally agree with what you said, you weren't rambling at all. I've been telling myself the same thing for weeks, what good is a skinny body if it isn't a healthy one? I was not feeling healthy at all the last couple of weeks before refeed, I was starting to feel like I was abusing my body and hubby was worried about me, he thought I was beginning to have an eating disorder as I was obsessing so much about getting to goal. I was focussing not on how far I'd come and how great I'd done but on the last 1kg I just HAD to lose or I'd failed, it was a totally warped way to think and I realise that now.

What we need is to learn balance in our lives, everything in moderation is a healthy attitude to have and that has been my mantra to myself of late (just need to let it sink in now). If we indulge (which us humans do and I'm not talking about bingeing) then we need to balance that out with excercise and healthy eating it's just common sense. I don't plan to go through my life without another chocolate that's for sure!

And on the flip side I don't think it's a healthy attitude to obsess about only having healthy foods 100% of the time and doing too much excercise, that is not balance that is obsessive and can lead to eating disorders (I've had bulimia so speak from experience). There is a happy medium, we just need to remind ourselves of that and not go overboard with anything. I believe if we have everything in moderation we are being kind to ourselves, too much of anything is bad for us.

You have done amazingly Katie, be kind to yourself, be good to your body and enjoy your new slim self. Try to get some light excercise, I've been walking and doing some light weights and I feel 100% better than just a couple of weeks ago. You'll get there and feel so much better soon.

Take it easy.

Suzie

[Gorgeous one]

Hey Katie,
Glad to hear you have ordered your refeed and ready to start on Saturday. Our goal weight is only there as a guidance and if it's not healthy for you than it needs adjusting to suit. As you said you have a large frame and so do I so this hasn't really been taken into account when we were given our goal weights. By the sounds of things you are well and trully ready for refeed. Have a cry if that is what you feel like it's always good to let out those emotions even if you feel silly about it. Keep us posted all the same.
Michele

[Kohinoor]

Hi Katie,

Wow!! WOW !!! WOW !!! When you get emotional, you SURE make a lot of sense !!! Excellent post to yourself, you little winner.

This year has had extreme ups and downs. And you made it GF. You did it. You gained everything you set out to achieve and more. Pat yourself on the back and acknowledge your achievements. You and only you did it (with the help from a lot of wonderful people on here and in life) but you stuck it out through thick and thin and made it. Love you for yourself, you are worth it.

I think these words need to be shared, don't you? I'm sure MANY can relate to this kind of soul-searching.... waddaya reckon?

Don't worry, it's done.... *finger-touching-nose smiley*

CONGRATULATIONS - and enjoy refeed (as if you wouldn't )

Hugs,

Koh

[Maya]

Hi Katie, I just read your diary...you did GREAT!
PLEASE PLEASE do start the refeed.
I made a HUGE mistake by going too low the first time.

I almost graduated by finding out what the signs for refeed are, as I was so afraid to do it too soon....and so I probably ignored them and started refeed when I saw a scary skeleton in the mirror.
So, eventhough I did the refeed great, I gained ALL the weight back in next 3 months (and in the meantime went back to the strict diet couple times and nothing helped, my body was in such starvation it kept everything it could!)

So, congratulations for such a smart, wise, great decision. It will also be much easier to keep the weight there, I think...

Suzie, amazingly nice you wrote...sooo sooo true! I could sign under that...I wish to get there..the BALANCE is the key...

[katiefrank70]

Hi all

Thanks for dropping by Mette, Vee, Suzie, GO, Koh and Maya. I hope you are enjoying the shop up to christmas

Mette, ty hun for all the wonderful support through this journey. You certainly are a pillar of strength for all on here

Vee, I most certainly will have a refeed diary. I found them a wonderful inspiration and information on how others went. It is only fair to pay it forward. Ty you also from the bottom of my heart for all your wonderful support during this time.

Suzie, I can really relate to your first paragraph. It's funny how warped our thinking becomes by the end. I totally agree with what you say in re finding a healthy balance. Neither of those would work for us, and we need to find out where we fit in it. Excellent advice. Ty for your support during my "crisis". I hope all is going well with refeed. I'll pop over soon and check it out.

