Can't believe I'm back :-(

[Mich]

well, its been a while and my odl diary is still here, but i'm goiing to start a new one.

I've put on so much weight, paid for my program today, bloods tomorrow (hopefully), and then back 100%.

OH well, I guess the old saying rings true, we only fail when we stop trying.

Here's to losing and doing refeed properly this time!

[makingmemories]

Welcome back mich! I'm having my bloods done on sat, so we will prob start around the same time, and we are both thru the Brisbane clinic!
How much weight do you want to lose?

[Mich]

Hey MM, i'm almost too scared to weight, My lowest was 63kgs and I bet i'm to around 86 now, so I dare say, 25kgs?

and you??

would be nice to start at the same time!

[claireybell]

Mich !! Sorry I didn't see your thread and wrote you a message in MMs thread . Please know that you're the one simple inspiration I had for starting Cohen's myself. Looked at your pics and read your diary regularly. I'm one of sharyns too... she's fab.

So excited to follow your new journey and support u this time around. Don't Be afraid, you've come to the right place and YOU know Dr c can and will change your life.

Hope you can get the bloods asap and begin next week !!

[makingmemories]

You will lose that so quickly and I bet soon you will love hopping on the scales!

I'm currently 131kg my heaviest ever. So embarrassing. I got o 76 on sure slim, in 2005, then started putting weight on. Got married in 2007 aug, and in jan of that year I went back to SS for plan 2, at 88kg. Since aug-dec 2007 I went from 80 to 95kg. Nothing ever worked, I was going thru a tough time with my marriage and jobs, and then 2010 I was about 125 and really sick. I was then diagnosed with an under active thyroid, started meds and that has been wonderful. My pcos is flared up, I would have a period for 5 weeks straight really heavy. My iron levels dropped to 7. I thought I was going to die I was so tired. So here I am, I need to do something and this is my last hope.

[Mich]

Claireybell, you nearly brought a tear to my eye! I just checked out your pics! what a lil hottie you are! you've reinspired me, (i'm avoiding looking at my own pics for the moment)

Live certainly throws us curve balls and I seem to often be in the middle of a dangerous ball game, so as I said to the lovely Sharyn, time to kick myself up the butt and start again, after all, there is no "perfecdt" time.

Gosh, last time on program, I travelled extensively, went on holidays etc and never deviated! time to do that again!

Always going to have stress in my life so I just have to work around it. Oddly enough I notice when i'm overweight, I don't cope as well, I don't sleep well, and the list goes on.

Miss CB you've truely given me a wee kick up the butt by your words.

MM, we can really kick this demon in the butt lets do it!

[claireybell]

I am glad you're feeling inspired and motivated to find "you" again under some of the excess kilos. You'll be so glad you did.

And hey, all those challenges yet deviation free on your first journey shows you absolutely CAN do this

I hope That soon you can revisit your pics... they really will inspire you again. Can't wait to follow your journey

Thanks for your kind words about my pics too, v kind of u!!

[Mich]

Miss CB, I did it. and Wow. i don't think my mind ever caught up with my body I'll have ot pull those cut off shorts out of the closet now and hang them up!

you're right, I can do this!

[Michellebell]

Welcome back Mich. 25kg won't take long at all.

The difference in your 40 and 41 photos is amazing - what a difference a year can make!

[NicoleS]

Hey Mich, welcome back, best place to be feeling like you are I to am back with 10kg to lose went abit silly with maintaining, trying to eat like a normal person when my body is to sensitive lol.

There are a few of us into our first week (day 4) WOW it was hard to start but feeling clean again is amazing ive had the 3 best nights sleeps in the past few months and feel amazing again, so even just for that its well worth it.

Look forward to supporting you and following your diary x

[lil_doll]

Hey Mich!

I remember you I am back as well and I am so glad I started, you will be too!

You should be proud of yourself for making that decision and like you said you haven't failed if you keep trying!

All the best and I look forward to keeping up with your diary!

[Be light]

Great to have you back Mish, Im back to but here for good now me thinks!
Looking forward to watching the weight fall off and share the journey !!

[makingmemories]

Are you going to the clinics or doing by correspondence? Where in bris do you live?
I'm heading down to the clinic for the first time tomorrow, so will have more of an idea on how long it takes (even though weigh ins will have to be mid week unfortunately, I wish it was open Saturdays). I think it's going to take about 40mins from work, which is in Richlands. Might have to leave work a bit earlier once a month, although ideally I'd like to go fortnightly maybe.

[MH76]

Hi Mich

You will do great!!! Easy peasy gf
xxxx

[Demonicgirl]

Hi Mich,

I'm back too! I remember we have similar stories. We can do it! Good on you for coming back.

[claireybell]

Hi Mich did you manage to get your bloods sorted ?? Been thinking of you and the big decision to come back... gonna be so worth it !!

[Mich]

Hello dear diary!

Yes bloods were sorted on Friday, the clinic called today, my program as arrived and was posted today so it should arrived tomorrow when I get home from work. So Wednesday looks like my start day!

I'm nervous and excited. I jsut don't want to fail again. I've told my friends i'm hibernating for 2 weeks. I need to get in the zone first, i just know if I don't, i'll cave. Mostly to wine!

When i was on the program last time, once I was in the zone, it was easy to go out. Never blinked. but i was so in the zone. I need my zone!

Still got bucketloads going on in my life, but figure I did last time too! I can do this.

MM I'm hoping to visit Sharyn once a month at the least. I'm lucky becuase I live on the Gold Coast so I drive past her virtually.

last time however, I didn't visit the clinic once, but I think I need to this journey around.

Thanks so much for everyone dropping by! i feel humbled by the support x

[Viva la Otter]

Hi Mich, I've also had to redo my program. This time I've been studying the Dr Beck book and its made all the difference. It's a book about cognitive therapy for dieters, it really helps get your mind in the rights place and gives you strategies for overcoming all the things that cause us to slip up and fail. I can highly recommend it. It might be just what you need to really succeed this time. Losing it is the easy bit maintaining is where it gets tricky. You'll make it though I'm sure . Welcome back and look forward to hearing all your successes.

[Mich]

Hey V,

thanks for stopping by. You just reminded me! I have the book somewhere! I'll have to try and dig it up! or buy another copy if I can't!.

Thanks so much for reminding me!

[lil_doll]

Wow, that was a quick turnaround to get your program! How exciting!!