Journey to a New Me

[Soleil]

Mesmer !!!!!!!!!!!
Time to check in, it's been a week
xx

[mesmer_eyes]

Hello ladies!!

Im still here! I havent checked in and on my blog while I was off because I got lazy perhaps and didnt feel like it? And now, the new office doesnt allow access to the forum and to blogger!! Phew! So that makes it difficult. And really busy here.. thought would calm down a bit.. but no. Uff..

Ah on the diet side.. i havent been really good but still in check. Periods has started. Yet I did not experience the usual PMS symptoms I normally have. I was surprised yesterday when it made its appearance and I waa like - "is it that time of the month again???" No wonder it wasnt really easy foe me last week + the fact i felt really bored ( i felt i wasnt busy enough to keep my mind off food).

And Ive stopped weighing daily. Feels good not to be annoyed every morning. Decided to check only at the end of the month.

Nothing else to report at the moment. Just meals are the same.. i get to eat late for the past 3 days bec too busy? Now Im typing this on my phone, alone in the office pantry at almost 4pm. And I dont feel hungry.

Clothes all fit better and everyone noticing the weightloss.. ex colleagues on fb saw a pic i recently posted and 1 of them commented abt it to my friend there. My friend was so proud of me and she said : "Yah. She follows a strict healthy diet. She cooks and eats it! She doesnt live on bread and cheese and cucumbers like u!" she can be really like that. But i do have friends there who are actually proud of me and sets me as an example to those people who just complain abt being fat and not doing anything about it. So the pressure is on! Thinking of my minor set backs last week, im like : "i have to keep this up" hahahaha..

Will catch up on all your diaries soon.. i hope all are well!!

Whooohooo! Boom boom.. just felt like saying... and Im ony periods!

[StrongerThanSheKnows]

Yay!! M.E.! So great to hear from you! Sounds like you are finding a brand new groove. I keep on telling myself that I have to go through all phases of this diet to repair my relationship with food and my body. Every time I'm on plan despite this or that I'm learning. Yes, last week I hated the diet! This week I'm more focused but still questioning if I'm strong enough to maintain this kind of healthy lifestyle for the long haul. These feelings suck but they are part of the process. It seems to me like your journey is learning other things about yourself, how to remain focused on your goal despite set backs, that sometimes the scale doesn't know jack about what's really happening in your body, and that focusing on the big picture not daily worries about that weigh in is what works for you. We are all so different but still struggling with similar battles. I'm so glad to hear from you. Like you said, we need each other!! Thanks for your strength and determination and for helping us all along!


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[Soon2BSlim]

Nice going ME! Lol, I can just imagine you in the office pantry on your phone! It's so good that you haven't been hungry either. It's one of the things I like about Cohen's - when you're in the zone and sticking to the plan, there isn't much hunger at all, unlike other diets I have been on. Yes, we get bored with the food and we have bad habits to break but personally, I don't feel hungry after the initial few weeks while my body gets used to the new way of eating.

Don't you just love that feeling when your clothes feel better on you and your wardrobe suddenly opens up to a whole lot of clothes you haven't been able to wear for a while!

Love your posts

Louise

[Heidimama]

Hi M.E.! I have enjoyed reading your diary and a bit of your blog. Thank you for all the useful information, especially the info about the course. Your notes are very helpful; I found myself nodding in agreement as I read.

Congrats on all your hard work and kilos gone! Look forward to walking the Cohen path with you.

[mesmer_eyes]

Hello ladies! Hi heidimama thanks for reading my blog too

I hate this not being able to access this site in the office. I know im supposed to be fully working but its a rule for me not to really use my laptop at home unless i really really have to. I also not a fan of typing a lot on mobile.. :/

Anyhoo.. im slowly falling off the bus!! Nooooo! Here's the falling off trend starting.. the pants i was wearing exactly a week ago is too snug on the waist now. Dont know if im just so bloated bec of period or the pasta w mozarella that bf cooked for dinner yesterday.. naughty. Well i didnt eat the whole day! Was busy creating a presentation from scratch (did I just day that i dont use laptops at home?? So he owes me big time!) as a favor.

Im glad in a way that i wore these pants. Its a blunt reminder that Im doing something wrong. The sniffles started again (a bit). My mom, during the 70s, the name of the game was having a tiny waist. They were very concious of this, so in turn they always wear clothes that highlight their waists = tight clothes and this helped them. Its like if u were out of the line with ur diet, their clothes tell them immediately. She told me this when I was a teenager. She observed that the reason why my generation/friends found it hard to keep the same standards bec of our clothes (baggy pants, loose tshirts). Then when u combine that with all the junk thats available, well we all know what happens next.

Anyhoo, today started early, 4:30 early. Going for a interactive falcon show as part of this company's marketing efforts. I have to write a 5 star review on tripadvisor and ofcourse in my blog. I've been wanting to go but just didnt get around to it. Its really something tk experience in DXB-- away from all the sky scrappers and humongous malls. Something close to authentic arabia. We will probably end at 1pm . Package includes breakfast at the cultural center. That one Ive done. Its really nice. Will not be eating ofcourse.

