Trips Diary - Page 22

shell · #**421** 31-08-2008, 11:39

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRIPS!

Hope you have a great day

Shell

Trips · #**422** 01-09-2008, 21:19

Day 191 (1st September 200

Thanks so much Faithy, Drex and Shell!! What a lovely surprise. I actually had a really great birthday! Better than I expected. I wanted it to be a low key affair, and take the focus away from food this year, because I wanted to prove to myself that a birthday could be fun without food. It kinda worked. Well it worked for me anyway, everyone else still needed to eat, but I was quite happy in the knowledge I was wearing jeans with a belt for the first time in forever!! And whether I actually looked good or not I dunno, but I certainly convinced myself I was pretty HOT! hahahahha And this got me through the agonising celebrations at my mum's where I watched everyone stuff their faces with 'party' food while I ate my apple! But I was rewarded on the day, with a fire scare 4 houses away, and a total of 4 firetrucks arriving on the scene. That's a lotta firemen. Gotta love a man in uniform!!!!! LOL YUMMM!!!! Reminded me why I didnt need the cake afterall!

Much love,
Trips xxxxxxx

shell · #**423** 02-09-2008, 06:23

OMG Trips, you are looking sensational & yes definatley HOT!

You look SO happy, as you should be.
Keep up the great work, you are hitting the most exciting part of the program where your body shape will really change quickly!!

Have a great day

Shell

Jenniwren · #**424** 02-09-2008, 06:47

Hi Trips,
Happy Birthday for yesterday, and you
do look happy and hot you have got a glow
on your face and that's from the hard work
you have put in, so well done.
Cheers Jenni

Time4Me · #**425** 06-09-2008, 20:13

Trips

So sorry I missed your Birthday, belated birthday wishes for you, I hope you really enjoyed your day, you look AMAZING and GORGEOUS and yes you do look HOT HOT HOT~!!!!!

Wow what a difference a few months can make, you are inspirational ~!!!!

Cheers Barb~!!

Annabelle Joy · #**426** 06-09-2008, 21:57

So sorry I missed your birthday, Trips. I haven't had any time for the forum the past week. Great that you had a good day.

You are looking terrific. It's difficult to see exactly how small you now are, but your face has thinned right down. Well done with those amazing losses of yours.

Is your husband back at work by now?

