Faithy's Diary

[bitten]

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faithy-

you are superb.


what a joy to read your diary. thank you-
bitten

[jeannie77]

Congrats Faithy on being rid of 90kgs forever

Well Done on completing the journey and refeed, and inspiring many others to make the commitment to a healthier lifestyle. You have been an angel to some many people and I am sure you will continue to guide people.

I wish you happiness in enjoying your new body and feeling comfortable in your skin.

Thankyou for sharing your journey

[SassyK]

My dear Faithy... if there was such as thing as "Cohens Idol" you'd win for sure!!!

90kg in a year is just THE MOST PHENOMENAL ACHIEVEMENT. It must feel so surreal at times, but believe me, I've seen you and you're NOT DREAMING. You are AMAZING.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your amazing journey with us, and for all the support,encouragement and motivation you've given me and everyone else on the forum.

[shrinking_moi]

Faithy, OMG I could babble on here but I won't. What have achieved is phenominal to say the least. I bet there are so many people out there with no where near 90kgs to lose and think they can't do it. You are proof that it can be done and are a true inspiration.....XXXX

[Faithy]

Thanks so much everyone ..

Koh.. my mind does need a catch up.. wow today it's at least thinking about it .. A hug sure would do nicely .. I think in a couple of weeks I might be a bit of an emotional mess LOL..
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Andy.. you're such a champ.. you too have and are doing so well.. thank you..
HUGS

Bitten,
thanks so much gorgeous lady .. I needed that..
HUGS

Jeannie ..
thanks hey An angel.. .. sounds nice to be honest, thanks so much
HUGSSS

Sassy :P..
Aww thanx gorgeous girl.. it sure does feel surreal.. so very much.. it's sinking in a bit today though.. It's been such a pleasure, seriously..
HUGSSSS

Ez..
Moi :P.. Babble away :P LOL.. thank you .. so true though.. there's no such thing as can't.. everyone CAN do it
HUGS

Today.. well WOW what an eye opener..

My goodness I am one spoilt woman.. I can't begin to explain to you just how truly wonderful & amazing my man is *sigh*.. I've been fighting off tears all day.. it kind of started with him really... he just walked past me while I was making my lunch & dinner & I said something about hopefully this is the last time I had to do this (weigh all my food etc etc) before I headed off to work & he just casually says "you know, you've just stuck to something 100% for a whole year, that's pretty amazing.. you should be very proud of yourself.. I am".. I just cried.. it's starting to slowly hit me.. like look at what I've done..
Tears well up even now..

Hubby dropped me off & picked me up from work today.. after work he took me to some clothes shops & said that he had told my girls that tomorrow is your mum's day.. we're going to take her clothes shopping, out to breakfast (or lunch) & then he said he's going to take me out for dinner.. he reckons he's going to pick a figure in the morning (money wise) & that's what he's going to spend on me.. & I'm not to argue with him about it..
Again tears well up..
He mentioned a few months back as part of a reward for me when I get to my goal he was going to spoil me & here he is, sticking to his word.. I know there are a lot of men out there that do.. but my ex, well he wasn't like that & we were together for over 17 years.. I guess you just program yourself up for disappointment.. Well I did..

We were walking through different shops.. like lollie shops etc.. darell lee (however you spell it) & we ended up joking with some friends we bumped in too.. How I get up being really skinny & then on Sunday morning I wake up after stuffing my face all day & I'm right back to 160 kilos or so.. seriously, that's just nightmare material.. but it was pretty funny & it makes me realise how much I do have to watch myself..

Anyway.. I'm REALLY looking forward to having just a really nice relaxing day.. not having to worry about taking my fruit & crispbreads & making sure there's at least 5 hours etc etc.. I was so organised & careful ALL year.. so tomorrow I'm going to feel a bit like I've left an arm at home I'm guessing.. Actually I have butterflies :P.. LOL..

This past year has been HUGE.. I've been SOO focused & sooo in tune to this program.. and you know what??!! It's been worth EVERY moment.. every single part of it.. even stressing out like crazy when my food scales battery died.. numerous times.. I just wasn't prepared for ANYTHING to get in my way.. NOTHING was going to beat me.. I made a promise to myself when I started & this woman NEVER breaks a promise.. I'm just SOOO glad that she FINALLY promised to do something for herself for once.. & now, well who knows where my life will take me now.. but where ever it is.. I'm incredibly excited..