Laters girls :*

[Soleil]

No falling off the bus missy!!!

Come on, you can do this!!!

When on Cohen, if there was one thing you could do that would make it easier for you to do this program, what would it be and what would it 'cost' you? Don't write it here, just think about it, or write to me in the private inbox.

Soleil xx

[StrongerThanSheKnows]

Hi Hi M.E.!
That is so funny, the thing about the 70's and the tight waist jeans. Our pants are all stretchy these days! I can totally think of so many times when I thought, I'd better not wear those pants today, they aren't stretchy enough (cough), really more like, i've been eating like a horse and only my stretchiest pants will fit me.

I'm sorry though, that you've had a little set back. I'm sure it makes it harder to get back to 100% with work and on top of that not being able to blog or get on the forum. It is such a helpful support!

Well even if you can't write, hopefully you can sneak into the closet (lol) and read the forum and it will help to know you aren't alone. We are thinking of you, cheering you on, and on our journey too.

Hopefully, you're back cruising along and those snug pants are feeling comfy again.

Cheering you on!!!
STSK

[Soleil]

Mesmer!!!!
I'm doing this, I'm actually doing this, and you are so coming with me!!!!! You.can.do.this!!!!!!! I know you can!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN and YOU WILL!!!!!!!!!!

[mesmer_eyes]

Hello ladies!

Thank you! Thank you! For checking in on me. I promise to write more.

Im really having a tough time getting back 100%. Chocolates are really the death of me. When i know theres one in proximity, like a bee to a honey, Im drawn to it. And then it spirals from there.. dammit. I figured food is not my problem. Its those chocolates bec I really dont crave the food nor do I want to eat loads.

My consultant emailed me to weigh in and I just ignored her. Well i will weigh in though, after this. Im in the exact same weight. What do I tell her? So embarrassing. My goodness..

I can lie and promise myself to be good this month and somehow even out by the next 30days. Or I can tell the truth. I can see an advantage in both. If I lie, i will have this pressure, an added push for me to better keep it up or the next month it will definitely wont work for me anymore. If I tell the truth, well its better. Honest with myself and its all out in the open. Maybe I just negotiate the blood test part, give me 10 days to straigthen myself out?

Today is another day to try. Im sitting outside with a cup of coffee..feet up on a stool, sun shinning, slight breeze and amazing temperature (DXB winter is coming!!!! Im so happy!!). I will soon be having my beach mornings..

I have nothing really wise to say. Ive fallen through the trap of my own mind. I know its all in my head. What I want to dk originates from there, whether its being on the plan, our gobbling up that bowl of chocolates in my boss' office that seems to keep filling up overnight, everyday.

Just cant wait to hear what Wilma (my online consultant) says. Hope it will help me and not make me rebel and be a brat that I sometimes can be.

[Heidimama]

Hi M.E.,

I appreciate your honesty - I am about to be honest in my diary myself.

What I know for sure is that in spite the tough time you are going through, you have been 100% and you can be 100% again.

Yep, as we all know, this is first and foremost a head thing. Wishing you all the very best. You can do this.

[Soleil]

Hello there Mermer

Did you e-mail your consultant?

Those dam chocolates.... I have been there before, easy for me to say now a few weeks later but it is possible to not eat them. I've written this in my diary already but I don't think I'll ever be able to eat anything sweet ever again though, once you start you can't stop, or you can but it's not easy, we all know that...

I really hope you find a way to get back on the Cohen journey, I just know that you have it in you to finish this, and I know, that even if it's not now, that one day I'll be checking in here or opening your blog and smiling because you would have succeeded. I know that it will happen!

Big hugs, Soleil xx

[Nomoreweighting]

Hi ME,

I've only just started Cohen's again with a very long road to travel so I'm far from an expert.

Personally, I would be honest with the consultant. They may give you a ring for extra support. When I first did Cohen's I was DF for about 4 months, once I fell off the wagon I avoided all the consultant calls but now I wish I had just told them of my hardship and look for their support.

Great job so far, don't let some pesky chocolate dictate your life, it will be there when you reach goal and beyond.

Trudy

[StrongerThanSheKnows]

Hey M.E.,

If it isn't now, then when? This is a big motivator for me. I'm just so tired of being on and off, on and off the diet all the time. I don't want to have to start it again (at least not for a really really long time). That's what keeps me focused on the end game. You are already used to the amount of food ( you said it yourself), you aren't that hungry, you're used to saying "No, thank you." to everything, all the time, you're on the other side of the detox. You have done the hardest part of the diet, now you just have to remember it's either no chocolate and finishing this or doing this diet on and off forever. I don't know about you, but that's enough to scare me into being a good Cohen girl. Lol. We all understand how dang hard this can be, and feel for you on the struggle to be 100% again. You can do it! You are a tough one. The consultant has heard it before, you are not the first one to succumb to chocolate, lol. Far from the first. Be honest with your consultant and yourself. You are strong, get your power and momentum back. You can do it.
PS-I hope my tough love, wasn't too tough.
STSK

[mesmer_eyes]

hello ladies!

thanks for visiting and checking up on me.

surprisingly, this site is accessible to me in the office again! wohhooo! I just decided to give it a try a few days ago and it worked (in InPrivate browsing).

