LouLou's Diary

[jeannie77]

Congrats on reaching the halfway point

Hope you enjoy the pampering sessions on your holidays - you deserve it!

[louise41]

Hi Lucylou
Im sorry to hear that your scales are not behaving, you need to give them a good talking to! I'm sure if you go back to your old system you have more success. You must be just retaining some fliud. I hope your feeling much better today!
Louise

[Stoddy]

Hi Loulou

I think you need to do what is best for you ... the 3rd month is a bit crappy .. and weighing everyday will only do your head in if you aren't prepared for the ups and downs .. you do get used to it after a while .. and can recognise when you are up .. but I had some days I was definitely Miss Cranky pants when the scales were up a bit .. and I just couldn't understand what I did wrong ... but I was doing nothing wrong .. you just have those days ..
I actually cut out the feta ... cause I found it was so salty that I retained fluid but others don't have a problem so it might just be me ..
Now I accept the ups with the downs .. and it doesn't worry me .. it will be all good ... just keep to your weekly weigh ins if that is what suits you better ...
You are doing sensational LL ... well done !!

[SuzieQ]

Hi Loulou,

I'm with you about the daily weighing, does my head in - weekly is the way to go.

Just try and look at the big picture when you are feeling low, and the big picture is that you have lost HEAPS of weight and that will continue if you just keep doing what you are doing. Have some faith in yourself .

Keep strong

Suzie X

[Annabelle Joy]

LouLou, you may be stressing a bit about getting to that goal. That can slow you down. I'm a daily weigher, but I've always done it (except sometimes when I just kept going up) and I understand the process. Have you seen my chart here: http://newyouforum.com/forum/showpos...&postcount=22? My weight goes all over the place, but still steadily down. Yours will too.

AJ

[lucylou]

Thanks for all your encouragement everyone. I've stayed off the scales and I feel much better. having nice long sleep ins on my holiday, the Hubby and I didn't get up until 10am this morning! Bliss. Does mean I had lunch at 4pm which is late even for me.

My sister was admiring my weight loss the other day and while we were talking about all things weighty she told me weighed 50kgs which was tough for her because she used to weigh 45kg. Oh the poor dear. Never mind for an ex-anorexic (yes both my sisters nearly died from it) she's doing really well.
Two sides of the same disease.

I had the strangest dream last night all about obsessing over chocolate. But I didn't eat any. In this dream I was at work and there were promotional baskets of blocks of Dove milk chocolate. Now I don't like Dove chocolate and especially not the milk chocolate but this stuff was all over the place. In my dream workplace there were also those honesty system things with Kitkats in them. I didn't have any money but I really love Kitkats. So I spent most of this dream wondering whether to have the free Dove chocolate which I don't like or steal a Kitkat. I spent so much time wondering what to do that I didn't end up doing anything. So my first dream about chocolate in which I didn't actually eat any. I wonder of this is a step forward in my psyche?

x

Loulou

[Annabelle Joy]

No stress over the scales, sleeping in. You're doing all the right things for big losses, LouLou, even resisting the dream chocolate.

AJ

[louise41]

Interesting dream Loulou, see even in your dreams your doing the right thing now! Enjoy the sleep ins!
Louise

[SuzieQ]

Your holiday sounds fantastic....I'd love one of those!

The chocolate dream was interesting, I had a dream the other night that I ate a whole block of dark chocolate and then a packet of pistachio nuts..woke up feeling sooo guilty. Our minds are strange things aren't they?

Suzie

[louise41]

Probably better to get your chololate fix in your dreams than when awake!

[Stoddy]

I get hungry reading your diary .. hehe .. hungry for BAAAAD food !!

Have a great day .. you are doing fantastic !!

[Almost Eden]

By the sound of things you are really starting to appreciate the value of what passes your lips. Near enough isn't good enough. I know the old me would have gone with the Dove in your situation and eaten untill I could eat no more...and then probably end up stealing a kitkat as well.

This program has really started to make me think about the quality of the food I am ingesting...I don't know if this is true for you as well. I am so dissapointed if something I eat isn't quite up to scratch and am often tempted to throw it away and start again. Unfortunately I am often at work when this happens and if I do that the only option would be to eat crap food there...so I stick with my Cohens not so fab-o food.

You are doing such a great job my love...I am so proud of you. Huggles

AE.

[enough!]

Hi there,
Just doing a quick scout around to all my favourite people,

Glad to see you still going so well, I didn’t doubt it for a minute!!

I’m so very proud of you, you really are doing all the hard work and surviving elegantly!!

I am continually fascinated by the dreams. I never used to dream about food!! Did you?

May not be around as much but I’m reading most days.
Keep up the great work,
Cheers
Kate

[lucylou]

But first my last night's dream...

