Pumped!! - Beckstar's Diary

[Mette]

It's so important to be conscious about it and make the conscious decision about those things every time until it becomes habitual!
You made the right choice! Good on you!

[Becstar]

hi there, says me as i hang my head in shame. I have put on quite a bit of weight since I last visited so I have been hiding (and binging) but I am realising how important the support i received from here helped me. Today was the first day i have succesfully gone back onto the original program. Yesterday i was good all day until tea time, i was going to just have the savoury mince as it waas easer then i decided with the cold weather and all i would just have a chicken wrap toasted which meant cheese. this wouldnt have been too badthat is if i didnt follow it with a second one and then a plteful of mince followed by two more plates of mince followed by a bread roll with mince, followed by an ICECREAM SUDAE, lol low fat of course. Man this is making me hungry but my goal is to have at least one cohen day and if i get too hungry i can go to bed. i feel soooo much better when i eat cohen food but those carbs, i tell ya, its like what i expect that people to do hard drugs and hallucinate see. its like i am thinking thoses carbs are out to get me lol, lucky for me I am going to the pyschologist on Wed. Anyhoo I am being honest with myself and am hoping to make progress by my suppot teams. thank you to each and everyone for your support i am truely becoming aware of the importance of obtaining support , Cheers Bec

[rowemob]

Hi Bec,
We are supporting you 110%, you can do this .
Cheers
Michelle

[Kohinoor]

Hi Becstar,

Aww, yeah, I hear it from time to time - those carbs will get you if you take too much of them..... and it's not pretty when that happens

those carbs, i tell ya, its like what i expect that people to do hard drugs and hallucinate see. its like i am thinking thoses carbs are out to get me lol, lucky for me I am going to the pyschologist on Wed.

Hey, can't hurt to get an outside opinion - a whole different perspective.

At the Cohens side of things though, did you ever check out that "Back on the bus" post? If you can get your head around that, it tells you (in a somewhat comical, yet true, way) just how bad carbs can be when taken without thought.

In case you hadn't seen it, go here:-
Getting back on the bus

Good luck with your fight, Bec - and with the extra help tomorrow. It is always smart to realise when you realise you need extra help. So congrats on being smart !! I truly hope it helps you to overcome what is quite a common problem (which no doubt led to you doing Cohens in the first place). Good thing is, once your head talk is sorted, you KNOW your body CAN come under control once more. You've already PROVED that,

hugs for luck,

Koh

PS To be totally truthful, carbs are necessary in the right amounts. But, they can "trigger" binges in the wrong situation - which is where Bec seems to be right now. For many, they need to be treated with caution, and approached SLOWLY and carefully when going into Maintenance - baby steps stuff..... Read around - there is lots here about them.

[Becstar]

hi everyone. Well its been a long time since I have been on here but just thought I would keep everyone up to date on what has been happening. I was doing a bit too well on the Cohens programme and before I knew it had gone down to 63 kilos. Not too good when I was also carrying around an extra 5 kilos of excess skin. I just thought it would be good to be officialy underweight for the first time in my life. i still felt fat however because of the empty "bum" i was carrying in front of my stomach. I put a little bit back on but then it became too much so I booked myself in for surgery and 5 weeks after my operation I am the happiest person only I still have a little way to go so I have started my programme again and in addition am listening to a weight control cd. I weigh 80kilos and am looking forward to getting back to 68. I think that is where I feel comfortable.Knowing that I did so well with all the support previously, I am excited to be on here again in the 'safe zone'. I also hope to meet some new people that are just starting out and need encouraging just as I did when I first started. I know it can be done because I am proof, 60kilos in 11 months.....