AJ

Faithy · #**427** 06-09-2008, 22:28

ooooooooooo lalaaaaa

~~~

Almost Eden · #**428** 07-09-2008, 10:16

Happy birthday my love...I have written you a little reply in my diary as well...thanks for all your siupport. I'm back on Cohens foods and they are agreeing with me...surprise suprise...you will have to look at my diary to see how well tbhough. Love and stuff...Hot stuff

AE.

Jayned · #**429** 08-09-2008, 12:51

Happy belated birthdays wishes.
you are going so well.... such a good role model
Well i have finished Refeed - cant beleive i actually finished a diet, actually never believed a diet could be finished, maybe thats why i never lost weight permanently...lol
Keep up the great work

Jayne

hexi2 · #**430** 08-09-2008, 14:18

Well done Trips you are looking so pretty! Really you are going to be drop dead when you are finished!

Good on you and Happy Birthday

Trips · #**431** 19-09-2008, 21:08

Ok so I've completely lost track of the days I've been on Cohen's. But one thing I do know, it's now been 7 months for me. This month I lost 6.3kgs, which brings my grand total to just over 50kgs! Almost into the double digits too, I cant wait for that!

I gotta say I'm VERY happy with myself and my commitment to Cohen's. There are now moments, just quickly passing moments, where I allow myself a glimmer of time thinking about life on the 'thin' side. I know I'll get there, but from the start it's always been one day at a time, one small step, one little goal, and I've really tried not to centre on the 'big picture'. For me, it's still VERY daunting. It's not a natural feeling to have people compliment me, and although I'm getting used to it more, I'd be much happier to emerge without all the fuss!

The best thing I can do is look upon it as a way to inspire/influence/support other people and that's kinda what is getting me through. I've taken on the really interesting pasttime of looking at people around the 100kgs mark and thinking that's me now. I still have absolutely no concept at all of this.

The other day at work, the TV man even made a point of chatting and winking and I have NO IDEA how to interpret this. Have I entered an acceptable zone of conversation with the opposite sex? It is foreign territory to me. Is it just being friendly? Is it a validation that he thinks I'm worth a conversation? How do I read it all? I have no idea. It's like I completely missed "interaction of the sexes class 101" and I literally have no idea how to interpret stuff. It's all very uncomfortable really. I am skeptical and dubious of everyone's agenda still, and why they are talking to me. I will get over it, it's not that I'm shying away from anyone, but it's just interesting to me that I am seeing things so differently to how I did before.

Work is wonderful. I LOVE talking to people about their journey's and I love speaking to people who are inspired and willing and open and wanting to make a change in themselves and their lives for the better. It is hard though, sometimes it feels like I'm hitting my head against a brick wall, I hear ALOT about how it's so hard, and they had no choice they had to deviate, etc and it's tough trying to change people's ingrained ways of thinking, especially when I'm still doing the program myself.

I sometimes find myself being bought down a little by their attitudes, and then I have to take stock and remember that everyone has a choice. Everyone can chose to succeed or not, and how much you want something CANNOT truly be influenced by anyone else but yourself. If you want to find an excuse you will. But it's hard and more and more I find myself telling people they need to be in the right head space to do this program. It's NEVER ok to deviate, it's never ok to justify it either.

At the end of the day, the reason I've lost 50 kgs is not because I'm any different to the next person, it's because I have made a commitment to myself that I AM WORTH IT. It's that simple. No amount of me telling people they are ''worth it" is really going to change a thing if they dont believe and want the change themselves. When someone tells me, I cant do it, it's been two weeks of hell, a little bit of me cant help feeling try this program for 7months with another 6 or so to go, then tell me it's hard. But dont tell me you cant do it! Ok my vent is over, just had to get that out!

That's all I want to say right now, I will post pics very soon, just have to take them. I miss you all, I wish I had more time to keep updated. To anyone attending the Melbourne Clinic please call me anytime you need or want too. I LOVE you all, and I know there's lots of new Melbourne people joining the forum and please stop in here, or at work and say HELLO!

Much love to everyone,
Trips xxxxxxxxxx

Faithy · #**432** 19-09-2008, 22:24

Trips.. first off.. congrats so much for doing SOOO well.. I feel so incredibly proud of you.. YOU are doing such an awesome job.. Al send his love & says bravo & congrats too..

Your post has said it all so well Trips.. It annoys me no end that people seem to think that for me it was easy.. It was the hardest 12 months of my life, being on the program... well, till now.. death of a really close friend, family turmoil, moving house etc etc.. reality.. over a year life just happens & it is indeed a choice as to whether or not you are going to let life win or not..

You have been through so much too & yet here you are.. a winner in EVERY way..

I hope hubby is starting to take notice & is encouraging you.. cause I have to say, if he's not, you are even more amazing.. I dont know how I could have gotten through everything without the support of Al..

As for conversation with the opposite sex.. well I have to say it still gets me.. Like you never bothered before, why now..

Today I was completely grossed out by this guy eyeing off my lil one, Tam.. he was at least in his 60's & he was eyeing her off like she was a juicy piece of steak & he hadn't eaten in a week.. I was so pissed off..

Anyway.. yet again I rant LOL.. been doing that a lot lately..

