Faithy's Diary

[ropemaha]

you know faithy, yesterday i went home from work cause i have a flu (great) ANYWAY i was just having a snooze and i kept thinking about food....actually i was thinking about the food on cohens and how i would love to have some of the banana and white choc birthday cake i had jsut made for my mum.....

then i thought of you and how you have been doing this for a year and i thought 'perspective penny, keep it in perspective' and i got over it then.....thanks for your help at that moment faithy, really worked.

great post, again

pen

[FotoHijinx]

Hey Faithy Girl - another inspiring post - great job!!

I totally related to your stress and how it has affected your weight as thats just what has happened to me and now it is settling again because the stress has eased up - hard when your in the middle of it though!

Hope your new job is going well and you love it.

Cheers
Irene

[Annabelle Joy]

Great post, Faithy. Do hope the new job is everything you hoped it would be.
Here's something to help you move a bit

AJ

[Faithy]

70.4 for me this morning

Less than 2 & a half to go...

Am thinking of ordering my re-feed this week.. Hubby's actually said to me that this past couple of days I'm looking over tired & I've been more than irritable.. I feel hollow inside & no meal is satisfying me anymore.. I hate to admit that, but there you have it.. I guess I'm starting to make Cruella Devil (however you spell it) look like an angel.. But anyway he's getting worried about me & I know I feel lousy..

I dont know how long it takes to get to you once you've ordered it, so I'll ask for it on Tuesday & take it from there.. even if I dont start it straight away, at least I'll have it handy..

My back is SOOO sore .. I'm thinking of getting a massage therapist to come over a couple of nights this week.. Last night I couldn't sleep it was so painful.. bleh..

Other than that I'm feeling AWESOME

[SassyK]

Wow Faithy! Another great loss this week.

It sounds like ordering refeed is a great idea. I'm soooo excited for you, and I'm looking forward to hearing about your refeed journey.

Hope your back feels better soon.

[Kohinoor]

Hi Faithy,

Eww - sounds awful - but hey, you're nearly done now !!! What a journey, and I'm sure that overall you must be on top of the world. I hope the massage helps somewhat.

I'd give you a big hug, but your back may not appreciate it ...... Ah, what the hell, I want to give you one anyway

C

Yep, get that refeed on its way - if nothing else, at least you'll then know you CAN start if it all gets too much.

Have a top day, you awesome little champ

Hugs,

Koh

[pandora]

Hi Faithy, I KNOW how you feel! I put off refeed in an attempt to get BELOW my cohens goal for some mad reason and ended up feeling irritably, washed out, weak and tired! Listen to your body, order in your refeed and if the low feelings continue, it may be time to start yr refeed! How exciting you wonderful woman you!

[shell]

Well done Faithy

You are also nearly a 60's chick!!!!!!

Have a good day
Shell

[shrinking_moi]

Faithy, you sound really relaxed about refeed but OMG hun that is bloody awsome
When my friend did refeed she said it was complicated and alot of food...and she still lost more weight.
All the best.
X
Ez

[Annabelle Joy]

What a journey you've had, Faithy, and now it's almost over. Well done.

Wouldn't it be lovely to have a MM who could, and was willing to, do a decent massage.

AJ

[ConnieK..]

Hey there Miss Faithy,

Thanks so much for getting to my diary always

You are such an inspiration to so many of us here, I am sorry to hear you are having a rough time.

I said a prayer for you today, I asked for a helping hand for the rest of the journey ...

Have a great week this week hon!

Connie

[jeannie77]

Hi Faithy

Sorry to hear your in pain. I have suffered back pain for many years, so I regularly have massages to help deal with it.

How exciting that you are ordering your refeed

Heres some help for you this week

[ropemaha]

faithy my back is bloody sore also....

but i have further to go than you do....woohoo for you mate....cant wait for your refeed diary love, that will be well exciting....

you go girl

pen

[FotoHijinx]

Yay refeed for Faithy!!! How exciting - can you believe it. You've accomplished so much - well done hon

I look forward to the next part of your journey!

Irene

[hexi2]

Wow Faithy - it looks like your journey is coming to end...well this 'Eating Plan' one anyway

I am so incredibly happy for you and you have given SO MUCH to the forum!

Thanks for believing in yourself and all of us here...

And a BIG CONGRATULATIONS!

[Faithy]

Today I am incredibly sad & feel I'm at a cross roads.. I feel like a failure & a loser..

My eating plan is going fine.. although the hunger is unbearable & I;m tired beyond belief.. & because of this (trying not to lay blame really, but it's all tied in I believe) I feel I can't do my new job..

So far, twice I have cracked .. & in front of the wrong people.. I spent the whole weekend in tears & sleeping.. this new job, this new step is quite possibly 2 months too soon..

I feel I can't do this manager's position.. & I HATE feeling like I CAN'T do something.. I'm letting a person & my feelings, my temporary feelings, get the better of me... is this self sabotage I keep asking myself.. yet again I feel like I'm trying to find a reason to not succeed in this.. yet in all honesty physically & emotionally I'm not coping..

There is a permanent part time position available.. I'm thinking about taking that instead, less hours, less responsibility.. less money *sigh*.. is it about the money?? yes & no, but I suppose not really.. can I, at the moment stand on my feet 6 days a week from 8.30 till 6 at night.. no I can't.. can I think clearly in my head.. no I can't.. which means I may well, no matter what I decide to do mean that I've made the wrong decision..

And the truth is also, I feel like I'm letting EVERYONE down around me, including myself.. but another thing is.. this diet, this program is SOOOO important to me & it is suffering & I am suffering.. & I wish I could just stop crying..

[shell]

Hi Faithy,
I am sorry you are feeling so low

You have to make it about YOU again, not your new job.
If you can't handle it now, take the part time job, it will be heaps less stressful for you at the moment.
You need to look after yourself.

You are feeling out of control of your life at the moment, take a breath and decide what is best for YOU, don't feel you will be letting anybody else down, it is not about them it about YOU YOU YOU!!

Good luck and once you make a decision a huge weight will lift from you, and you will feel SO much better
Have a great and happy day Faithy,
Shell

[Faithy]

Thank you SOO much Shell.. I needed to hear that more than you know.. (geez I cant see what I'm writing to you through my tears)..

Sending you the biggest hug ever.

[LADYJAY]

Oh Faithy you have come soooo far and no way you are a failure or a loser - put these thoughts out of your mind - you have probably done the hardest thing that anyone has had put before them losing this weight Maybe you are expecting too much from yourself. As Shell said take a step back - it is about whats best for you. Probably all your life you have put yourself last in the queue, its not being selfish to think about yourself this one time. Your health and well being is most important - I send you lots of hugs too.

janette

[Trips]

BIG HUGS and KISSES and LOVES!!!!

I will call you tonight and we will break down this dilemma (Hammer time!!) I'm not very funny I know.

I think there's a lot going on here, and they are all things that can be worked through gorgeous lady.

All I can say for now is just breathe.... and dont do anything else.

But I will say it's A LOT of change, and that is hard, especially when you are a perfectionist and NEED it all to be perfect.

Give yourself a break missy, and stop putting so much pressure on yourself.

Explain to your boss you are feeling tired at the moment, and under pressure and dont feel you are peaking.. and let her decide what is best.

I love you and I'm here always

Trips xxxxxxxxxxxx