JennyC's Diary - Page 12

Annabelle Joy · #**221** 24-01-2009, 10:05

Jenny, you may be getting the signals that it's time you started refeed, although you still look to have a way to go. If the hunger persists, or you start getting other signals, have a talk with your consultant.

AJ

thenewvee · #**222** 24-01-2009, 12:48

Hi Jenny

You are doing fab, girl!
I discussed with my consultant about being possibly hungry over the xmas period etc being about the amount of kgs away from goal that you are, and her advice was that having extra fruit or crackers was the best option!!! So you have done pretty well and made the best choices!

I'm finding this last part challenging as well, with real hunger occasionally, but also cravings masking as hunger. It's become a tad more challenging to tell them apart! I've found taking it one step, one meal, one snack at a time to be working the best! And I know I'm not gonna die if I'm hungry for a while, so hunger is no long the enemy!

If none of this rings true for you, and you are finding it really hard to stay on track, I too would be speaking to my consultant to see what is the best thing to do!

Big hugz, you are almost there, it's not much longer now!

Vee

fiona.sutton · #**223** 24-01-2009, 22:41

Hi Jenny
Hope you have an absolute blast at the wedding and enjoy the long weekend at the coast!
Fi

JennyC · #**224** 27-01-2009, 08:39

Hi all, Been a long and hectic weekend. The wedding was great fun. Yesterday I woke feeling pretty ordinary which resulted in the last 24hrs with my head over the tiolet bowl and vicious diarrhoea. Can't ever remember being this sick keeping water down is even a problem at the moment.

And to make things worse my scales seem to have died so have no idea what I weigh and right about now who knows what they would say.....Not eating and drinking the last 24hrs will most certainly throw things out of whack.

I think I will get myself better and maybe make an appointment to see my consultant for a weigh in, in a couple of weeks time when I can string together some 100% cohen weeks. I am reluctant to spend money on new scales mine cost me a small fortune. I'll see how I go, curiosity may get me in the end.

Well off to bed for me

JennyC

Mette · #**225** 27-01-2009, 18:20

Oh honey I'm so sorry you're crook! Sending you lots of positive energy so you can bet better soon! Be kind to yourself and take good care of yourself, pretty lady!

km64 · #**226** 27-01-2009, 20:28

Hey Jenny - so sorry to hear you are sick - hope you get better very soon and back to your usual self. Rest well!

Cheers - Kay.

Dedeemay · #**227** 27-01-2009, 23:07

Hi Jenny,

Sorry to hear you are not feeling the best ! I do hope you feel better very soon....

You are so close to the finish now...you must be so excited!

JennyC · #**228** 28-01-2009, 06:55

Feeling alot better this morning

ready to start a new cohens day and finish this thing!!!!
I will see if curiosity will get me with the weighing as I was doing it everyday, but I think I will like the challenge of not knowing how close to goal I am. I will just keep powering on for a couple of weeks I think. New scales do not come into the budget this week anyways as I get to pick up my resized rings on Friday...yeah they will cost me enough

Will attempt to write in the many diaries I have missed the last week tonight when I get home from work.

Have a great day

JennyC

maria1969yellow · #**229** 28-01-2009, 07:20

Hi Jenny, you must be so close and feeling frustrated but you will get a nice suprise in a couple of days for sure. Stick at it..You have done sooooo well and be proud of yourself... No stressing LOL that holds for me definately on the scales...
Cant wait to see you in refeed land and tell us all about it....

fiona.sutton · #**230** 28-01-2009, 20:11

Hi JEnny
So pleased you are feeling better. SOunds like it might be kinda fun to not know the weight for a few weeks! ENjoy it!
Fi

RosemaryFNQ · #**231** 28-01-2009, 22:09

Jenny, Glad to hear you are feeling better. Shame about the scales, Tell Greg he needs to do a couple hours overtime to pay for new ones...... Maybe he had a hidden agenda breaking them. LOL.

You seem more determined to get to that goal weight and I am sure you will. So when are you coming home again? - cos I agree that you will be skinny but I will still be going I think. But I will weigh less that is for sure.
Take care and don't work too hard..
Aunty Rosemary

km64 · #**232** 29-01-2009, 21:49

Hey Jenny -glad to hear you feeling a bit better and hope you enjoy the respite from the scales. You are doing so well and hope you love having your rings back at a size that is perfect for the new you - hope you flaunt them everywhere you go!!

Cheers - Kay.

JennyC · #**233** 30-01-2009, 18:43

Got my rings back today

They are perfect and super shiny.....you have to love the way jewellers clean your rings!!!!!

Have still been struggling a little and have indulged a couple of times in extra fruit and crackers. Am not happy with myself but in a strange way, also proud of myself for not taking it any further. But it really has to stop cause I know it's not a hunger thing it's a mind thing. I can tell the difference but at the time a feeling or thought overwhelms me and before you know it another piece of fruit is gone

Going to get that book Vee has been talking about....I read a few pages when I found it on Amazon (they let you have a sneak peek) and for what I read it does seem very appropriate. Also need to revise my Beck diet solution it does help. I need to recognise the moment I want to stray and use some techniques till it passes over.

