The Wedding Countdown....

[wanabslim]

happy belated birthday and wow that is so cool to be dropping dress sizes like you are congrats! Didnt realise that yoghurt could impact so much must remember that for down the track ... I think the break tho not intended gave me time to re evaluate what is impt and I dont want to get hung up on numbers this time round. Its funi how when we go back in time and think of numbers that we thought were omg awful we so wish we were now ... keep up the good work enjoying following your diary

[fionaw8]

Hi Kirst yes am sooooooo excited about tomorrow night it surely will be an amazing concert I am just concerned about footwear! I wanted to borrow some steel cap boots from work for the event but couldn't!

Hi Wanabslim, thanks for the birthday wishes I had a good day.

I have just uploaded a profile shot - probabaly one of the olny photo's that I quite like of myself (this is a turning point for me hopefully)
Just a quick question can people see the photo's that I have put in my album?

[Mum Chum]

Your profile photo is gorgeous - but I can't find an album.

[fionaw8]

METALLICA was fantastic and the bestest bestest thing was that because of all the people in the stadium it was warm enough for a singlet top.......plus knee high socks, boots and jeans but still a singlet top it must have been warm!

Its weigh in week 10 tomorrow but my partner & I are off work so heading away for the day which I am really looking forward to
Have got all my food out tonight so will cook lunch to bring with me & fruit & crackers, its a shame the diet coke with no caffiene only comes in the 1.5li bottles oh well sprite zero cans it is.

Things are still going smoothly with me & my eating - NO DEVIATION

MumChum, I have added you as a contact does that mean you can now see my photo album?

I can't wait til this time next week I will be one sleep away from moving my ticker......am so excited and nervous about it, this must be how it feels if you only weigh in monthly. I don't like it, it worries me that I could be doing something wrong and not catch it which could hinder my time to get to goal.Oh well not long to go now & I will know.

Sleeping in on days off is actualy not such a good idea whilst I am doing this it just means I have to eat later & then stay up later before I can go to bed. I am normally an early to bed early to rise kinda person but have to stay up later tonight so hopefully I will still get my 8 hours sleep.

[bexy]

hey fiona

you are doing so well babe. so jealous that you saw metallica that would have gone off. i totally agree with you on the sleep ins not being worth it...i now get up scoff yoghurt and then go back to bed.

right now off to have a piece of fruit before i head off to bed.

keep up the fantastic work babe

bexy

[Mum Chum]

Wow - thanks yes. You just proved to me why I love photos. To watch the change over a few weeks is amazing. Thanks.

You have to have nerves of steel to hang out waiting for weigh day. I have to confess to being a daily weigher but don't let it get to me when the scales don't move. Fortunately actually, cos they usually only move once a week - but I live in hope.

[Kirst]

ooohhhh Metallica! I bet they rocked! SIGH I wish I was going when they are here but sadly I'm not.

Love the photos too btw!

Kirst xo

[fionaw8]

Thanks Kirst & MumChum on your photo comments
We had a lovely day today went up to Hamner for the day, spent a couple of hours in the pools I had to buy new togs especially for it & felt so great in them even though my legs are so white they were the same colour as the snow on the mountains & have a warning sign attached to them abougt snow blindness!! hahaha nothing fake tan can't fix ay?
Played some mini golf & some pool, had lunch up there my partner had a dirty fishermans basket & I had brought my steak & veges & cracker & fruit with me so that was fine.

Really struggling tonight though we have got a movie out & I stupidly asked my partner if he wanted some skittles when we were choosing the movie, I love love love those wee colourful lollies, I have a routine where I would sort out the whole packet into their colours & then make my way through eating the stink colours first (yellow&green) and saving the red & purple ones til last so really shouldn't have been so confident in the movie store that I could cope with him eating them tonight!
I want some so much! I have just signed up to the two week deviation challenge on here aswell so there couldn't be a worse time for me to contemplate deviation on the programme!!
Maybe I will ban him to the other room to eat them or maybe the other couch will suffice.....................please let me stay strong maybe it's all in my head & actually when he's eating them I will be fine............stay tuned folks..........hahahaha

[winghama]

Pleased you had a lovely day today. STAY AWAY FROM THE SKITTLES - thats an order, trust me, you wont enjoy them at all, first the guilt as you ate them, then the guilt and beating yourself up afterwards - so not worth it for a few lollies.

How good was it buying togs (swimmers for you Aussies)? I am contemplating getting some for our trip to Aussie - haven't bought them in over 15 years!!

Enjoy your movie, oh and stay away from the skittles!

Andrea

[Never Give Up]

Fiona - past half way! Skittles will skittle your weight loss - NOOOO - dont' do it. NOT worth it. can you drink something? just keep something in your hand, and hang onto it! Brushing your teeth works too - just don't eat any!

have a great weekend
Lesley

[fionaw8]

Thanks Lesley & Andrea for your encouraging words about the skittles! I was right though thinking about it was way worse than actually doing it, my partner let me smell them though & that seemed to be enough for me plus he doesn't eat them in the fashion I do so that made it easier they weren't all out in front of me plus I just kept telling myself they will always be there & maybe in a month or two I will be able to enjoy some and because I can't have many I will only be allowed the purple & red ones anyway not having to eat the stink ones!
Going to catch up with another friend today who now lives down south so haven' seen since starting this so that will be interesting and a confidence booster .
Just took the dogs out walking bright & early this morning because its getting lighter & warmer the rabbits are starting to return in the mornings, my dogs couldn't catch them if there was one in front of them but they love chasing them and its so funny to watch, flat ears and going hard out until the rabbit runs under the fence & they can't get to them anymore!
This is day 70 for me today, must do my measurements this morning hopefully well get more movement that the 2.5cms last week

[bexy]

hey fiona, hope measuring went well...soo true about the skittles they'll still be there when you can have them and will taste all that much better because they won't be laced with guilt. take care babe

[fionaw8]

Thanks Bexy - I didn't cave into skittles thank goodness.

