Eden's learning to eat...HOORAY!!! Refeed time.

[Jenniwren]

Hi AE,
First off welcome to re-feed and aren't
you just blitzing it.

CONGRATS ON BEING A 70'S FELLOW

Will check in on you tomorrow, and
see how your bread intake is holding
up.
Cheers Jenni

[Almost Eden]

I am pretty happy with my weight being in the 70's...who would have thought? Me...in the 70's...I think I might have been in about year 7 at high school the last time I was in the 70's. What a trip.

Unfortunately I am still exhausted. Weak and lethargic seems to be the order of the day now...and quite frankly I'm over it. When are my energy levels going to come back to normal? I hate feeling so buggered all the time. It's awfull...makes it really difficult to get excited about anything.

I had a good day today even though I was tired and moody all day. Took my grandmother to the Dr. and bought her some fish and chips for lunch and a couple of things from the supermarket...so she was wrapped. Then I went off to the market with mum...and we didn't fight once. It has to be some sort of record. She is starting to back off a little which is nice. I enjoy shopping with mum...I wish we could do it more...one day I guess. The relationship has been a little strained for some years now so I guess it's a work in progress.

I made myself a steak sandwhich with my piece of bread today. I had white bread today. It was sooooooooooooooooooo good. I really enjoyed it. I have noticed though that I have been farting like a trouper since introducing bread to my diet. No standing down wind...word from the wise...hehehehe. Only kidding...a lot of wind but no smell. I guess testiment to my lovely clean bowel from 15 weeks of good wholesome food. Thank heavens for small graces. I haven't had a poo for a couple of days though. I was hoping the bread might help things along a little there...but I guess we will have to wait and see.

I am going to have some rye bread tomorrow...we bought some at the market. I can't wait for that. I am thinking shicken schnitzel on rye toast with a lovely salad so I can mop up the vinagar with the bread...I love rye bread dipped in vinagar. Sounds grose but something that I used to do with my grandmother when I was little...we always used to soak up all the viagar left at the bottom of the salad bowl after dinner.

Anywho...that's all from me. I am going to have a nice big steak for dinner tonight...I get to add a wopping 60gms to my normal portion so I'm a bit excited to see how that goes...and also to see how huge it's going to look on the plate. Bizar. Ok...that's it...big love one and all

Eden/Eamon

[shell]

Hi AE,
You having no energy might not be because of the program, you just could be run down from all the partying you have been doing!
Sounds like you are doing really well, i hope the bread is as nice as you remember.

have a great day
Shell

[Annabelle Joy]

Congratulations on being a 70s boy, AE. You deserved that big fall that got you there.

I'm not sure why I visit refeed diaries. You all seem to delight in talking about all those foods that we dieters can't eat.

Anyway, well done, once again, on all you've achieved, and on getting into the 70s.

AJ

[thenewvee]

Hey Eamon!!

I finally found you in the refeed section!!
Congrats on getting to refeed, and double congratulations on being a 70's man!!!

That is so awesome!! Well done! You must be so chuffed with what you have achieved!

This feeling weak etc is for the birds, and I hope you get past it soon and feel as great as you know you should!

You have travelled such an interesting journey doing this Cohens journey, and I know I have learnt a lot from your experiences and frustrations!

Hugz you champ!!!

Vee

[jeannie77]

CONGRATS on reaching the 70's Eamon!

Yeah I'm with AJ, why do we read these refeed diaries? Torture us with your stories of bread...hehe

Well done Hon!!!

[Almost Eden]

Well still weak all over...and still in the 70's. I got on the scales this morning and I was 80kg on the dot...then I had a wee...hehehe...and went down to 79.8kg. So 100gms up from yesterday. Not to bad when concidering all of my %'s remain the same so I am thinking it is more because I haven't had a BA in about 4 days. I recoloured my hair this morning...put light ash blond through it and thankfully all of the yellow is gone. It has really changed the colour though so it is more of a dirty blond. Looks a lot more natural but I am going to have to get used to it.

I am so thankful for this forum and the support that I get here...as I don't get it at home in the real world. Why is it that my mum is able to sing my praises to other people but not to me? She was talking on the phone to my grandmother last night and said how well I was doing but then says nothing to me. What's up with that?

This morning she helped wipe the extra colour from my skin which was nice of her...then just as I was hitting the time to wash it out she asked me to start doing house work for her. I was like can I wash the colour out of my hair first? And she was like it will only take a couple of minutes...so I did it...then off to wash out the colour. Then befor I could eat she was asking again??? Can you wipe down the walls for me I can't reach...can I have something to eat first I am really hungry...look of distain appears on her face. What would have been wrong with waiting a couple of minutes for me to eat. 30mins and I would have been done and ready to do whatever...but no. Then when I finally got the opportunity to make my breakfast I thought I would ask her if she wanted anything to which she answered no I ate when I got up...so it's ok for her to eat and so on but god forbid if anyone else might want to eat something befor they start cleaning the house.