I was trying to think about why I have been struggling of late....
* So close to the end...am I scared of this allowing myself to be the skinny girl.....I did hide behind my fat for a long time.
* Everyone at work..more clients are saying I must be finished and have given up telling them how much I have left to go.....so maybe I have fooled myself into thinking I'm okay where I am.

Well this afternoon I was reading another thread where some members were discussing changing up your meals if you need a boost and so I have decided to switch up my meal from now on.

Tomorrow it will be steak & vege for breaky, cracker mid morn, chicken & salad for lunch + 2 crackers, fruit mid arvo, yoghurt & mango smoothie + 2 crackers for dinner. Never changed up my meals since being on cohens so it has inspired me once again. I can only try it and see.

Have a great few days

JennyC

maria1969yellow · #**234** 30-01-2009, 18:51

Hi Jenny, its a bit like coming to some closure isnt it good on you for not taking it further. Thats a huge achievement in this game I say. I believe that changing meals around is awesome. I had a meat burger one morning for breaky when I had TOMs and it made a huge difference to my energy levels also and then when I had my meal 1 really enjoyed it for tea. Something different also.

Keep at it. Im sure the kgs will nudge soon...

Its a journey definately this game we are playing but in the end we will succeed as we have committed to that by just being here talking about it all eh.

Hey embrace yourself and let yourself enjoy this part of the journey also.

Gorgeous one · #**235** 30-01-2009, 18:54

Hi Jenny,
I hope the meal changes help you out. Still good choices to have fruit and crackers if you are going to deviate a little. Hope it works out for you.
Michele

thenewvee · #**236** 30-01-2009, 20:28

Hi Jenny!

Sounds like you are struggling as I was. Well done for only have extra fruit and crackers!
The psychologist I saw last week suggested I try a technique to stop myself from sabotaging myself by eating and said that when i think of wanting to eat something, instead of thinking "I want to have a banana/mango/apple" to change it to "my body or my brain wants to have a banana". In doing this you disassociate the eating from yourself. That creates a bit of distance, then you can notice what emotion you are feeling. Just observe it. If it is something that has come back from the past, just let it come and then go. Then challenge the feeling if it is true or not eg a feeling of worthlessness can be challenged by listing off all your best achievements etc. I found it did actually work for me.

The book I've been reading is also very good, and explains quite a lot about how insidious our thoughts can be into sabotaging us back into eating, and points out ways to be aware of them.

I feel getting on top of this emotional stuff is critical at this stage, as it will make all the difference in keeping this weight off permanently!

Keep on going well!

Vee

fiona.sutton · #**237** 31-01-2009, 13:22

Hi Jenny
I know you'll beat the mind sabbotage. I am absorbing all the things you and Vee are saying, at the final stage of your journeys, and am looking online at some of those books to understand.

Hope the steak & veg brekky is yum - sounds like it to me!
Fi

JennyC · #**238** 01-02-2009, 07:51

Hi all, What a crazy week, have been up and down with myself this week.....fighting sobotaging thoughts etc.

Well am glad to say I almost feel back in the zone....a couple more DF days and I'll be back...no more extra fruit and crackers.
I am starting to walk a few days a week, nothing strenuous just something to do with myself to think about all the good choices I am going to make for myself and deal with the sabotaging thoughts. Very relaxing.

I am determined that February is my month and I am going to get this thing done and dusted.

I was chatting to a client yesterday about her building her dream house and how she has put together a scrap book of all the things she visualises for her house.....I got a brainwave and thought I would make my own scrapbook up with my before, during and of course finished pictures. But also include motivational quotes, reasons why I don't want to be like I used to. What I love about the new me etc.

I will let you know how I go. I just thought having a quick reference guide to my journey and why I started it in the first place is a perfect motivational tool as well as a good thing to grab when those sabotuers come into my head.

I am going to get my 30th bday photos off my sister today, they were a major motivating factor in why I started cohens. Until now I refused to look at them as they digusted me and I never wanted to use them as before pictures but I will be posted them in my pics as soon as I can.
They were taken in May a month before I started cohens.

Well thanks everyone for dropping by I will be trying to visit heaps of diaries through the day.

By the way the change up of meals was great yesterday....will keep with it me thinks!!!!!

Have a great Sunday

JennyC

Mette · #**239** 01-02-2009, 10:03

I think that sounds like a wonderful idea, Jenny! I might do something similar, actually. February will definitely be your month! Sending you lots of positive, fat-melting energy to get you to goal!

RosemaryFNQ · #**240** 01-02-2009, 14:38

Hey Jenny, that scrap book sounds like a great idea. You sound a lot more positive now. Keep it up. Love, Aunty Rosemary