Guys you know what.. seriously.. If I can do it so can you.. I failed EVERY diet for years & years.. this one DOES work.. get it in your heads why you're here and JUST DO IT!!! .. the final results are sooo worth it.

[jeannie77]

Sounds like you are going to have a wonderful day tomorrow Faithy

Enjoy - you so totally deserve it

[bitten]

oh faithy- you gorgeous poppette-

i am so excited for you. what a glorious day you are going to have.
enjoy.
revel in it!


you deserve this so very, very much-
bittenx

[TheSkinnyMeInside]

Faithy...you are such an inspiration. You accomplishment is huge and it shows that you are so proud of yourself as you should be. You're right that you made a promise to yourself and you kept it. Isn't it amazing how we spend our lives doing so much for other people we just forget to make ourselves important? Well, you finally made yourself important and it will and has already changed your life.

Your DH sounds amazing. I hope you enjoy your day to the fullest...you really do deserve it. Can't wait to hear all about it.

Cindy

[shell]

Hi Faithy,

Does your DH have a spare brother !!

I hope you have a sensational day today, you totally deserve it.

I am glad your hubby has been so supportive throughout this whole beginning of a new life for you.

Today can be your second "birthday", the NEW Faithy is reborn and ready to take on the world!!
Shell

[ropemaha]

yknow faithy, i hear you about how wonderful you dh is but i gotta tell you something...his behaviour is NORMAL! this is the way your supposed to be treated, this is the correct expectation from you.....to be treated with love and respect...

funny how when we treat ourselves this way, others treat us this way...

when we treat ourselves badly, others treat us badly....

you reap what you sew mate...as far as i am concerned, truer words have never been spoken...

it doesnt matter taht you spent 17yrs working towards this....this was your path and you know what...it wasnt 50yrs mate...thank god...

so get used to it and use that 17yrs as your point of reference for the rest of your days...

love your work mate

pen

[shell]

Hi Faithy,
So how did your "spoilt rotten" day go
Hope you had a magnificent day, and soaked up all the special attention you deserved.
Shell

[SassyK]

Hey Faithy Girl. I hope you had a fantastic day yesterday and that you got spoilt rotten!!! You deserve it. I'd love to hear how it went...

[TheSkinnyMeInside]

You know what Penny...you are SO RIGHT!!! It is the truth...we ALL deserve to be treated that way...we really do tend to lose sight of that and I'm so happy you put that out there. Faithy you do deserve it...and how great it must feel to have a man in your life that understands that you do.

Hope your day was magical.

Cindy

[pandora]

Thanks Faithy for yet another truly inspirational and motivating post about what is truly possible with cohens IF we bite the bullet and follow the rules exactly to the letter! Just the pep talk i need today my love! Look forward to hearing how yr pamper day went with the family.

[Faithy]

Hey Beautiful People..

Well thank you ALL for stopping by.. the weekend was a dream.. well mainly Saturday.. Hubby was wayyyy attentive & did everything possible to make that day ALL about me..
He bought me a couple of really nice tracksuits.. Adidas & Everlast.. WOW!! I've never owned such snazzy looking work out gear before.. we went in to nearly every fashion store possible.. trying on all sorts of stuff & he just wanted to buy me everything..
We had a lovely lunch, although I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would.. I had a kebab in flat bread & it's weird how you think you're going to enjoy something, you remember it tasting a certain way, but it was nothing like how I remembered it LOL..
Later on he took me to the Dendy cinemas La Premier.. you know., the one where there's just 30 seats & the seats lie back & they bring you your dinner.. well that was pretty cool.. but I think I ended up eating way too much.. the next day I expected the scales to be through the roof, but just went up 200 grams..
Anyway Sunday was the BAD one.. I was pretty cool.. had a bit of chocolate.. but later that evening my daughter put on a barbeque so I had ONE sausage in a piece of bread (no butter) and some salad.. 10 minutes later my tummy hurt like hell!!!!! .. I ended up going to bed.. I was in so much pain..
Anyway today the scales went up OVER 2 kilos .. I'm terribly depressed about it.. so today I went back on the good ol Cohen's plan.. until tonight.. a friend came over with cheesecake .. I ate it..