GO, ty you so much for your great support. I agree with the goal weight. But doing it online makes it so much harder to judge the real shape of us. I really hope your journey goes as smooth as mine and that you are nearing goal soon in 2009.

Koh, are you saying I don't normally make sense . I am truly touched by what you typed as I struggled to hit the submit button with it. But all along my diary is and has been about my journey including honesty and commitment. Ty for your wonderful support also. No words can describe our wonderful puppy except don't ever change!! I hope your break goes well. We will all miss you. Of course I will enjoy Refeed. Bring on the pineapple and rockmelon yummmmmmmmmmmmm

Maya, Ty for your support. It is good to see the perspective of someone who got to my stage and knows what the consequences are. Please don't believe I'm happy that you struggled. Just that you shared your wisdom with us all. Well done for acknowledging what went wrong, and I hope this journey is far easier and more successful for you this time. You can do it. We will be all here to cheer you on when you do to.

A huge ty to everyone who has given me support and encouragement during this time as well. Louise, DD, Jo, Emma, Shanara, Ellabelle, Francesca, Ruby, AJ, Shell just to name a few. If I didn't mention your name, please forgive me. Brains a little mushy right now. Without all the support from all you wonderful people here in cyber cohen cafe, a lot of us wouldn't make it. It's a tough diet and can be quite hard to follow, but is sure worth it. (Not to forget ASY for having the foresight of this need for this forum)

THANK YOU!!!

Ok I'm going to post my stats and losses in another post as I think this one is HUGE already. bye for now

Katie

[katiefrank70]

Ok as Phase 1 comes to an end today. I thought it might be interesting (or may not) for my final stats . Gawd measurements and everything.

Well here goes

After a 300gm loss last nite, am sitting on 62.6. From starting at 96kg and losing 33.4kg in total. The average weekly loss (I included my first week even though that isn't true weight loss) is:

1.45kg per week
(33.4 / 23 weeks)

I found at first a continuous drop on the scales. Approx half way loss, I found I started to "plateau" I now prefer to call it intergrating. My longest one was for 2weeks. And when I started to drop again, I lost 2.6kg that week. My losing pattern was a few days drop with a few quiet days. Even towards the end I had large drops. Closer to goal does not mean slower losses.

Ok measurements LOL

Arm was 14.5" is now at 11.5" Total 3.0"

Bust was 47.5" is now at 36.0" Total 11.5"

Waist was 41" is now at 30.0" Total 11.0"

Hips was 50" is now at 37.5" Total 12.5"

Thigh was 26" is now at 20.0" Total 6.0"

Bring that in at 44.0" total loss

Avg of 1.91" loss per week

(44/23)

There is only 1 week where I didn't register any shrinkage. I believe it was due to a deviation in week 6. Don't deviate at all. Not worth it. I had variances in my shrinkage but overall, I was very consistent. No matter what the scales said, I always had shrinkage. I found towards the end that my shrinkage actually increased, especially in my troubled areas.

That's my official record of my cohen's journey.

Katie

[louise41]

katie good luck with refeed, you have done so well to get to this point, you should be giving yourself a big pat on the back! I take my hat off to you and wish you every success with refeed

[thenewvee]

Wow, Katie, those results are awesome!!

I'm so completely different to you, as I'm finding those last kgs just don't want to budge or if they budge, it is very reluctantly.
I'm finding it harder to get my head to accept the new me! I just want to eat everything in sight! But I'm not!
Good luck on your refeed! I'm so happy for you! It's the final leg of this journey and the beginning of the exciting maintenance one!!
You have done such a terrific job!


Vee

[shell]

Katie!

Congrats on finshing the first part of the begining of your "new life" !!
Well done.

Enjoy your re feed.
Shell

[Maya]

CONGRATULATIONS KATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND ENJOY EVERY BITE OF REFEED!!!!!!!
SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!

[maria1969yellow]

Congratulations, thats worth celebrating... Phase 2 here it comes for you.

Thanks for the update has its very inspiring... I have struggled for a couple of days and hearing the comment of you saying dont deviate its not worth it sits nicely for me today...

Thanks for sharing your journey with us. Looking forward to updates in refeed.

[katiefrank70]

Hi all

Thanks for everyone dropping by, Louise, Vee, Shell, Maya, and Maria.