Well I am now into week 11 which means weigh in this week! Exciting and nerve racking - Sammie I really hope your right (18kgs)
Went to my partners sisters tonight for his birthday dinner it was pretty hard fending off all the comments about "you don't want to lose anymore" which actually just got frustrating so I just agreed with them and thought that would shut them up, it didn't!
The same questions were asked "how much longer do you have to go" and my standard response was "this is the way I will eat for the rest of my life unless I want to put all the weight back on"

Bought myself a new outfit today (another one I know!) but this ones for Tuesday's presentation because I figure if I feel confident with how I look it will go so much smoother, now I just need to spend tomorrow practicing it.

[winghama]

I can't wait to see your result this week - I am sure it is going to be a very good one. Yay for the new outfit, who knew that shopping for clothes could be so much fun - think I have found my new addiction. I am sure you will look stunning and you will do a fabulous job on the presentation.

Your avatar picture is fabulous. Keep up the great work,

Andrea

[bexy]

hey fiona...yay...go the new outfits that's fab...you deserve to treat yourself babe. hey, where can i see these fabulicious photos of you...take care and keep up the hard work babe. bex

[fionaw8]

Well Wednesday tomorrow only two days to go until I find out officially how my weight loss is going (I am still weighing myself at home but as my ticker is based on the clinic scales so better stick with that)

I had my presentation today it went well I suppose except because I was last I was very concoius of time and rushed through it which meant I forgot some important things ah well its over now!
On the up side people couldn't get over the difference in me since they last saw me in July (when I started) so hopefully the new slim me & my hot new outfit distracted them a bit from the parts I forgot!

Plus plus plus my partner & I have stopped smoking!! Bad day to do it as I had an argument with my boss this morning before my presentation which did distract me a bit aswell.
I am hoping that giving up smoking isn't going to make me want to eat bad ass food or even more of the good food I am eating and that after proving to myself & so many others that I have strong will power & determination I will be able to kick this nasty smoking habit for good.

Two massive challenges going on in my life & that isn't even the work side of it - thats a whole other story - maybe Ill write about that on another day right now I am going to boil the jug for my millionth cup of Green & Peppermint tea!

[kylienic]

Go you!!!! You're doing so well!!!!! Well done on the smoking, hows it going? You really are going to be a whole new woman! I can't see any pics apart from your profile one. Hope to catch up at the coffee morning soon!

Kylie

[fionaw8]

Hi Kylie - I have now added you as a contact so hopefully you can now see the photos?

I am soooooooo excited a friend from work is going to start Cohens, her programme arrived today so she is looking atstarting on Friday, I can't wait to have someone else doing this exciting programme to talk about it to - maybe I will stop talking to my poor partner about it so much he must be gettign sick of it by now!
Interesting I have heard a few comments from people at work about the ammount of weight I have lost and how small I am getting! Most people have said this to my face also but hearing people talking about you behind your back kinda sucks when you know what you are doing IS healthy and you are looking after yourself!
If I go to the lower end of my range I still have more than 10kg (depending on Friday's weigh in) to go so can't imagine how draining & depressing that time would be fending off the comments from people here if this is what they are like already!
Everyone here has only ever known me as big because thats all I have ever been but I am starting to feel so good about myself and positive about the way I am starting to look that I don't want to have to deal with that negative (maybe jealousy?) stuff that is starting to happen!

[winghama]

Hi Fiona,

It can be hard for people watching us to remain positive when we start getting slimmer than them! They dont mind so much and are very supportive when we start, but as we get slimmer they do start to feel a little threatened - silly really. I even had one lady say "but if you lose that much you will be smaller than me", I really just wanted to say "so?" People are asking me how much I weigh now and I feel obliged to answer, just wish I had the nerve to then ask them how much they weigh!!

You are doing really well and deserve to feel proud about what you have achieved so far and how you are looking. Unfortunately we cant control how other people react to us, we can only control how we respond to them, and it is tiring having to defend ourselves all the time. I just keep saying "I am doing this under medical supervision, I have regular blood tests, so I am being monitored and will continue until I am told to stop". Have to admit hubby is starting to drive me nuts, frequently saying he doesn't want me to lose too much more, I shouldn't have to keep explaining it to him!

Anyway, keep up the great work, looking forward to seeing that result on Friday.

Andrea

[fionaw8]

Andrea thank you for your post - it's niceto know that this is just another part of this that others go through as well, yet another thing that bonds us all going through the similar processes, thank you

Only two peopple that I work with know what I am doing and one of them is the friend who is starting her programme this weekend. I have just told others at work that it's not preservatives,sugar or alcohol, just protein & veges each meal which is the truth and yet still they talk!

Tomorrow I am going to try & wear the size 8 suit pants I bought a while ago as "target" pants, I can fit into them but not sure how I will go after a few hours! hahaha lets hope I don't split them or end up with terrible stomach cramps!

As anyone who has stopped smoking previously knows that one of the possible issues are constipation & it's true! Classic and so close to my first weigh in day after so long??? I have tried Alpine tea last night & tonight & am quite concerned that if it doesn't work Friday's weigh in won't truely reflect the last 4 weeks! Gutted oh well at least I am healthier even if I feel about 6million kgs heavier!