Suzie's Diary

[SuzieQ]

Still have no voice...very frustrating.

Thanks Tara, Vee, Mette and Ruby good of you to pop in. Well, I'm just feeling sorry for myself last couple of days really, been very cranky and feel sorry for my poor kids having to put up with my mood. It's probably a good thing I can't speak as I'd just say something I'd regret anyway.

I've been feeling increasingly weak, don't know if it's the illness or approaching refeed, just hanging in there at the moment. I cleaned the bathrooms, toilets and shower this morning then decided yes, I will clean out the fridge as well and do the pantry tonight. Got it all done and then...crash was sooooo tired I couldn't keep my eyes open and had to lie on the lounge for 15 minutes to try and recuperate before doing the school pickup. I took extra multivitamin to try and get me through the arvo, hoping that works. That is one thing I am really looking forward to is being able to do more without getting so wrecked. I just can't keep up the pace for long while on Cohens, run out of steam very quickly.

Anyway, that's where I'm at, decided not to weigh today so I'll check on that tomorrow see how I'm going.

I hope the scales are kind to one and all.

Suzie

[louise41]

Sorry to hear you are still feeling unwell- just as well you can have your say here! I hope you are feeling better really soon

[SuzieQ]

Thanks Louise, sure I'll be fine in a couple of days.

I was just having a moan to hubby saying how I would LOVE a chocolate and he told me I should just start refeed tomorrow and finish this. Said I've lost enough and he doesn't really want me to lose anymore or I'll be too skinny.

So tempting to give in and take his advice, but I just really, really, really want to get to 52kg it's not far now and if I don't do it I will feel like I didn't cross the finish line ya know? It just means a lot to me to get there so I'm hanging tough. I think when we are ill everything just seems harder, including Cohens. Here's hoping I'll be all good tomorrow.

Suzie

[katiefrank70]

Hi Suzie

Sorry to hear you aren't so well. Here's hoping you are feeling much better in the morn.

I think being cranky is one of the signs too. But if you aren't ready, then you aren't ready! Only you know your body. So hang in there, tomorrow will be a brighter day.

Stay tough

Katie

[new_ruby]

Suzie,
If your body is 'supposed' to be at 52kgs, then you'll get there on refeed anyway.
Why wait?
Just think, 50g of chocolate awaits you on the other side...!!
Ruby

[Dedeemay]

Suzie, you have done SO well!!!

You must be so excited being so close to the end now!!

Just reading about how close so many people are getting to refeed really inspires me as well... I want to be there too!!

I don't have any advice, everyone else has said it all I think. Be guided by your own body, only you know when the time is right....

Have a wonderful night!

[SuzieQ]

Still quite ill, I succumbed to taking cold and flu tablets today which has made me feel better.

3yr old woke me up at 5.30am this morning and I couldn't get back to sleep after that, was nauseus etc. Hubby was again telling me this morning to start refeed, I told him if I get to 53kg by Saturday I'll start then. The scales have been stuck for me, think it's a combination of being ill, ovulating and water retention, plus I don't poo anymore......that part is really annoying me. I often feel I need to have a BM but then nothing happens . Maybe I need to think about getting a laxative of some kind.

Katie, Ruby and Deedeemay thanks so much for your support. Ruby are you trying to tempt me??? Coz it just may work! I think my body is trying to tell me something here but I'm just so focussed on that 52kg, I will sort of feel like I've failed if I don't get there, not that losing 26kg is a failure by any means-I'm so happy with myself coming so far. It's just a little voice in my head that's telling me do not stop until 52kg!

I'll just see how I feel on Saturday and make a decision then, never know this pesky last kg+ may be gone by then. I guess I really have to weigh up whether it is fair on myself and my family to be so cranky, weak and miserable just to get another 1+kg down. It's hard to say whether it is the illness or that I need to do refeed, I guess I'll know in a few days time.

Sorry to be such a misery guts, supposed to be the other way around toward the finish isn't it? I am happy about my loss don't get me wrong, just not happy with my health at the moment.

Happy losing to everyone.