I also put up a post for yesterday. I was deviation free.

I just sent a message to my consultant prior to logging in. Been honest, but didn't give her a lengthy email as Im sure she has heard it all before. I just apologised, told her that I wasn't on plan for some time now, my current weight, whats my next course of action to correct all of this, and how do I avail of additional time with them (online support lasts for 3 months only) Lets see what she says.

As for my weight, well I gained about 1.5kg, from the lowest Ive reached and before the deviations. So, Im ok with that. Im not even gonna think about the possible weightloss that I could have right now have I've been good (oops too late now).

I started with pilates too. I got a trial package at a Pilates studio here. I did it because the cost works ok for me, and I've always wanted to do it since 2002 (its just way too expensive for me then, as it is now). I really like it but, Im still thinking about the cost for getting a full package, which is just good for about 3 months for me (the price of that will be equivalent to a years worth of gym membership on those popular gyms ie fitness first or golds gym). I don't know...

Anyhoo, I have a lot of catching up to do. Wish me well today!

[Soon2BSlim]

Great post ME! I love that you've 'faced' your consultant and are taking charge of your weightloss again. Sometimes the fear of a bad reaction or result on the scales is enough to make us hide what's really happening when what we should be doing is asking for help. We all need help with this. It's not something we should be shy or ashamed of but for some reason we see ourselves as a failure and worry about how others will see us. I know this is true for me at least and I love the courage you showed by contacting your consultant and taking the bull by the horns.

That's a winning attitude and I know you'll get to your goal because of it!

Nice going!!

Louise

[Heidimama]

Hi M.E.!

I bet it feels good to have contacted the consultant - I hope she comes back with a helpful response.

The 1.5kg will be gone in no time. Onwards and downwards.

I have always wanted to try Pilates and been put off by the cost, so I would love to read about your experience. I imagine that practitioners develop long, lean muscles, but that may be wrong.

Looking forward to seeing you around and shrinking with you!

[StrongerThanSheKnows]

Hey M.E.!
How you doing lady?
I read your blog today. I can't help but totally relate to your rant. It is such a bummer to be in that category of body type that just doesn't naturally stay skinny. It's work. It's a lot of work. It's funny because this body type (our body type) is realistically probably the best suited to survive and thrive if we didn't live in a world where food was constantly at our finger tips. We can stay strong, healthy, and energetic without much food. But in this modern world, instead, we are at a disadvantage. Food is so accessible and if we have even a little bit extra our body saves it. My husband and I joke about how my body is always working like "Winter is coming" (game of thrones reference). It hangs on to everything. On the diet, I start having to dress in warmer clothes because my body doesn't want to burn the calories it takes to keep me warm (unbelievably frustrating!). Anyway, I feel you. I've definitely asked "why me?" a lot!
The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing that I am strong, I have more will power than most, and most of all, boy do I eat healthier than 99% of the people around me. I may not look it, but its true. All of that has to mean something. We are in essence probably a heck of a lot healthier, sturdier, stronger, than all of those naturally skinny eat whatever they want people out there.
Anyway, I hope you are doing well. Remember, the only way to lose this battle is to quit. And I know you are not a quitter.
And PS- heck yes, detox affects your mood. I'm the angriest, grumpiest monster during detox. You're allowed lots of rants during detox. Do whatever you have to, to get to the other side of that nasty battle. You know how much better you feel when its over.
Best,
STSK

[mesmer_eyes]

Hey STSK,

Two years later and I get to appreciate your comment... i love it! Yes our body types are probably the ones to survive and thrive. I still ask the why me part, together with other important questions like "how come brussels sprouts were made to taste nothing like french fries?!?!"

Im have fallen off the bus and rolled down a cliff.. For those who have been here through my journey.. oh well.... im in no good state right now in my life.. in most aspects and im struggling to turn it all around.

To all the Cohenites out there, be strong and you can do this!!!

ME

[mesmer_eyes]

Hello! Where my girls at?! I hope you're not here again like me. But I would love to hear from you.

So. My nth freaking time trying this and guess what, I have ballooned up to the size I have been in 9 year ago!! A lot of things has happened and not all good. I guess Im really one of those emotional eaters eh?

I'm on Day 3 now, a bit of a hunger pang kicked in and the dreaded detox headache is looming, but lets see.

Does anyone know if collagen is allowed on this diet? Im taking NeoCell +C, Neocell hyaluronic and Neocell Type 2. I just figured, Im not really so young anymore and my skin can use some help with all the weight Im going to drop hahaha

Thanks! and.. lets do this!