...not a food dream for a change. No I dreamt my doctor told me I only had a year to live. Strange as I felt well in this dream, but apparently I had a form of cancer or tumour that was going to do me in within the year. The first thing I did was tell my bosses at work that they'd better start finding a replacement because in a year's time I wouldn't be around. I tried to feel sad about it but I was just a bit bemused. A few weeks ago I posted in AJ's diary about my mum being given months to live (she died almost 4 years ago) and how she used that time to get all her affairs in order and organise her own funeral. She wasn't sad, she didn't fight it, none of the treatments had worked and she was ready to die. An amazing woman who died with words of thanks on her lips. I only hope that when it comes to my time I can die with as much peace and grace as she did.

Anyway back to the waking world. Thanks for dropping by. I'm going away this afternoon for a few days, heading off in the rain to the Byron bay Writers festival, I've checked the forecast and it should fine up for the weekend. I'm going to try and get on line for the 100% Cohen's Challenge tomorrow but other than that won't be around until Monday. I'll have a big catch up then. I've prepared all my food for the next 5 days, taking an esky packed with every breakfast, lunch and dinner, plus fruit and crispbreads. I'm leaving nothing to chance!

So todays weigh and measure was a delightful surprise

I must admit I weighed yesterday because I so wanted to make my next goal and I was only 600g down. I'd made my goal but I thought I was going to have my smallest weight loos ever this week. Not so. Another 1/2 kg gone today. So for my official weekly weigh in today:

1.1 kg gone and another 5.5cm as well.

And yes another goal met

I had such a wonderful time at my pampering session yesterday on the heated massage bed that I'm going to go back every time I reach another goal, every 5kg lost. Because I'm on holidays at the moment and in the dreaded third month I have splurged on a hot rock massage next week at another day spa, it was on special!

I'm so glad to be through the 73kg barrier, that was a biggie psychologically for me. Now I'm heading down to the 60's and then my next 2 goals. Hooray!

Have a great weekend and I'll be back on Monday.

x

Loulou

[Almost Eden]

You are a superstar as she kicks herself another goal...Hooray

And the croud goes wild...well done love

ANOTHER 1.1kgs GONE FOREVER

You are doing so great. I hope you have a fantastic weekend at Byron Bay. And yay for massages. I might get one myself...I feel inspiered.

I didn't weigh myself this morning but I just got on the scales and have lost another 300gms so I am going to update my ticker now. I wonder what the scales will tell me tomorrow. I feel so heady...I feel like giggling all the time. Bizar. Love you love me

AE.

[jeannie77]

Ahh a hot rock massage sounds great right now. I am feeling the cold after being out in this horrible wet windy weather.

Hope you have a great time at Byron and that the weather eases for you.

[Annabelle Joy]

Well done on a good week, and a min-goal met, LouLou. Have a lovely time at the conference.

I saw a lovely lady today who's husband was buried yesterday. She told me that he had organised all of his funeral before he went.

AJ

[lucylou]

Hello

I'm back and I have had the most excruciating time! Byron Bay was freeeeezing and wet but the Writers Festival was great...well the part of it that wasn't cancelled because of the pouring rain. But the excruciating thing was my friend's husband. I was staying at their place for 3 and a half days and in that time I swear he did not let up once about what I was eating, why I should eat more, why i shouldn't drink so much water, how sorry he felt for me, why didn't I just try a little bit of this or that, I've lost so much weight it's time to have a proper meal, what's that muck you're eating now that's not a proper meal, etc etc on and on and on!!!!!! At one point I told him I'd slap him if he didn't stop going on about it but not even that shut him up.

i took all my own meals and when it was dinner time just heated one of them up (luckily I ate my lunches, which I also took with me, at the Writer's Festival so he couldn't comment on those.) I also took all my own pre-prepared breakfasts and fruit and crackers. I didn't eat anything of theirs and perhaps he found that insulting I don't know but boy did he make me wild! And as he was my host I couldn't be too rude to him. Although I did tell him last night when he called my favourite Kangaroo Goulash "muck" that he was insulting my cooking and that I liked my "muck".

Soooo glad to be home! My friend was lovely and very complimentary on how much weight I'd lost (21 kg down now from my heaviest) but her husband is off my Christmas card list! There he was drinking to excess and smoking with his gout and his pot belly and telling me off for not eating enough. it amazes me that people think they have the right to do stuff like that. Anyway enough, I've vented and it's time to move on. I have another week of holidays and I'm looking forward to them, plus a weekend in a lovely hotel in Brisbane next weekend, and yes I'm taking all my own food! Hopefully the hotel staff won't berate me for it!

x

Loulou

[louise41]

Welcome back Loulou, I think I would like to slap him too!! Sounds like you had to be very restrained. He probably wished that he could have been as disciplined as you, sounds like he could have done with it. Fortuneately most people arent like him and wish us the best of luck. You are doing so well 21kgs down! I am sure that the hotel staff will not berate you - the customer is always right!
Im staying at a bed and breakfast tonight and she asked me what I wanted for breakfast, when I told her she kept trying to offer more - I guess most guests are after their moneys worth - I consider it my moneys worth if I get what I ask for.
Louise

Heya,

how annoying is your friends hubby - what a tool!

I woulda gone off!
Well done on keeeping your cool. Hope your weekend in Brissy is a lot more enjoyable!

Sum