LethalLee and the 25 kilo loss plan!

[LethalLee]

Ok - back on track! Just had my yoghurt, I'm downing the water to hopefully flush out yesterday's slip up.
I'm surprised how quickly I got down about it but I'm trying to be really honest with myself and try and share how I'm feeling so it helps me see what I'm feeling and to hopefully get out of it really quickly and let it overcome me and then ditch the diet.
Mich - thanks for your words. You're right tomorrow (or today!) is a new day.

[LethalLee]

Feeling good! Someone who I hadn't seen for 3 weeks just commented on my weight and said I look like I've lost weight! She said wow you look awesome - keep up whatever you are doing!!!! Feeling awesome! It's given me motivation to keep going! Yay!!

[**Westiewench**]

Hi LetahlLee, seems you are straight back on that horse after a slip and that's one of the hardest things to do so well done to you! best to put it behind you and move on - I know it is so easier said then done! Reflecting back as to why we self sabotage is an amazing learning experience and one that myself hopes to also learn.
Go the yogurt and water
Happy Weds
Westie xx

[LethalLee]

Ok, well I'm embarrassed to say I've not been on plan for 5 days now. I don't know what happened......I was away and things just unravelled. I've emailed my consultant and told her yesterday that things hadn't been good. I've owned up to it and I'm trying to be accountable on here too.
So I feel really ashamed, guilty and terrible within myself and my body. I feel bloated again. I feel gross.
So I'm off to get everything organised for my week and not go off the rails again. I've put the 3 kilos on that I took off. Why am I doing this so early in? I had only finished my first week.
I can't write on here what I want to because it's only swear words. And really what is that going to achieve?
So I feel like not only have I let myself down but I'm letting you all down too. Especially Westie.......my Cohens buddy. Sorry.

[**Westiewench**]

HI LethalLee, firstly don't feel bad and beat yourself up - tomorrow is a start of a new week and new beginings

You know I did the exact same thing when I restarted in August - 1 week in and felt great and I caved in badly - went off the rails totally - felt exactly the same as you - took me awhile to realise this is what I really want and here I am - nearly at the end of week 2 - so trust me I know it isn't easy and sometimes we need to fall off to rethink and decide if this is what we really want

You have this in the bag and you are stronger then you give yourself credit for

And welcome back
Westie xx

[LethalLee]

Aw thanks Westie!!

I've taken a dress out of the cupboard that I want to wear to my work Christmas party of 13th job. It's 2 sizes too small and I know if I buckle down I'll fit into it on 13th Nov. that is my first goal. Not a number on a scale of a number on the tape measure. It's to fit in that dress. If I can do that I will feel like I've made it!!
7 weeks to go!!

[**Westiewench**]

Great thinking So glad you aren't bound by the numbers on the scales - unlike me - I try not to but I just am - I love that idea of the dress and I was looking for a top last night that I know I have lost weight when I can fit it but I cant find it
You will be rocking that dress by November - you got this petal
Westie xx

[Mich]

LL,

Since my first hit at Cohens, and succeeding, I reckon i've paid for 2 more plans and done over 10 restarts and now i find myself at square one.

Just remember this: No point in looking in the rear view mirror, you can't change anything there.

Ditch the negative emotions as they don't serve you well. Pick up, dust off and try again. The only time you fail is when you stop trying.

you will do this!

x

[allie_82]

Hi Lee,

I agree with Mich... we cannot change the past so we must keep looking to the future! I love the Walt Disney quote "keep moving forward" it is the only direction time goes so it is the only direction we should focus on!

Hang in there hun, try and stay positive!! And keep looking at that dress... you WILL get there xo

allie

[Winterboots]

Hi Lee
Putting the dress out to view is a great idea - and if you feel tempted to deviate - go and have a walk past it and imagine yourself in it for the Christmas function. I also used to hang one of my dresses I wore at my biggest - none of which I ever liked buying but brought because it "fitted" - never want to go back there.

Deviation is not an option on this programme. During my time on plan, the forum was very tough on deviation - there was many success stories which inspired all the newbies to succeed as well. By accepting deviations, you are upsetting the balance you are trying to achieve but worse is that your self esteem gets a battering, you get dishearten and down and many give up. This programme is the best eating programme there is to lose weight. Learn to be selfish - put yourself first when it comes to meal times and food preparation - become stubborn and determined to succeed . Remember, this is only for say 6 months - time flies so what is 6 months.

Put your mind to it and by April you will be in maintenance and size 8 - 10 clothes.
WB

[Tes]

That dress is a really great motivator and such a lovely milestone to work towards.

[skinnytobe]

Hi Lee. Just reading your diary for the first time. was gone a while an d also picked up a lot. I started this week and know exactly how you felt when you couldn't take it anymore. I think you must read your first post to see how you felt and read the reasons why you started in the first place. I think it would motivate you. As you said if you can stick to it now, you can achieve your goal quickly. So stick to it and get it done with. Sorry if its to harsh, but sometimes we need someone to tell you. Well I know I do, that's why I got my attitude right because my husband also said I really need to get it done now, because he knows how terrible I feel and how unconfident I feel at the moment.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

[LethalLee]

Hi!
I'm still here! Just been ridiculously busy!!