I have so much I wish to share with you that I haven't as yet on here.. might give you a call soon..

HUGS & kisses.. missing you XXX

becca · #**433** 20-09-2008, 08:02

Trips,

You have done a fantastic job well done on 50kgs that is amazing.

Before you know it you will be under 100kgs.

Well done

becca xx

SOON TO BE · #**434** 20-09-2008, 13:46

You are truely amazing, great effort on the 50 kg and so close to being under 100 kg.

I love reading your posts...I get so much positive stuff out of them.

I came looking for you yday to see how things were going for you, then the phone rang ...and I got side tracked..as we do !!

Happy days
Tara x

Annabelle Joy · #**435** 22-09-2008, 22:41

Congratulations on 50 kgs, Trips, and so close to double digits. I'm sending a nudge to help push you into it. Are you feeling like this is just a way of life by now? I am. I'm nearly done, and looking forward to getting back to a normal life, but on the other hand I'm prepared to stick with it as long as necessary, because it's just the way I live these days.

Those people who tell you they can't do it, they're right. They can't. Maybe at some time in the future they will take the approach we have taken and they will find that it's actually quite easy.

AJ

Trips · #**436** 20-10-2008, 18:34

Ok I've completely lost track of the dates, it's 8 months into Cohen's that much I am sure of, so I guess that will have to do!

So much happens in such a short space of time in my life these days that it's hard to keep track, let alone journal it.

First and foremost, Cohen's is going well. I did weigh in today, but I didnt like the result so I'll weigh again on Friday and use that weight. One of the perks of working at the Clinic I guess! LOL But I will say I'm now well and truly under the 100kgs mark so that is FANTASTIC news. I actually feel alot different now, and I'm much more confident in my approach to doing things.

I have to say that life has been VERY busy. Bruce saw the specialist today, and for those of you aware of his arm saga, unfortunately he has a delayed union of his bone which means it's yet to heal... So after 4 months he is STILL off work and wont be back until next year now. Unfortunately Oliver (my 7 year old) also had a nasty fall from a climbing frame and he too, broke his elbow. He had surgery last week and hopefully he'll be back at school soon. Briley turns 4 on Sunday and he's so excited about his party. We are going to a cooking place (ironic I know) so that should be interesting.

Luckily I am well past the point of deviating now. Even if I was given permission to do so, I couldnt. Funny how some things become ingrained in your psyche. Initially when I commited to doing the plan 100% it was more about me not trusting myself should I deviate... and now it's about something completely different. The way I see it, the results I've had are only possible because I am using the 'gift' DR C has given me, and what a fool I'd be to sabotage that for the sake of food. NOTHING IS WORTH MORE TO ME THAN REACHING MY GOAL. And that's the way I see it.

Don't get me wrong, it's not easy. But it's a choice. And I am not prepared to place myself in the line of failure when I owe it to myself to succeed. I've let myself down once too often to do it again now. Now I know this attitude doesnt work for everyone, but it works for me. How can one moment of a quick 'sugar' fix make me feel better? It cant. Believe me, I wish I could justify it sometimes, especially this last week where I've been particularly hungry, but it cant. So I'll take that hungry feeling, I'll use it the best I can, to remind myself that I'm strong. Damn strong. I could almost break into song (I am WOMAN.... ok enough of that).

ANyway I am astonished to see everyone's pics and profiles lately, lots of people who have been here a while like me are at goal, and lots of new faces too. I guess that's the wonderful thing about this forum. Support and encouragement everywhere. Well Done to everyone who is achieving their journey and stay strong to those embarking.

Much love,
Trips xxxxxxx

Kohinoor · #**437** 20-10-2008, 18:49

Hey Trips,

Wow - such a mix of news - good news for you and the program, but such tough news re Bruce and the little one - ouch !!! You must be one tough lady to be standing tall while all of that unwinds

Hugs to hubby and the little one (and one for you too

)

Anyway, it's sounding good for you - you will let us know how you go on Friday, won't you? And hey, you must be around the point where you need to start shopping in "slim" stores, yeah?

If not yet, it MUST be close - damn close....

This New Year (2009) is gunna be THE BEST for you - the start of the rest of your life as a happy healthy svelte wee thing !!! And all thanks to YOU (and Doc Cohen). Take a bow, girl,

Hugs,

Koh

ConnieK.. · #**438** 20-10-2008, 20:27

Hey trips,

Sorry about Bruce and the little bloke, arms are bad for you at the moment it seems. BUT ..... yay for you on the mindset, the focus and your ever constant results!!!

You have come so far Trips, and you deserve so much ... it's all coming your way very very soon

Connie

hexi2 · #**439** 22-10-2008, 10:22

Wow Trips - you should be so very pleased with yourself....I think under the 100 kilo mark is really gonna make a huge difference as each kilo comes off and your new body is revealed.

Sorry to hear about all the sickness and injuries going on in your household and great to see you standing strong

Trips · #**440** 25-10-2008, 08:58

Well I feel great! I'm finally under 100kgs! I dont know how long it's been since I've been this weight, but it's a long time. I am still struggling with the attention I'm getting from people, and I'm not quite sure how to handle it, but I'm very flattered that people are commenting and I'm taking it the way I'm sure most people intend, rather than being apprehensive and almost angry about their responses. I figure for most people, especially those who are not dealing with their love affair with food, their intentions are genuine and their compliments sincere. Bring on the 80's now!!!

Much love,
Trips xxxxxxxx