Today I am SAD

[Bree]

I am not doing this for any form of sympathy, more to stop the demons from getting to me!

My mum is unwell, she is in ICU.
I feel lost, useless and sad. My brain is telling me it's okay you are stressed - have the naughty food, but I know better than that - so why why why do I still feel the urge to eat my sorrows away, is it because this is the only thing that I can control right now.

I will not cave in, for I do not want to be fat, I sure dont want to detox AGAIN - those headaches hurt, I will be strong. In 15 -20 years do I want to be in ICU or worse......NO!

I want to see my babies grow up and have their own babies for that warms my heart.

Everything will be okay - I need to stay strong. Perhaps another coke zero or coffee will hit the spot I don't need food blocking my emotions. The universe is powerful, hhhheeellloooo mr or mrs universe I am putting it out here for you.........I don't want to be fat or sad...............fix my mummy please......

oh and another thing...something I learnt from Lady GAGA (of all people) "i'm on the edge of glory.....and i'm hanging on a moment of truth"