Can't believe I'm back :-(

[Mich]

BLOODY HELL!!!!

I'm really struggling. Feeling crap. Too slow. Can't commit. Angry, hurt, confused. I need this forum. I need to come back.

[mcbell]

You can do it Mich! Stay here on the forum, keep those hands busy typing up and reading through people's diaries, and before you know it, it will be snack time or meal time.

I hid away from the forum when I wasn't doing well, and I wish I could have gotten back on the bus in January, or even February - instead it took me until mid June!

Read about all the success stories, scroll through the "what to do when you are struggling" posts, and just get through the first day. Even if you haven't done well so far today, you can always just start right now.

[lil_doll]

The forum is definitely part of what keeps me on track... That and staying focused on my ultimate goal

You can do it!!

Write a list of all the reason you want to get to goal...
like mine would have been
thighs not rubbing together-I had a BAD episode where I had sores on my inner thighs, I never want to have that again... All I have to do is think about that feeling and I do not want to go off plan after that!
Not always feeling like the fattest person in the room
Not assuming people are looking at me because I am fat
Not being scared to see a reflection of myself. Like in a store window as I'm walking past

etc etc... There is thread on here about what you are looking forward to at goal, which is GREAT for some inspiration.

Anyway... keep the list on your phone or in your wallet... AND, tell yourself if you want something of plan, you can have it, BUT you have to read the list first. I highly doubt you'll want to go off plan after that!

[Mich]

Thanks Guys,

I'm at day one today, cooking up a storm. I was day one yesterday but my nanna had a major stroke. Seems when it rains it pours.. So much crap going on in my life right now. but can't change yesterday, only today. Cooking to have meals at the ready. Maybe thats the key this time around. my life is so hectic unpredictable and all over the place. bit like me! .

one day at a time.

[Babybear]

Organisation is so the key!

[lil_doll]

Oh no... sorry to hear about your Nanna!

One day at a time... You can only do your best xo

[Ruth15234]

Welcome back mich

[Mich]

Thank you everyone for your comments. Today was day 2 and I deviated. was so orgnaised but left home without my lunch in the hurry to drive the 1.20min drive to see my Nanna. Had a splitting headache and had only had yoghurt, so half way I stopped aat the service station and got a proteien bar and a coke zero. spent 6 hours at the hospital, massaging my darling nanna, feeding her, my heart simply breaks. I ended up having some chicken sandwhich for dinner on the long drive home. not perfect, but at least it was not a binge... which i'm surprised.

Tomorrow is a new day, I have my cold pack ready to take with me with all my cohens food. Thank goodness, I have jt al cooked, nothing to do. Droppnig my lil pup off to get spayed, the off to see my darling nanna again.

Blessings everyone.

[Butterflywings]

HI Mich,

Congrats on the non-binge through a very emotional trying time. Good luck with the fresh start today!

[lil_doll]

Hi Mich!

Sounds like you did really well during a tough time.

Look after yourself

[Babybear]

So sorry to hear about your Nana

You did so well yesterday to get through xx

[Mich]

Technically I'm day 2 I guess, or 3, i'm not sure. yesterday was deviation free and I was exhausted. Got asked out on a date tonight ugh. the perils of being single and wanting to go out and also staying on cohens!!!

Sadly, I said no. Figure if the guy is still interested in 2 months. then great. if not.. then meh. more fish in the sea!!!!

Am in dire need of new ideas/receipes so off to trawl that section of the forum.

happy cohening everyone.

[Mich]

hello dear diary!!!!!

well, I did the most dumbes deviation. the accidental one.. yesterday had a soy cappicuinno. it wasn't intentional just habit. It didn't even register until last night I was making my Cohen's dinner and I thought how i'd done a day deviation free!!!! .. what is odd, is it didn't even register! wonder if its coz its coffee and not food? anyway .. good thing is.. I only have artificial sweetener and never get chocolate on the cap. so and was still down on the scales this morning.

Waiting for that energy boost and the tiredness to stop, however very happy with my losses this week considering I've had a few stumbling blocks to over come.

happy cohening everyone!

[Relles]

It will all click back into place, the Cohens memory will kick in, don't worry!
I'm redoing and have got into the zone again. The energy levels are coming!
P.S. I love your album pics from last time!