Second Attempt

[Claudia27]

Hi All,

My name is Claudia and I'm 27 years old. I don't know if anyone will read this but I really need to get out what I'm feeling. I started cohens in September 09, lost around 15 kilos by xmas time then went down hill from there. Since the start of the year I've made a poor attempt to keep going . I'd be on it during the week then blew it by the weekend. So now we are six months into my supposed new year/life and I haven't lost anything further. Today was going to be take 2 of day 1 but blew it after a sugar craving tonight and ate 2 pieces of banana cake and 4 slices hedge hog slice, oh and a bowl of sticky date pudding with double cream - feeling sick and bloated(wonder why?)

Right now I am depressed, let down, disappointed, guilty and most of all NOT loving myself or who I am. I feel like crying and locking myself away from the world.

Over the years I have come to realise that I am an emotional eater, a bored eater, a subconcious eater. So in a nutshell I'm eating ALL the time, bored, sad, happy, asleep whatever or whenever - I eat. Now my idea to a successful plan is preparation, preparation, preparation. So I start tomorrow with a brand new day, attitude and positive outlook on succeeding. I have my program, I have read through my entire program tonight, made my lunch, realised that my eating habits go deeper than portions sizes so I have booked myself into a psych. to help me deal with emotions in a more healthy way. And each morning I am going to wake up, look in the mirror and tell myself something nice about me.

The past months are in the past, I cannot go back and change that, so what is done is done. I MUST move on and start a fresh. My new motto is going to be " make TODAY the difference". I have a right to live a happy and healthy life, to be able to look at myself in the mirror and love what I see, to be confident with who I am and how I look.

I will write in here at the end of each day to honestly record my progress, no matter how good or bad the day went.

So, I am Claudia, 27 years old, 95 kilos.........and ready to start the rest of my life

[Indya]

Hi Claudia, welcome to the forum! I just had my two week weigh in today so a newbie myself. Still learning and have found this place just a wealth of knowledge and there is so much support and encouragement. I truly don't know if I would have lasted this long without it!

All the best for tomorrow. I am cheering you on!

Indy xx

[C-JAYE]

Hi Claudia, stick with it honey, the only way to be successful is to be your own best friend and to keep a positive attitude! Even when it's hard remember that you are changing your lifestyle - you are one of the people who care enough about themselves to actually get up off your butt and do something instead of sitting back whinging about needing to do something.

Read the threads about getting back on the bus and the science behind why when you go down you really go down - this helps me to stay deviation free. And plug in here when you need support - it will come in spades!!!!

Above all be kind to yourself and treat yourself well and do what YOU need to do!

[Panda]

Hi Claudia, you have come to right place.... be nice to yourself and keep up your resolve to get into the plan. In just a week or two you will already feel a million times better. Then maybe we can all talk about the emotional/boredom eating disorder that plagues so many of us. But as you remember, once you get the first week underway, your hunger will change and you will be able to do this.

[ChubbyBunny]

Hi Claudia,

I am also new to this forum, and seem to be in the very same situation as you. This is also my second "REAL" attempt all the others weren't really attempts as i know i wouldn't stick to it. I started today and just need to try and get through a couple of weeks and then I am home free

All the best with the road ahead, we have done this before and we can most definitely do this again.
x
xx

[amouage]

Hi Claudia
A few of us Canberrites are planning a get together. Want to join us?

Amouage