Suzie

[Gorgeous one]

Hi there Suzie,
Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. I remember being told when my goal weight was being worked out that it is only a guidance and that you are the best judge as you are approaching that mark as to whether you get there or finish a bit earlier when you feel and look good. Hope this helps with your mind struggle (a little bit anyway). Wish I was where you are now.
Michele

[Kohinoor]

Hi Suzie,

Hmm, I thought it was Pen - and, yep, it was !! I wanted to share another person's story of their "last days" prior to refeed (it might help to read what Pen said, how she felt, what happened, etc.)

Here we go:-

http://newyouforum.com/forum/showpos...postcount=1066

Now, Suzie, after you click on that, go "top, right" and click on the bit that says "Thread: Pen's Diary" (or something like that). Then read back 3 or 4 pages to see how things went for her in those "last days".

Everyone is different - but maybe you will relate to some of her words. I recalled she was "holding on, hoping to make that last 1.? Kg down....."

Hope it helps,

Koh

[louise41]

suzie, I hope those cold and flu tablets are working for you- must admit would love some chocs myself, but telling myself just a little longer. Wont be long and we'll be able to start adding in some nice treats. I was invited to a new years party today and thought I may even be able to have a glass of champagne by then!

[Francesca]

Hi Suzie

Wow, I turn my back for a few days and see that you are almost at the finish line! Well done chicky!!

I know how it is to WANT a certain weight. We get fixated on a certain number and we know that if we don't reach it, we will feel disappointed. But from the sounds of it, your body is ready to start refeed and perhaps it might be a good idea to give it some serious thought.

Most of us do continue losing weight in the first few days of refeed. Some (like Ceburoo) go on to lose more than 1.5kilos despite eating more food!

See how you get on but I guess what I'm saying is that we should all remember that it's just a number. Getting to a space which is RIGHT for our bodies is far more important!

For me, given my performance on refeed and the weight range Dr Cohen set for me, it does look like 53kg is the "right" weight for me so I'll aim to stay around that in maintenance. See you there soon!

[SuzieQ]

Feeling a little better health wise today. Official weigh and measure day, I've lost 7cm but only 600g this week, I did have a big drop last week so really can't complain. Worked out I've lost a total of 147.5cm now...that is huge!

Gorgeous One - thanks so much for popping in to my diary, nice to have a new visitor . My Cohens goal range is 53-56kg, I set my own goal of 52kg as that is what I have maintained at in the past and just wanted to get back to that. But since then I've had 2 kids and I'm a wee bit older so maybe it isn't realistic to get that low anymore. You will get there before you know it, just hang tough and enjoy the ride, it's worth the effort.

Koh - ahhh you are a wise one hey? I checked out Pen's diary and yeah I can really relate to what she posted. I feel a bit like I'm in limbo at the moment not knowing the right thing to do. I have my refeed so can start whenever I'm ready so that's a plus, at least I won't have to wait for it another week. I'll give it a few more days and see how I'm travelling, maybe I just need to start at 53kg which is the low end of my Cohens range anyway.

Louise - Oh, choc's and champagne....sounds divine!!! Not long....patience! You have done so well, I don't know if I could have done it with all the travel etc you do. Good on you.

Francesca - I know you are right, it's just a number and I am a bit fixated on that right now . I think weight wise I have actually lost enough, what I really need to do now is tone up, especially the legs and tummy. I'm sure if I toned up I would be a lot happier with my body. I guess I've been scared that I will put on weight on refeed, then Christmas is coming and.....eeek the potential for the weight to creep up is really there so I wanted to be as low as possible before then. But I have to trust that I am in control and I know how to get the weight back down if I do put on a couple of kg's. It won't be the end of the world will it?! Maybe I'll start at 53kg...just 400g away.

Well, hubby is getting quite frustrated with the fact that I haven't started refeed yet, he called me a leaf last night suggesting I'll blow away in a strong wind...yah right. It's confusing for me because when we got married I weighed 52kg and was gymming every day, he never told me I was too thin then, but now I'm more than that and he's telling me I've lost enough. Perhaps it's because I had more muscle tone due to going to the gym etc I looked healthier and better back then.

