Daisy Chain's Personal Diary

[daisychain]

Thanks Missy. xxx

[danders]

Hi DC, sorry to hear youre so down at the moment. It does sound like your hormones are having fun with you.. the only time I stand and sob in the middle of cooking is when my hormones are visiting. You need to wallow for a little bit and indulge your miseries and then pick yourself up and get on with it. I always find good therapy is get a sure fire tear jerker movie, clear out the house and cry like a baby till your head hurts - the elephant man works for me.. i only last about 3 minutes in and then its a sob fest to the end. Remind yourself how much youve achieved so far - its really wonderful.
Hope you feel better soon.
Andi

[sammie]

Massive **hugs** DC.... I hate hormones!!! Crying, sad, happy, confused... they suck. And the weighing, chopping, cooking, weighing, chopping, cooking is driving me insane - LOL - the other night I was so lazy I just chopped a cucumber in 1/2 and weighed it and that was my veg. Haha - I know not very appetising but when ya just cant be bothered to fuels ya.

Hope today is a wonderful day for you - weekend is only hours away xoxo

[daisychain]

Day 102 (week 14) - Friday 17th September

Hi everyone,

I hope that you're all doing well, thanks heaps Andi & Sammie for your messages of support. Means a lot. xxx

Today I've woken up a different person (thank goodness)... last night I watched the footy show, and there was a short preview of the Jim Stynes documentary which will be aired this Sunday.
To say I was emotional is a massive understatement, I absolutely bawled my eyes out watching it. What that man has been through, how hard he has fought and how amazing and supportive his wife, kids, family and frieds are is a true inspiration.

I feel ashamed that I made such a big deal about weighing food! Imagine having to have surgery after surgery... brain tumors removed, chemo, vomiting, herbal remedes and all sorts of other things. My god.

Seriously - how LUCKY am I that I have the opportunity to change my life with this program. That it's within my control. I don't have a disease that is going to take my life any day, I have a weight problem that I'm doing something about. If that means that I have to weigh food and can't go out for dinner for 4 months or however long it will be - what the heck does that matter??!!

Seriously... I am so blessed to have come this far in my journey, and 20kgs is massive. Why am I forgetting that? I wake up every morning and can just go to my wardrobe and get dressed, I don't stand there and try on 100 clothes that don't fit and cry in my closet about how much I hate myself. I now get dressed and feel good! Anything in my cupboard fits me, and some are even to big.

I am so lucky to have a supportive family and friends, and to have you all. You are sharing this journey with me, even from miles and miles away - and I appreciate you all more than you know.

I know that it was hormones that were making me feel so miserable lately, and they will come back again and again, but I'm going to try my hardest to keep aware of them and not get overwhelmed again.

I am lucky that my health issues are small by comparison to others, and although I may have a battle ahead of me when it comes to all my 'womens bits' that will mean more surgeries or the possibility of not having children, that's ok. I'll fight it, and I'll win... just like I am with my weight loss.

Have a wonderful Friday cherrubs, and chin up if you are feeling like I was - life's good!

xxx

[bexy]

What an AWESOME attitude, good on you Daisy chain... think postive and positive things will happen and 20 kgs's wow you rock. Keep it up

bex

[daisychain]

Thanks Bex!

[Kirst]

Awwww that made me all teary eyed! You are such an amazing woman DC! I love reading your posts...even the down ones. Am glad you are feeling better today and had a nice cry. Sometimes you just need to have a big cry and then you'll feel better. And you totally weren't being silly about the weighing and going out to dinner thing. Yes we only do it for a short time in the big scale of things....but it is still hard at times so I totally understand what you mean. You are allowed to get down about it so don't beat yourself up so much

Big hugs to you little lady!

Kirst xo

[daisychain]

Naww.. thanks Kirst - big squishy hugs right back to you. Glad that you're a part of my journey and enjoy catching up with my diary as much as I do with yours!!

xxx

[lil_doll]

Hmm, that is some perspective there, DC... *sigh. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

I am upset I missed the footy show as I have heard a few people talking about how emotive it was.

What we go through is seemingly nothing in comparision to those suffering Cancer and other illnesses and we gain so many health benefits from it! I don't think I will complain now... (for the rest of the day, that is hehe)

Keep up the positive thinking!

xoxo
Missy

[Mum of DC & Aimz]

oh babe i know its hard 4 u wen everyones asking about wen youll have a baby & could just shoot your in laws sometimes well nearly all the time if im honest. you r the most important thing not if u can or cant give us grandkids thats your choice anyway even if u didnt have problems! we r really proud of u & what youve achieved so far & know u need space 2 deal in your own way thats cool. u no u just have 2 drop in wen u dont want 2 cook well do it 4 u & dont forget ive got supplies now!!!!!!!!!!! never has my fridge had so many fresh vegies in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 luv u munch hang in there!