So you want to hear how I've gone.....

Down 6 kilos!
1st goal of 79.9 achieved on Sunday!!!
I've lost 34.5 cms!!

I'm really happy with this. I've had some shaky moments, but I'm pretty happy to be where I am now. I'm back in the 70's!! So excited about that! So now I'm hoping to just knock of the remaining weight and watch the kilos and the cms go down!! I think I'm in a real swing of things now. I'm not drinking enough water and I feel really dehydrated every morning at the moment. So I need to up this as I know it will help.

Hope everyone is doing well!!

Westie - I'm so sorry I haven't been around much. It's just been crazy at the moment! I'm working such long hours. But I promise to be better from now on!

[**Westiewench**]

Well hello LL - welcome back

AWESOME - so glad you are back on the bus - funny I hit 79.9 this weekend as well - GO US! Felt so great to finally break through the 80's - was always a mental block for me! I went off plan for a day or 2 but got back on - looks like we are about the same weight now!

Happy Tuesday
Westie xx

[allie_82]

Fantastic news Lee!! Keep up the amazing work!

Also huge congrats to you too Westie!! Cracking the 80s is definitely a boost to the motivation.... awesome work ladies!!

allie

[rettstar]

Originally Posted by LethalLee

Hi!
I'm still here! Just been ridiculously busy!!

So you want to hear how I've gone.....

Down 6 kilos!
1st goal of 79.9 achieved on Sunday!!!
I've lost 34.5 cms!!

Hey Lee!

love to see your progress and you picking up after slipping up.

Be focused on your end goal and what you want out of life and you'll look amazing!

[LethalLee]

So I'm here. Again. I've been toying with the idea of trying to start again and get back on my eating plan. I'm in two minds. I want to feel great again, which I have always felt on Cohen's after the first couple of days pass but I'm worried I will only stick to it for a week or two then bomb out.

The stories on here are fantastic of all the amazing women who have been so dedicated and not deviated and ahxives some huge losses!. I really want to do this once and once only and change my diet for good to see what my body can and can't handle. I did think about paying for another plan, but I just can't justify spending that money again seeing this is my 3rd plan. I should be able to do it on my own. I have the re-feed guides here at home so really I should be able to do this as I have all the tools.

I'm scared I can't stick at it. Scared my willpower will be low. And scared that this will be my weight for ever. Scared I can't commit and so what I know needs to be done to get rid of the weight I'm carrying around.

I need to accept that I'm carrying at extra 20 kilos right now, possibly 25 kilos and I need to get rid of those it's not doing me any favours. I need to make some sacrifices, need to eat a planned diet to help me overcome the weight gain. Here is no other diet or system I've used that has been so successful. I know it works.

So still toying with the idea. Still trying to work out whether I'm wasting my time or not.

[LethalLee]

Still pondering. Mainly because I'm scared. I'm at my biggest I've ever been. I don't want to feel like this anymore. But am I ready to 100% commit? Don't know what I'm afraid of if I do commit and i do stick to it? I'll miss out of certain "yummy" foods, I will feel trapped, few like I'm not in control, feel guilty for having to "punish" myself by having to be on a diet, have to eat veggies which I don't really like, have to manage my time for when I eat to allow 5 hours in between, I will feel **** in the first couple of days, I will feel hungry too, there won't be much variety.....
But I will feel great because I will be eating good food, my skin will clear up, I'll sleep better, I'll have more energy, I won't feel embarrassed, I will feel proud, I will fit into a wardrobe full of clothes that are waiting for me, I will look fabulous, I will feel incredible, I will have more get up and go, I will few proud of myself, I will want to do more and see people.
I will few more myself.
Hmmmm, they seem like really good reasons to do it don't they?

[Soon2BSlim]

You can do this LethalLee - don't see this as a quick fix but training for your new way of life. Why don't you begin slowly and just go one step at a time? Get through the first meal, then the first day without deviating then do one more day and one more day and before you know it you will have completed a week and before much longer you will be in the zone and not wanting to deviate but feel motivated and spurred on to reach your goal.

This is a great place to find motivation and there are quite a few of us who are doing Cohens again so you'll be in good company.

Why not join us - you know you can do it.

[allie_82]

Hi Lee,

They do seem like great reasons to do the program!! Someone on here wrote something on here the other day that made so much sense to me... it was something like this:

losing weight is HARD
being overweight is HARD
now I just have to choose my HARD

We all need to decide which version of hard we are willing to live with... I hope that you are able to overcome your fears and figure out which way you want to go. If you do decide to go down the Cohen's path again then you need to remember that it is a 'lifestyle change'... if we truly want to lose weight and keep it off then we will never be able to go back to eating the way we did before - because that is the reason we have to lose weight in the first place.

I got complacent after I finished refeed and started eating too much of the wrong foods and now I am back on my plan again with over 12 kilos to lose... I'm sure it happens to so many of us.

Sending you lots of positive thoughts Lee!

Good luck hun, and remember we are all here for each other.

Allie