Then I am accused of being rude and arrogant from the time I started the diet and that my hole personality has changed and then the tears come...I do everything I can for you and I get nothing but abuse. Then as I was going to launch into some hard line facts about the last 3 months I stopped and thought...I don't need to take that on. That's her psychodrama. If she wants to get shitty with me because I turned off the TV because the games "which she already watched last night" was on and I protested to working befor I ate even though I was weak and starving that's her problem. Not mine. Not something I have to absorb. She can keep her negativity...I don't need it in my life. I said nothing and ate my breakfast.

I have been rude at times...and I have been moody...I have been arrogant I suppose at times too...So I will appologise for that befor I go out. But then that will be that. I am not going to be made to feel bad for reacting to her demanding and controling personality. That's not fair either. It would be nice if she could take a step back and have a look at the bigger picture. But that might be asking a bit much.

So today I get to add some more veg to the days food...perhapse tomorrow the lethargy and weakness will be gone. I hope it happens soon...I don't know how much more I can take. It is really effecting my mood and I have been biting back over the stupidest little things. I just can't help it. Well I can but I guess my brain is so focused on just trying to function that the extra energy not to snap back is just too much. I will try harder.

That's all...big love

Eden/Eamon

[shell]

Hi AE,
Are you the only child?
Your Mum might not like that she can no longer boss you around, now that you have your confidence back and are standing up to her!

Either that or you have PMS by proxy, from being on the forum with all us lovely ladies!!!

I hope you start to feel satisfied with your meals, soon you will be telling us how stuffed you are, couldn't possibly fit another thing in !

Have a great day
Shell
ps. Mum loved the blanket & jumper-was wearing it when I left!

[hexi2]

hehehhe Shell

Its got nothing to do with single child - his mother is EXACTLY the same as mine (they are in actual fact identical twin sisters) and I know EXACTLY what he is talking about - my mum was the same when I went to Adelaide never said a nice word about how I looked but can blow the trumpet to others.

AE just don't let her get you down - water off the ducks back...can't change the mothers

[Faithy]

Hey AE.. that's such a shame.. I guess it's a good thing she tells others though? At least you know that in her weird way she is proud of you.. still, I dont get Mothers.. I dont get me being a mum.. I'm shocking.. last night I stopped myself & had to apologise to my girl because I was being a real cow.. I quite often have no patience & need things done NOW.. I'm learning slowly though that sometimes other things are more important, such as my childs breaky.. I hope she realises what she's doing (if she doesn't already).. But more importantly.. dont take it on bored hey.. you're obvioulsy a real gem & she just hasn't worked out how to treat her treasure yet..

HUGS

[Annabelle Joy]

Your mum sounds just like my mum was, AE. Perhaps it hasn't occurred to her that she hasn't told you how proud she is, just assumes you know it.

AJ

[lucylou]

Hi Eden

I hope you get your energy back soon it must be frustrating to feel so weak.

As for your mum....move out! She loves you, she's proud of you but perhaps she resents your success, resents the fact she can't control you and wants to show you who's boss. It's time you had your own space, you deserve it. I loved my mum to bits, I would do anything for her but boy after 5 minutes with her she had pressed enough of my buttons to make me want to scream! I could never live in the same house as her as an adult.

Congratulations on being a '70's boy. What an incredible achievement.

x

Loulou

[Almost Eden]

What a day...

I got a call from the Dr.'s surgery today saying that the Dr. wanted to see me...so something has come up with the bloods that I had done the other day. I hope it's something simple like low iron or something. I will keep you posted.

I was exhausted all morning and then about 3hours after breaky I got my mojo back...so off I flew into the city to meet William. We went shopping and had coffee and trapsed around the city all day pretty much. I took my morning tea and lunch with me so that was all good...it was very satisfying...and guess what...no hunger afterwards. Infact...no hunger today at all. I am so happy about that fact. The rumbly tummy was really getting a little bit old. I had the best dinner tonight. I made myself a chicken schitzel and salad and had my piece of rye bread with it to mop up all the vinagar...well actually I prepared the salad over the lightly toasted piece of fresh yummy rye. It was so bloody good I can't even begin to tell you. And huge...160gms of chicken...when I weighed it I couldn't believe the size...I kinda just stared at it for a while wondering how it was going to work...thankfully I didn't feel stuffed or bloated or anything after I had finnished...I felt so content and happy. It was perfect.

