The Wedding Countdown....

[kylienic]

Go the size 8 pants!!!! Your pics are amazing, your face had totally changed!

[winghama]

Artificial sweeteners can help with constipation. If I feel the need of a little help, I find the diet coke works really well.

Andrea

[fionaw8]

Andrea thank you for that wee insider tip, I have just been told some "lovely "pills by the clinic which I will try tonight & fingers crossed.
Thanks Kylie - I think you can see more wrinkles on my face now! I need to invest in some AMAZING face cream!

Well the moment I have been waitin gfor has come & gone and to start off with my goal weight range has changed YET AGAIN but this time it went up so who knows what I am really meant to be guess well find out when I stabilze!

I am in the 10kgs club yay yay yay so happy
I hope they let me join though.........pretty please

A total of 5kgs in 4 weeks, I am good with that, even though its half what it was in the first month its still excellent and hopefully I will also have a big drop next week when "things return to normal"

[winghama]

Well done Fiona. The 10kg club is getting crowded, how exciting that so many of us are in that final stretch.

Great result for your 8 weeks, definitely above average so you should be thrilled. Keep up the great work.

Andrea

[JAS]

Hi Fiona
Thanks for commenting on my post, thought I'd check out your diary and you have done so well! Very inspiring, hope I can do as well as you have. Some good tips with dinners out etc, have my first one tomorrow night which I'm a bit worried about - hopefully it won't be like your set menu dinner. Well done on your loss so far, not too far to go now which is awesome.

[fionaw8]

Hi JAS, I hope your dinner is nothing like that one I went to! Surely that has to be worst scenerio!hahaha it can only be better than that.

Andrea, it actually hit me this morning about the 10kg club,it does mean we are getting towards the end of phase one.I have always thought how excited I am to get to the club but now I realise just how quickly time has gone but also how much I have learnt to far. A huge thanks to you for your inspiration it has really meant alot to me.

And so this morning must be day 77! still no movement which means the scales are sitting at stationary and not budging! Frustrating!

Its looking like a cracker day today spring must finally be here to stay

My friend starts her journey today - Good luck you will enjoy this,you will be awesome at it because you are soooooooo determined and..........can I say it.........stubborn but in a good way

[mumandnana]

Hi fionaw8, it is frustrating when the scales seem stuck but they WILL shift ! You are doing really well and so very close now.All the best .

[fionaw8]

Thanks Mum and Nana I am close I know but its also feeling like dangerous territory, I am getting pretty hungry this weekend.

I have had kiwifruit, alpine tea & senakot today I hope all of these combined help to solve the way I am feeling! This is terrible I feel so FAT and bloated and therefore feel like I have been deviating - but there is no way I am cheating myself I just want to feel emptier!
I was meant to do my measurements today but not whilst I am feeling like this! Hopefully tomorrow I can see how they are looking this week.
Yet another "you don't want to lose anymore" comment today this one was ok because she hadn't seen me so hadn't said that already.

[louise41]

hmmmm - size 8 pants -- feeling fat?? Do those 2 things go together?

[fionaw8]

Well it surely wasn't just Mondayitis the way I have been feeling today, I am GRUMPY and tired and feeling gross about myself and so hungry! Have been clock watching all day & just feeling like I can't be bothered with pretty much anything!Plus the button on my new size 8 suit pants came off this morning & not because they were too small, just cheapy pants! What a stink feeling, I hope I feel a bit more positive tomorrow?
I think what has happened is that yesterday we went for a BIG (by my recent standards anyway) walk with friends & the dogs in the sun in the morning and mt body just can't cope! My legs are sore today and my bum I am feeling muscles straining that haven't been pushed in three months! This is why they say no exercise on Cohens, it zaps you for two days after!
Little walk seem to be ok but nothing like yesterdays again until I get to eat some more food I think. Plus when I got on the scales this evening I was 1kg heavier than weigh in weight form Friday!!!AHHHHH sorry body I won't do it again just find your groove again.
Apart from my wee winge everything is going great, my friend is now on day three & has experienced no detox symptons at all, I am a bit jealous of that remembering how I felt but am very happy for her if the first week is good to her. It is so lovely to have someone to talk to about this, face to face all the time but we get so caught up in the conversations we forget that everything must be in code at work, as she doesn't want to tell anyone what she is doing either & its not public knowledge about me either & I am wanting to keep it that way.
It made me laugh today at work one of the girls who has been less than supportive about me not wanting to eat sugar or have a wine has decided that she is now on a health kick to lose some weight, which is great for her and I was all encouraging about it until she had a mini PIE for morning tea then a salad for lunch and then she obviously had a sugar craving in the afternoon so bought those sugar free lollies & ate a packet of them! Plus Coke & a V!! I had to bite my tongue because its all about what goes in regardless if it says "sugar free" or is smaller than the norm!
Right off to bed, have an appoitment with the surgeon tomorrow to discuss the plates & screws I have in my arm from 11 years ago, they have been giving me grief this winter (getting cold & achey) so tomorrows discussion will be about the possibility of taking them out! If this is the case I would need to have heaps of tim eoff work, a cast and yet another huge scar running the length of both sides of my arm! superficial I know but not something I want to think about with a wedding coming up.
Positive thoughts to everyone ( I am sending some my own way too)

[winghama]

Oh my goodness - that lady at work used to be me!! Hope you get a good nights sleep and wake refreshed tomorrow. Hope you get the answers you are looking for from the surgeon, and if more surgery is in store Bio Oil is great!

Chin up lovely lady, you are almost there.

Andrea

[Kirst]

Man look at you go! You are almost finished! That is awesome! Hope you get some good news from the doc today honey!