Anyhoo, yeah, looks like maybe 53kg might be the magic number. A few more days and I'll start refeed, I'd say the time is just about right.

Thank you to everyone who's stopped in with encouragement and advice, I really appreciate it. We get so caught up in our own head space sometimes it's good to have the opinion of others to keep it real.

Just editing now with a very important update.......I tried my wedding dress on and IT FITS!!! OMG what a miracle, I never thought I'd see the day . That made me feel much better, I was half expecting to not be able to get the zippers up.

Have a happy day!

Suzie

[Kohinoor]

Hi Suzie,

Perhaps it's because I had more muscle tone due to going to the gym etc I looked healthier and better back then.

Toward the end of the plan, it is common to look a bit gaunt !! The fat is going from EVERYWHERE, and that includes the face. The good news is that THIS gets fixed during refeed (but often hubbys, and others, don't know this - so they worry a little more...)

Maybe let him know that, so he can start looking through "Cohens eyes" - and maybe he will start to understand that it IS still working as it does, and WILL work out right in just a few more days (weeks).

Maybe he needs reassurance too. (of course, you may have already tried this - but, in case you hadn't, I had to post...)

And, hey, AWESOME news re that Wedding dress - must've put a big smile on your face. What did hubby think?

Hugs,

Koh

[louise41]

Suzie congratuations on fitting into your wedding dress, that must have been a great moment!
I can relate to what you say about being less toned, I am looking forward to starting some exercise soon and getting everything all toned up again- but not complaining when the payoff is the great loss of weight- dont get too concerned about putting on weight my understanding is this program shows us how to deal with and handle those issues! Good luck with making your decision about refeed!

[SOON TO BE]

Congrats on it all happening for you, great total cm losses bet it feels amazing.
Well done on fitting into the wedding dress, Im a couple of KG from fitting back into mine, although I was still overweight will be great to zip it up again.
Have a great weekend.

[SuzieQ]

Aaaahhhhh relief!!! This is way TMI but I went to the chemist this morning and got some Normacol...finally I had a BM and a quite impressive one at that . Yes I know I'm gross.

Hoping that now I'm taking the Normacol and BM's will be regular the scales may move just that little bit I want them to.

Koh - yes I've told hubby, he was actually surprised when I told him yesterday I fit into my wedding dress, he said he thought it would be too big!! He didn't see me in it but 3yr old did and he was so excited, he said "daddy will come home and go ooohhhh" hehehe so cute, he told me I should wear it ALL the time...yeah school pick up in the wedding dress can you see it now?? haha.

Louise - yes it was a lovely moment fitting into that dress again, I really never thought that day would come. I am HANGING to get fit and toned, sooo looking forward to it. Not long now .

Tara - Won't be long til your dress fits, it is such a good feeling I have to say.

I am feeling much better this morning I have to say, I think the constipation was affecting me more than I realised. Eldest is home sick today so we are just taking it easy, movie day today...well for them anyway, not me.

I have made up my refeed shopping list so ready to go, I'll see what the scales say tomorrow but hopefully in the next few days I'll start.

Have a wonderful happy day everyone!

Suzie

[Ellabelle]

Glad to hear you managed to get some relief

Congratulations on getting back into your wedding dress - how exciting!!! your son sounds like a real sweetie

[SuzieQ]

hmmmm just a little tip for those thinking of taking Normacol for constipation....only take 1 teaspoon not 2 as it says on the box I have been let's say......very busy in the bathroom all day!!! Good to have a clean out but OMG I think I took too much.

[Ellabelle]

oh Suzie, you poor thing! Hope it gets out of your system soon (sorry for the unintended pun) lol

[katiefrank70]

Hi Suzie

Got a good giggle from your last few entries. I can imagine swanning around the gates dressed up in a wedding dress. Imagine the looks you would get

And the Normacol, sorry to hear it's too effective. At least in refeed things go back to normal.

Hope all goes well with refeed. So exciting

Katie