Future Yummy Mummy's Diary

[mcpsych]

leaving singapore- the one place in asia i would consider living
will you miss it

[Future Yummy Mummy]

Sadly, not in the slightest. I've been here too long.

But it gave me my son, for which I'll always be grateful.

[mcpsych]

what, giving away children in singapore hehe

[SlimLiz]

Congrats on your decision to start re-feed!

You've lost a hell of alot of weight so you should feel very proud
You could still lose a bit more on re-feed too and your measurements will decrease if you strengthen and tone (I think)

My plan is similar... after re-feed work on my fitness level and strengthen and tone!

How exciting moving to Australia!!! Do you know where yet??

I'm feeling rather moody... I had to get to the beach today and it did lift my mood thank God... I was moving around in circles not getting anything done!!

My re-feed is in the mail and I look forward to reading it... apparently it is 16 days long or SHORT

Yeah for US !! Hip Hip Hooray!!!

[Future Yummy Mummy]

Hi Slim Liz

See you in re-feed.

Yes, we're moving to Perth, already have a house we built there as we've planning this for quite a few years. Can't wait!

Have a good weekend.

[shuki]

Well done on such a great job in your weight loss YM....you must feel like a new woman!

[Future Yummy Mummy]

Final "phase 1" weigh day:

Week 1: 5.1kg, 8cm gone
Week 2: 1.7kg, 4cm
Week 3: 1.6kg, 8cm
Week 4: 1.2kg,8cm
Week 5: 1.5kg, 3cm
Week 6: 1.2kg, 3cm
Week 7: 1.4kg, 0cm
Week 8: 1.4kg, 7cm
Week 9: 1.3kg, given up measuring as I'm so crap at it. Clothes sizes are getting smaller, that'll do me!
Week 10: 1.2kg,
Week 11: 1.2 kg
Week 12: 1.4kg
Week 13: 1.2kg
Week 14: 0.5kg
Week 15: 1.2kg
Week 16: 1.7kg
Week 17: 1.4kg
Week 18: 0.8kg
Week 19: 1.2kg
Week 20: 0.5kg
Week 21: 0.9kg
Week 22: 1.2kg
Week 23: 1.3kg
Week 24: 0.5kg
Week 25: 1.3kg
Week 26: 0.8kg
Week 27: 0.4kg
Week 28: 1.0kg
Week 29: 0.1kg!!!!!!!!!!
Week 30: 1.4kg
Total: 37.6 kg

Hooray, phase 1 is over, and with a bang. I'm off to re-feed now, so see you all there!

Thanks for all the support and comments everyone.

[baloo]

[Ontheroadagain]

Wow, what a journey.

I am the former FYM but haven't been on the forum for ages so had forgotten my password, so I've re-registered.

Unfortunately, the reason I'm back is that, over the last 3.5 years, I have put most of the weight back on again.

It went well for about the first six months, and then ... I don't know really. I think I got fed up of the "constant vigilance" and being abnormal, and then it crept up, and I felt like **** and it crept up and ... well, you can guess the rest.

Obesity really is such a psychological problem.

So, my life: we moved to Perth in 2010 and love it here. My darling boy is now 7, fully toilet trained (!) but still a pain in the ass to get to sleep. My husband seems to have largely recovered from the adrenal fatigue or whatever it was and is generally much less stressed than he was in Singapore. I'm still lecturing a bit, but I'm also 1 year into a Masters in Counselling and Psychotherapy, so hope to do a bit of both when I finish in 2 years. As part of the course I'm learning more about myself, and I'm realising how self-critical and perfectionist I am. Because of this, I vowed a while ago to never do another diet so that I couldn't beat myself up, but that just meant I got fatter.

I've not wanted to redo Cohens. My period stopped last time, and that caused my cholesterol to rise, and I did look a bit ill, but I think I've really just been avoiding due to denial.

My impetus to restart now is that I've had chest pains since Wednesday. I've been to the doctor and had an ECG, and I think it's probably something like a hiatus hernia, but tomorrow I have to go and do one of those treadmill-stress test things to rule out problems. So all weekend I've been beating myself up that I've "let" myself get into the high risk category and risked my son's mother's life.

I was initially planning on doing Cohens "most" of the time, as I've a few social things coming up that are a bit awkward. I was also in the "I'll start it in a few weeks after x" mindset. I was reluctant to read my diary again as I thought it would depress me, but actually it's inspired me (as well as given me a bloody good laugh in places).

So I'm going to shop on Tuesday and start on Wednesday, and the 10 awkward social occasions have been replanned into two.

This time round, I'm not too worried about it being fast. It'll happen if I believe, and a bit slower might be better for my body.

I'll be back.

Night all.

[Ontheroadagain]

This is like a secret place - my diary is tucked away in Completed Diaries so no one but me is ever likely to read it.

So on Monday night (after my last post) I read my refeed and maintenance diaries. I'd found reading my Loss Diary very inspiring, but I had a totally different reaction with the maintenance diary. I could feel the panic and confusion and self-loathing as the unexplained volatility started to kick in. And that's what it's been like ever since. I've been feeling a bit out of kilter since I read it.

So I'm not worried about losing weight, but I am worried about afterwards. My Counselling course is helping me to understand myself better, and I've always been self-critical/perfectionist. If I fail at staying slim, I extrapolate that into I am a failure.

So I'm going to go and see a body image/self-esteem counsellor at intervals during and after weight loss, and I'm just about to read a book on self-esteem.

Today I started the diet, and it was actually a wonderful feeling of relief to feel in control. I haven't been too hungry. Funnily enough, I've always loved natural yogurt but for the sat few weeks I've been eating full fat Greek yogurt. This morning's low fat version, a brand I've happily eaten before, made me heave.

[Ontheroadagain]

Week 1 #2

Well I said I wanted to lose it slower this time, and it was. "Only" 2.8 kg, which I suppose is pretty decent, but I feel like I deserve more with all this hunger/sacrifice.

Hmmm. Be careful what you wish for ...