Mette's refeed diary - I made it!

[Dedeemay]

Hi Mette,

your dinner sounds delicious...I miss broccoli too!!! Couldn't care less if I never saw another potato in my life, but boy I am looking forward to the broccoli!

Just wanted to pop in and say hi...hope you are enjoying your weekend.

You are doing so well! Enjoy your last few days!..(then on to maintenance!! WOW)

[Mette]

DAY 15
Starting weight: 65.4kg
Today's weight: 65.6kg
Total change: +0.2kg

No change overnight, although my tummy feels a lot better. Makes me think it really is the stress doing it to me rather than the food I eat. I'm considering resigning a week earlier than planned, both to reduce the stress and to have time to get all my things in order before I go back to Denmark. I can't believe that's only 5 weeks away
I just can't help but feel like a failure for wanting to resign earlier than planned. I should be able to do this. But the commute and the frustrating work environment - everything is manual and all tasks seem to have to pass through 4 sets of hands, or you're just not trying hard enough - combined with being unable to stop worrying about the visa situation... It's just making me anxious and sick. So I might have to face the fact that my mind and body just don't want to play this game anymore, and throw in the towel. No job is worth my health, right?

Today was much the same as yesterday, foodwise, apart from being allowed butter. Not really exciting, but I had it on my bread this morning just so my body could try it. No problems with it.
Had an awesome dinner! Kind of a stew with broccoli, carrots, asparagus, beef and pork, with a little bit of rice. It was SOOOOO good! And there was so much of it! Too much. But I ate it! Cause it was just too good to waste! Keith and his dad had KFC. Yuck! Keith was a bit jealous of my meal, I think!

Thank you so much for stopping by Vee, Aslan, Jo and DD and anyone else reading this! Your support means the world to me!

Big hugs to you all! Hope you are all having a wonderful weekend and taking good care of yourselves!

[Shanara]

Hi Mette,

Well I've finally got back into your diary and what a diary! You are amazing! What a magnificent journey you are having!

Mette sometimes I think we who have been overweight are so quick to judge ourselves as failures. Sounds like your heart and soul are telling yourself what you need to do to give yourself time to prepare for revisiting Denmark. Can't beleive that Australia will reject your visa application. I am sure everyone here is energetically supporting you.

Oh the broccoli sounds great although I must say I really love broccolini - like broccoli but I like the taste better. Looking forward to them ... and bananas!

Keep smiling gorgeous woman
Shanara

[Snugglebear]

Hey Mette

Only 5 weeks to go??? Oh no, I am starting to miss you already I hope things go well for the visa.

Yeah, go on, chuck in the job and spend your last bit of time just chillin' and getting organised. It isn't worth the ulcer and the tummy aches. Stress just isn't good for you.

Butter?? The only place I like it is on crumpets and I am not planning on putting them back on my list. Bring on the broccoli!!!

Take care baby, deep breathes

Jo

[Mette]

DAY 16
Starting weight: 65.4kg
Today's weight: 65kg
Total change: -0.4kg

What a difference a good night's sleep makes! Well, two good night's sleep, really. I woke up to a 600 gram loss this morning, which was wonderful! It just confirms my decision that a week less with the work and commuting can only be of the good. So there is only 3 weeks left of it now.

And only 2 days left of refeed! Decreased my old protein and increased my new protein today. Tomorrow, that will be the case for the new veg, and I will have a biscuit and a glass of wine. All of a sudden there are a lot of changes! Good thing I'm prepared!

Thank you so much for stopping by Shanara and Jo. You are both doing so incredibly well! I hope the guardians of the scales are kind to you!

Time for bed, I think. Take good care everyone. Big fat-melting hugs to you all!

[Kristine..]

Originally Posted by Mette

I'm considering resigning a week earlier than planned, both to reduce the stress and to have time to get all my things in order before I go back to Denmark.