Kirst xo

[fionaw8]

Thanks Andrea & Kirst for your lovely thoughts, I didn't get the "no we don't need to take the plates out" comment that really had been hoping for but at least the one that has been giving me the pain is on the outside of my arm & that scar healed well, as they didn't need to cut around the radial nerve(found that out today - 11 years later) can go - probablly in about 4 weeks, so on the upside I will be on refeed by then

Felt so much better today - I didn't try to eat anyone today! Really made a difference not exercising hard out on minimal food. Still feel a bit flat but think that may be due to work.

Hump day tomorrow and then my first weigh in for the 10kg club - although its a day before my official weigh in I have decided that I will weigh on home scales when I get home from work and post that as my weight and then adjust my ticker after weigh in on Friday, hopefully this is ok for Ladybird and she wont crack the whip at me

[tmillard]

Oh hun you are so close to finished well done!!!!

[fionaw8]

Thanks Tacey - I am getting quite nervous about it though.

I am going to Auckland for two days next week and will be without computer access (what am I going to do?coming on here is a daily ritual) so have decided that I am going to cook all my meals (it will only be 5) and take them up there with me. I am staying in a nice hotel but as I am so close to the end I don't want to stress about other people cooking my food & their weight being off or them adding just a bit of whatever to my food!
We are meant to be going out for a team dinner on the first night there so will have to eat mine before we go and think of some reason!

I am getting grumpy tired and HUNGRY I keep thinking about foods that will be back on my menu selection again soon pumkin and kumara are ones I am getting excited about and also dark chocolate and trying my hand at baking cheesecakes! I went & bought two mini cheesecake tins the other day so when I can have dessert my partner & I can have one each & that will be it. I didn't want to get a large tin because it's still going to be re-training time for me.

Final blood tests on Friday and I am scared I am almost in tears now thinking about them hopefally they will actually be bearable and I won't cry when I am there.

Has anyone else noticed that veins in their hands stand out now? mine have never done this before!

I can't wait to have more food and to be able to go swimming again but I will need to be getting new togs as my old ones would be more like fishing nets if I dove in wearing them hahahaha.

Its my first day of the 10kgs club tomorrow I am excited about it no whipping for me (well hopefuly anyway it depends on the scales)

Someone said to me today "did you actually eat anything today"?? Are you serious ofcourse I eat but FOOD IS ONLY FUEL I said this didn't go down that well though so might have to re-think that come back!

Hump day is nearly over & then its nearly the weekend I hope we get some of this amazing weather we have had today its been a cracker day in Christchurch, I was warm for the first time in ages and didn't have to have the car heater on full on the way home!

[winghama]

It was a lovely day today. Shame it wasn't as nice yesterday on my day off! Spent ALL day in the kitchen and didn't get to sit down til 6.45! Wow, final blood test already - that has come around quick. Looking forward to checking out your result tomorrow.

Andrea

[fionaw8]

Well tomorrow is my proper weigh in day and hopefully it will reflect better than the weight I had for the 10kgs club then I realised my ticker was out by a kilo! stink but changed now & all update.
When I first got my programme my goal weight range was 60 - 63kgs so if we go by that my current weight is only 300gms above the top weight so stoked with that and to think I laughed so hard when they first told me that was my goal weight, what a joke but I was assured that was right...........and then it changed to really low................and now its gone back up again slightly so am pretty confused still as to what I am aiming for.
I am hungry tired and dizzy quite alot not to mention grumpy grumps (even yeling at my dogs! its so not their fault)
Bring on re-feed I say, I am thinking fingers crossed I will start next weekend - so I will do another whole week of BI**H Fi so really should hibernate or apologise to everyone in advance maybe!

I really have struggled today especially cooking my partners dinner - tuns bake YUMMO, it smelt AMAZING whilst I was cooking it I really nearly caved but had thought about it prior to starting to cook & decided to use Bexy's trick & chew gum, so Thanks heaps Bexy it worked a treat

[bloss]

Fi your doing amazing thanks for all your support its been great
arhhhh you must be sooo excited about being nearly there thats fab news, good for you.
Good luck for your weigh intoday
and size 8 pants thats awsome x

[fionaw8]

Well you learn something every day don't you??????
Todays lesson was that these stomach cramps I have been feeling for the past week are actually hunger pains!!!Who would have known it I now know how they feel & can honestly say I haven't had them before, though I have thought I was hungry in the past now I know what HUNGER really feels like! AND I don't much like it!
I lost another WHOPPING 2kgs this week! Very happy with that but it has come at a cost, I am grumpy tired, freezing cold HUNGRY and not to mention unable to concentrate!

After weeks of reading what other people go through towards the end of this you would have thought I would have been able to identify it in myself when it started to happen! But no it wasn't until today that I really realised that feeling constantly dizzy and all the above symptoms must mean I NEED REFEED!!!
My wonderful consultant tried to order it for me last week but I said no no next week will be fine...............which means today.......which means I won't get it until next Friday! However she has told me that I can start to increase my Cohens food, and have extra crackers and fruit until I officially get it in a weeks time!

Thank goodness for that because I am already getting tempted to deviate and can't imagine how I could stick it out for another week feeling like this if not worse!

12 weeks tomorrow I started this with the sole intention of getting to around 68-70kgs - wouldn't need to go lower than that & plus there is no way I could!
Well look at my train of thought now I want to go to below my goal weight!

So happy right now
Thanks Bloss for your encouragment about my weigh in, very kind of you.

[winghama]

Well done Fiona!! 2kg in a week at this stage is fantastic. I cant believe how quickly you have achieved your results, it has been awesome to see. Enjoy the extras and stay strong til next week.

Andrea