[Kohinoor]

Hey, DC,

You are such a lucky girl - I hear/read/feel all of the love from your Mum and your Sis. You are truly blessed, wee girl.

And hey, isn't it great to be able to "get thoughts on paper" (even if it is electronic paper)? So many seem to find it settling in some way.

Of course, what you do by sharing, is to invite others (who feel the same as you) to feel good about themselves, 'cos they find they are not alone in THEIR thoughts. And, right there, is the major reason why I'll prolly be glued to this place till the day I (ummm) move on......

See, you read others words on here, and draw inspiration from them - but, it works in reverse too.. I wonder just how many others are finding your posts inspirational too (you could well be surprised ).

All in all, it is a mutual journey - lived in our solitude, yet SHARING with 100's of others, and each drawing strength from others.

I LOVE IT !!! (Thanks SO much, Asy - )

And, to Mum and Aims, I've got just one thing to say.....



Hugs,

Koh

[Mum of DC & Aimz]

thanx koh hugs 2 u 2

[daisychain]

Thanks Missy & Koh, lovely words, and mumma bear - you're such a beautiful blessing in my life. Love you so very VERY much and am so proud to have you as my mum. Thank you for everything.

Work is insane so can't do a big update but just had to write after I read those messages.

xxx

[Sunny]

Hey DC I just wanted to say that I think you're amazing and a real inspiration to us newbies. Today is the last day of week two on the program and whenever I get overwhelmed by the amount I have to lose, or I feel isolated (which I DO a lot, cos I am not going out and socialising) I come on here and I read through the diaries of others who are further into the program and it really helps me.

Your journey is helping others and as we are all here to support each other, I just wanted to let you know that. And also, I cried while chopping and cooking the other night too! I think it is all part of the process.

Keep up the good work

[Kirst]

I echo that!

DC little lovely you are awesome! I always hang out to read your diary for the day. You are definiately an inspiration to me!

And just because I think the dancing narnies are cute...here are some for you!


Kirst xo

[sammie]

Just cos you are you DC..... and have to copy Kirst

[daisychain]

Day 107 (week 15) - Wednesday 22nd September



Heeeelllllooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww muffins!!!


How are we all going today? I hope that answer was 'awesome' from you all!!


Lots happening in my world at the moment, where to start... well I'm very busy at work so that has made it hard to get on here and update and catch up with everyone's diaries - but rest assured - even if I'm not commenting I'm reading and offering my support in spirit!! hehe


I'm looking forward to this weekend, as my footy team is in the Grand Final - GO PIES!!! - so I hope that we can win and that will just top off a great season for us. Really crossing fingers and toes for that one.


Aimz is doing 100% better now and probably getting close to being able to go home soon which I know she's happy about. She's been cooking me up some awesome dishes while she's been down though so I'm loving it! My new fav one was a veggie and ricotta 'pie'. She baked the ricotta and veggies in my baby casserole dish, then crumbled my bicky on top to make it crunchy, then cooked cauli and mixed it with mozz. cheese and put that on top to melt - it was DIVINE!! Soooo yummy!!


I've been pretty good with trying to 'shake up' my meals, as I'm getting really bored with my food again. So I've made a few yummy things, going to pull out my cohens cookbook and read that again too, hopefully will find some inspring dishes there!


My weight seems to be moving again which is a blessing, I'm very excited to say that I'm a 70's girl now! YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!
Cannot even remember the last time that I was in the 70's - but I'm very happy about that! My cms are also moving again (after a 3 wk no move!!) and I lost 15cm last week, which brings me to a massive 81cms in total now. Woot Woot! *doing the happy dance*


Now to my gorgeous Sunny, Kirst & Sammie your messages are just beautiful!! You made me tear up! It's such an amazing thing going through is journey and changing your life, and it's amazing to make friends on this forum too. What an amazing double-blessing to hear that I can inspire others too!! Wow...!!


It humbles me, and makes me feel glad that I've shared my 'worts and all' on here with you. If it can help others then it was all worth it!


Ok, well I guess I'd better get back to work hey - don't think they pay me to write on the forums!! lol


Much love to all of you gorgeous people out there - and know that it's coming right back at you ten-fold! xxx

[Kirst]

Wooooohooooooooooo! Congratulations little skinny mini!

70's Girl!

That is AWESOME! Well done honey

Kirst xo

[daisychain]

Thanks Kirst!

Ohh one more thing I forgot to mention, it's taken me a few months - but I finally feel comfortable enough in putting up my actual weight on my ticker - rather than how much I was loosing... very difficult, as I still feel embarrased, but another step in the process.

[Kirst]

Originally Posted by daisychain

I finally feel comfortable enough in putting up my actual weight on my ticker - rather than how much I was loosing... very difficult, as I still feel embarrased, but another step in the process.

If you wanna feel better just check out my ticker....don't be embarressed! You're a 70's girl!