sweetie's diary

[sweetie]

A good friend of mine went on Cohens, and lost 30 kg. This prompted me to start checking it out.
I have been on Weighless, and countless other diets. Have lost weight, (never reached goal) just to pick it up again with interest.
I don't consider myself as obsessive about food. I generally don't overeat, eat my 3 meals a day, and have never reverted to food for comfort. I will have the odd sweet / cake but maybe only once a week / month.
I have looked through the forums, and read a couple of diaries.
It is clear that the weight loss is there, but my big concern is - what happens thereafter.
I am so tired of being dissapointed AGAIN!!
I believe that I have strong will power. I gave up smoking 3 years ago. It was the first time I tried, and have never touched another cigarette.
As far as my weight is concerned it has been a life long struggle.
I was an chubby "tween", overweight teen, a bit more than overweight twenty year old, and now I approaching 40, and can't call myself anything else other than OBESE!! (Grossly so)
I have no serious health issues (Yet), but I have 2 young daughters ( 5 & 8yr) and feel that I really need to give them a healthy mommy, that can run around on the beach with them, not just wallow in the shallows.

How hard is it to maintain the weight after the loss?
I don't know if I can put my self through the struggle(Which is evident in the forums) just to be wiped out by that ever increasing weight again!!
Am I setting myself up for disaster? possibly, but I would like to hear from those people that did loose the weight, and have managed to keep it of for a year and longer. How did you do it? What is your recipe for success?