It's so sad.. I know if I just chilled out & just relaxed about things I know I'd be OK.. but instead I stress & feel 'guilty' about one, not only letting hubby buy me all this awesome stuff but two, feeling guilty about eating wrong.. I knew I'd go up a little & I also knew that if I just stuck to the program after the weekend I'd be back to square one.. but no I have to beat myself up & take ALL the joy out of an otherwise perfect weekend..

So tomorrow I'll have to be good & I will be.. I haven't come this far to throw in the towel so quickly..

I know for sure of one thing.. no more sausages for me.. my tummy hurt so bad.. like REALLY bad..

Oh one good thing.. I did wake up early on SUnday morning & went for a jog.. it felt awesome & put me in a really good mood.. I just wish I stayed that way..

I'll fill you all in on how I'm going.. I just HATE feeling like I'm the biggest suck out there...

[Annabelle Joy]

Faithy, you've lost one whole significantly overweight person in a year. If you can do that you can do anything you want in the rest of your life, including managing your maintenance and staying down there.

Sounds like you had a lovely weekend apart from the barbecue effects. I love those cinemas.

AJ

[Almost Eden]

You said it yourself Faithy. You have the tools and the knowledge to stay at your goal. You will be fine. I hope you feel better. Meanwhile...sausages...they are grose anyway. No big loss. Huggles

AE.

[Kohinoor]

Hi little champ,

You're sounding a bit "tender" - but that's what it's like when we "fall off the bike" when learning to ride - and, don't forget, that IS where you are at now !! This is a whole NEW you - so it's like a whole new beginning for you when it comes to food.

Hey, Lonniecee said it good in an early "gems" post - wait up ...... Here it is:-

Originally Posted by Lonniecee

Okay, I'll be the first to admit that post refeed, some of my choices haven't been the best, but I'm still learning and getting acquainted with this new body that is a little more sensitive than it used to be

Not hard to see why it found its way into gems, eh?

Faithy, YOU are right there, right now !!! You are still "getting acquainted" with a whole new way of eating (without the restrictions of the Cohen plan) to suit this new streamlined body that you gifted yourself with. Probably all a bit scarey I would think..... You are likely to make the occasional "wrong move" (e.g. did you add "sausages" at any time during refeed? Hmmm - didn't think so :P )

So, guess what, you are learning to ride that bike (the food bike) all over again. Shame that you might skin your knees once or twice in the early days, but you WILL learn to ride it !!!

So, lovely lady, give yourself some space - allow the time to pass that is required to master this "new bike" - as I'm sure you will. Meantime, do keep on coming here to warn others of how it can be irksome "learning to ride" all over again. I'm sure your input is (as always) very welcome to those following after. You're still a champ !!

Hugs,

Koh

[bitten]

sausages baaaaaad.....faithy GOOOOOOOD!

honey you are learning all about everything all over again.
be kind, be gentle....
you are amazing and you will not stuff this up, it is not an option.

no suck, just sizzle-

bittenx

[Faithy]

Thanks SOOOOOOOOO much Bitten, AE, AJ & Koh .. seriously I felt in such a bad way yesterday.. thank you for helping to put things back in to perspective..

I did feel like I lost complete control yesterday.. I had fallen off my bike BIG time & forgot briefly how to ride it again..
Today I have gotten off that bike had a REALLY good look at it & the mechanics of it & have put the training wheels back on.. even if for only a day or 2..

It IS all about mind set.. it IS all about believing in myself.. I have more control over myself & my body than I give myself credit for.. I REFUSE to give in to food.. I REFUSE to say I can't do it.. cause I can!!! Further more the weirdest part is that I LOVE eating healthy so why on earth have I allowed myself to get carried away with junk is beyond me.. it doesn't taste good, it makes me feel DREADFUL when I eat it & it makes me quite simply.. fat!!!!!!!!

Today I enjoyed my usual yoghurt & crispbread for breakky.. I've just had a yummy juicy apple for morning tea & later for lunch I'm going have one of my favourite dishes chicken chow mien.. Cohen's style of course .. tonight I'm going to have my favourite dinner which is beef strips with tomato, onion, spinach & chilli.. I enjoy this food immensely.. so I'll keep eating it.. when the kilos come back off I might up the amounts just a little but eat the same AND the family can join me.. it's time for me to stop being silly about this & get serious.. I'm worth more than that..

Thanks guys again for encouraging me & boosting me forward.. you all seriously rock!!!!