Hello Mette

If you have the option of leaving a stressful environment then why wouldn't you?

Once we have made the decision to leave, it is time to move on.

Did you ever see the movie 'Pandora and the Flying Dutchman'?

A really great movie. There is a scene where the Heroine asks for more time (with him), and his reply is a classic about the meaning of time, the essence of time, given that he is condemned to sail for all eternity.

But we are not.

We can land at any time - it is our own lack of navigation which keeps us sailing around in circles long after the wind has died.

So furl the main sail, Mette, ship the oars, and sail your ship in to port. No need to keep on with something just for the sake of it.

Best wishes for your return to Denmark. You can log in from anywhere so hope you continue with the Forum and that we can hear of your next adventure

Cheers
Kristine

[thenewvee]

Hey Mette!

Yay, that refeed is sitll going great. Only 2 more days! Woooo hoooooooooo!

You shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to resign a week earlier. It makes sense when you have so much to do to prepare for your trip back to Denmark! You need to still keep looking after yourself and what's best for you and not feel guilty for doing so!

Hope your week goes quickly with the commuting and that you enjoy your biccie and wine!

Vee

[maria1969yellow]

Hi Mette, ah quit I say. Life is too short and if your not happy and can change it why not....

Like the others we will miss you being in Denmark but has we can log anywhere hope you will stay in touch and hopefully you will be back here before you know it.

Keith is here isnt he?????

[km64]

Biscuit and a glass of wine - what a pleasure. You've done so well Mette and sound like you are truly enjoying savouring the little things. Wish you very well for rest of refeed and your whole life ahead as a slim woman!!!

cheers - Kay.

[Mette]

DAY 17
Starting weight: 65.4kg
Today's weight: 64.8kg
Total change: -0.6kg

Day 17. I had wine. My head is fuzzy. I'm not going to make a lot of sense, I'm afraid. Mind you, many would argue that I never do. I don't think I'll be drinking much in future. It doesn't feel as good as I remember. I've gotten too used to having my wits about me, I'm afraid. My weight was down another 200 grams this morning! Yay! Good results from a relaxing weekend!

I also had a biscuit this afternoon. I'm afraid that my tastebuds haven't changed in that area, and I still love sweet things. So I'll have to be aware of what I put in my mouth. Anything in moderation, I think. I plan on not having sweets in the house, so that way I'm not tempted, and I can have it when I'm out or for special occasions.

For the next two weeks, I'm spending the weeknights at a friend's place in Sydney because there is trackwork, and the whole buses and trains thing just isn't going to work. It lets me sleep in, which is good. Less commuting. They're not very supportive about the food thing though. Don't get me wrong, they'd never try to sabotage me. But they think that I need to loosen up once I finish. I don't think so. I'm going to be taking baby steps, doing my own thing. I've worked too hard and come too far to let anyone deter me from staying on this path! So there!

Other than the biscuit and wine, there was a decrease in the old veg and an increase in the new, and tomorrow the increase/decrease will be bigger again. and I'll be allowed two biscuits! Very exciting! And after that... the rest of my life...

Thank you so much for your supportive comments Kristine, Vee, Maria and Kay! You're all so very right. I have the option of quitting earlier than originally planned, and it's what is best for me. So not long left there now!
I think I'll watch NCIS for a bit and then go to sleep. The wine made me tired...

Big hugs to you all!

[Dedeemay]

Hi Mette,

wow...wine! I am so jealous...mind you I will probably react the same way by the time i get to have some again! LOL

I do hope you keep in touch after you get to Denmark...the days won;t be the same without a little of your support and sunny words of wisdom!

Just to let you know I pop in often although I don't always post...I have been keeping my eye on you!

Hugssss I am sure you will make the right decision for you sweetie....if its all too much then leave a week early...in the great scheme of things what's a week when it will help your sanity so much!

You are going great guns girl..keep at it!