The fact it was such a good serve for me does kinda bring me to eer on the side of caution as I know the quantities are only going to get bigger from here on in. So look forward to hearing all about how bloody full I am girls and boys...I dare say over the comming days there will be a few posts like that.

Yoghurt and lychees tomorrow for breakfast...I am so excited. I had lychees the first time the other day and the beautiful sweet flavour sensations were just orgasmic. I really can't wait. I have been having egg every morning for the last few days and I am getting a little over it. I really love my yoghurt in the morning. So yay for me. And yay for yoghurt...and of course yay for Cohens. Love you love me

Eden...

[Almost Eden]

Well I have good news...I don't feel as wiped out today and to top it off I am back down the 200gms to 79.6kgs...can you believe it? I can't. After the huge meal I had yesterday I would have thought I would go up at least a little. So cool!

The rain is pelting down outside and I have to tell you...from my cosey little possy by my window it warms my little heart...strange but true. I love the rain. Of course the ducted heating is on in the house...but the air still has a little chill in it from the long cold night. Insert contented smile here...

I had my beloved yoghurt with lychees this morning for breaky and man do I feel full now. I don't think I will mix the two again like I did this morning though. I much prefer them unadulterated. So tomorrow I will have my yoghurt on it's own...well actually I might mix a little coffee into it. It's so decadent like that...and then I will have my lychees after.

Morning tea will be an apple...one of the beautiful apples I got from the farmers market the other day...no wax on the skin to make it pretty...yet still beautiful in it's imperfections...not quite the right colour for the supermarkets and kinda lumpy rather than perfectly round like all the other lego land apples you find in the supermarkets. And a couple of crispbreads. If I'm not hungry by the time morning tea comes along I might break up the crispbreads and have one with my afternoon tea.

It will be fetta and cauliflour soup for lunch and then a prawn curry for dinner. And todays addition is another new good fruit...I might use some pineapple and mix some of it into my curry. Half in the curry and half as desert. And I might make a little entree with a couple of the prawns one of my crackers and some of the veg. I will have to wait and see how inspiered I am later.

I am off to the Dr. at about 3pm to see what came up in the blood test. I hope this good feeling doesn't dissapate over the morning. I guess the test will be when it's time to get into the shower and brush my teeth. I have been so tired when brushing my teeth that I have to stop and rest half may through because my arm gets to sore and tired. So we will have to wait and see.

At the moment my head is clear and I feel good. Perhapse I'm out of the woods. One thing that does bother me a touch though...my body fat % was up by 1% this morning...not sure what that's all about. This part of the program is so exciting. Anywho...I am off to read some diaries. Love you love me...

Eden

[sheree]

hi ae
congrates on refeed
the plan im waiting for is my cohens plan i have only been doing pre cohens so far so thats why im excited to get it and at the end of the year my goal is to be at my goal weight,hope you are no longer confused..
all the best hope everything is well with you big hugs sheree

[SOON TO BE]

Hi AE
been trying to catch up with diaries I havnt visited, you have done amazingly well. Sorry to hear ur feeling ""off ur oats"", sorry bout that its a saying my dear gramps uses when hes not feeling well!! Hope the trip to the Dr pans out OK for you.
Anyway sounds like you are enjoying refeed, all that extra food,
Happy days
Tara x

[Annabelle Joy]

I hope there's nothing too serious with your blood results, Now Eden. Given that you are almost to maintenance, changing your diet will probably correct the problem.

Good to see that you are no longer hungry.

AJ

[Jenniwren]

Hi AE,
Just checking in to make sure your okay
after your doctor's visit, thinking of you.
Cheers Jenni

[jeannie77]

Hope everything went well with the Dr's today Eamon.

Its good to hear you aren't feeling hungry.

Huggles

x

[FotoHijinx]

Hey spunky

I hope everything is okay with you and the Dr news isn't too drastic.

Sounds like you are getting the hang of this refeed thing which is great.

Mothers - hmmm, strange creatures - they really do believe that we just "know" how proud of us they are. I had this talk with my mum and told her that I actually need to hear it from her - she's been great with my diet and has told me how proud of me she is. This is a hell of a lot better than her sarcastic little digs about my weight before. I had a bit of a blow up with her one day over it and told her how she never says how proud of me and what I've done with my life and all she does is has a go about my weight. She apologised and said she thought "I knew" how proud she is of me. Since then she's been a champ. So it kind of works both ways - you need to tell her so its clear what you need from her and then she might be able to say it. But of course I can't promise that will work because some people just can't do it.

Anyway - didn't mean to hijack your diary. Just love your mum and tell her you appreciate her and perhaps she might treat you in kind.

Enjoy all that yummy food!!!

Cheers
Irene