Louise, ty. I wish we were doing it together and actually thought I would be behind you. But I sure do understand the circumstances and you do what you have to do to get through. Won't be long and you will be joining me over there.

Vee, ty. I was pretty happy with the stats too. I never thought I would ever be this small. But just from reading your post you have described a wonderful system to help beat you and your thoughts. I wish you good luck with that. And you are so close yourself.

Shell, ty. Now I can make others drool over my new food (as I have been doing for a long time over other refeed diaries).

Maya, ty for the nanas. I feel pretty pleased I am here finally. Way you are going, it won't be long for you either.

Maria, it certainly is. I'm glad to have helped in any way. You will find a lot of posts in here will sing to you as you journey through. Hold strong because it is worth doing properly. I know you can because you want to.

Wow Day 1 of RF has begun. I woke feeling like a little kid on christmas day yaaaaaaaayy it's finally here. We all remember that old feeling least I do. When shopping yesterday for items I need to begin this part, I felt like a kid in the candy store as I walked into the food/vegie section of Woolies I had a grin from ear to ear, and headed straight for the good fruit section, knowing that I am buying these for me. Oh boy it felt good. People were looking at me like I was crazy but who cares. I'm so so so happy to be finally here.

After a great 8 hour sleep (haven't had one of those in a long time) I registered a cool 700gm drop and am now technically sitting on my top goal weight 61.9kg. Only just mind you. But I'm very happy where I am and pretty sure I can maintain this size quite easily without obsessing over every little thing. That was my final goal for following this journey through.

I finally got a phone call from my clinic yesterday. They were most impressed on how I had understood Refeed so well. Felt like saying but didn't "Well it's no thanks to you guys". Since I was speaking to the actual head honcho of this clinic she was very supportive and said it is more definitely time for me to begin my Refeed because of my list of symptoms I had emailed to them along with my final stats. That's great as I now feel I have their blessing (not sure why it matters) and that I can go ahead and just enjoy it without feeling I have thrown the hard work away.

Vee, I just want to say after all the fretting and worry over refeed. It really isn't anything to worry about. When you are close (or even now) just pop on over and read refeed diaries and the end part of this forum to get a head up on how it works. It is very simple and quite self explainatory.

It's very hard to let this diary go as it has been a major part of me for 6 months. I feel like I am giving up my baby. So I need to think of it as another big step in my journey of releasing this one, to move onto the next. Quite strange reaction but there you go.

Ok must get some work done. Have a great day all

Katie

[thenewvee]

You are very wise, Katie! Glad the refeed was easy for you to figure out and understand! Yes, I definitely plan on reading other's refeed diaries, and I already have been. It seems a bit different when it is someone you have been doing the program with though, rather than someone who is way ahead of you!

I'll be following your refeed avidly and learning as much as I can!

Glad you are feeling so at peace with it all! Love that last drop before refeed!
You will probably be at the lower end of the goal range once you are finished!
Way to go!!

Enjoy your refeed, and cya over in your new diary!

Vee

[new_ruby]

oh, so you've started ?!!
How exciting.
Look forward to hearing about your first 'indulgence' !!
Ruby

[Gorgeous one]

Hey Katie,
Good luck with the refeed. It will be interesting to hear how you have gone with it as you are the first that I have slightly got to know who has made it to "the other side". lol
Best Wishes,
Michele

[katiefrank70]

Hi guys

Thanks for dropping by Vee, Ruby and GO

Vee, I totally agree. It does mean more when you have been doing a journey with friends and seeing their refeed rather than unknown dieters. Feel free to ask questions, and if I have any idea of an answer I'll try to help.

Ruby, yay and yep. I just heard the calling to the wild side. I most certainly will let you know how my little indulgence went on Day 17 woohooo. Scotch or wine hmmm decisions, decisions.

GO, ty. Don't forget you too will be here one day and helping others just beginning or during their journey. It's an exciting time.

Well that is pretty much my final post for my Diary. Time to put it to sleep and open up a newer exciting one in REFEED (I'm so excited can you tell)



See all you wonderful people on the other side

Katie

[louise41]

what a great way to wake up with all that weight gone. Must be the lack of stress as your feeling so happy about everything!