[yeti]

Mette - you are amazing!!
I started this forum and you were not seeing great results, but now you've almost finished!!!
Wine!!! My advice is, make sure it's good wine. Less chance of a headache. If we're going to indulge, whether it's chocolate, or a biscuit, or champagne, make it the best you can get a hold of. A little of something really good is better than a lot of mediocre...It becomes a real treat then, and you'll probably only want to indulge occasionally.

I'm truly thrilled for you. Thanks for the inspiration!

[Maya]

Hey, YOU PRETTY SLIM LADY!!!!!

Wine, cookies... hello????? Are we talking about diet???? SOOO COOOL girl, I am sooo happy you're doing so well!

Did you make any plan how you'll keep on going (the maintnence)? Excited?

Stress DEFENITELY slows down everything...adrenal glands are soooo sensitive!!!!!

But look at you - my Gosh, what a Valentine day YOU will have!!!!!!

[Snugglebear]

Hey sweet girl

Biscuits???????? I had almost forgotten about them, NOT. Did you notice that they just release new varieties of TIM TAM's, b*st*rds!!!!! I think they are doing it just to annoy me, personally. I used to love the Pink Wish ones. You can keep the wine though, gives me migraines.

You are so close to being finished, yippppeeeeee. Yes, I think you are wise with the whole "baby steps" concept. It would be so easy to just slip back into bad habits. We have worked too hard to let that happen.

It should make life alot easier and less stressful staying with friends during the week to cut down all that travel time. Your friends are not supportive about the Cohens thing, are they mad?? Don't they see how much happier and healthier you are?? You are strong enough to do the right thing darling girl, its just a shame they are more supportive.

Take care

Jo

[Aslan]

Yay Mette!! So close to the end (or the beginning - depends how philosophical you want to be)

Wine and biscuits sounds amazing, interesting you werent fussed by the wine anymore, cant imagine that happening to me

Great idea about quitting early too - whatevers best to make sure you remain as stress free as possible.

Enjoy!!!!

[hexi2]

Doing well Mette

Yep the biscuits are evil! I never handled them well...this time on refeed I will make sure I chuck the rest of the packet out....I cant be trusted with them

[Mette]

DAY 18
Starting weight: 65.4kg
Today's weight: 65kg
Total change: -0.4kg

It's official. I made it!! *Takes a bow* It took longer than I expected, but I proved to myself that I could be strong and do something that has not only let me reach a weight I've dreamed of for years, but also let me reclaim my health and my self-esteem.

What I really appreciate about this program is the enormous amount of support, friendship and love that I've discovered. This forum has been such a wonderful source of inspiration, encouragement and advice and each and every one of you makes it the special and wonderful community that it is. And on the home front, Keith has been an unwavering pillar of strength for me, always ready to be a shoulder to lean and cry on and rejoicing in the victories I've experienced. I am truly blessed, having so many wonderful people in my life.

Enough with the sappy, Mette! Today there was a significant reduction in old veg and increase in the new, along with an extra plain biscuit. That is going to be one of those things I'll have to be very conscious about. I don't want to never be able to have anything sugary, but I will have to be strict with how much. Decide to have one piece of chocolate and then no more. It'll be trial and error, and I'll take baby steps so I'll be able to maintain my weight. I have faith that I can do it.

DD, Yeti, Maya, Jo, Aslan, Hexi and anyone else reading this - thank you so much for taking the time to visit and give so much support. I will never be able to express how much it means to me, but I think you all understand what I mean.

Big hugs to you all!

[yeti]

yay mette!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[km64]

CONGRATULATIONS Mette - how cool is that!!

Good on you and thanks for being such an inspiration - best wishes for maintenance.

Cheers - Kay.

[louise41]

Congratuations Mette, that is fantastic - such an achievement! How many people do you know who actually start a diet , get to goal and complete the entire program. I still find it funny to say I have lost all my weight. Best of luck with the ongoing Maintenance