Daisy Chain's Personal Diary

[daisychain]

Dear Daisy Chain (size 16),

Hi there. Please allow me to introduce myself, my name is Daisy Chain (size 12) and it's been a long time since we've last seen each other so you may not remember me.

I just wanted to let you know how I'm going, and all the wonderful things about being me. I am a very happy person, I enjoy life and the people that are in it. I eat healthy food, and I exercise a few times a week. I have clear skin, shiny hair and I sleep well.

I went shopping last night, and brought myself some new clothes that were all size 12's. I feel strong and confident and amazed at the person that I see in the mirror. Although sometimes when I glance in the mirror I forget that it's me, and I think that I see you! I think that I'm bigger than I am, and it's hard for me to remember that we are two very different people now.

We also are very different shoppers now, turns out that I can wear singlet tops, and things that are fitted. I can wear shorter skirts, and clothes that show off my new figure. I'm sorry it may be hard for you to hear that, as I know that you are used to covering yourself up, feeling ashamed of how you look, and embarrased at the person that you are.

I know that you struggled a lot with having to go out places, you could never find anything to wear and you used to cry in your wardrobe about how terrible you looked at felt. I would love to sit on the bottom of that wardrobe with you and give you a big cuddle and cry along with you. We both know how much it hurts, but regardless of the situation you did this to yourself, and you need to take responsibility for that.

I am proud that I've been able to step up and take control of my life. Even though I've had many a dark hour where I have felt overwhelmed, last night, standing in a dressing room, looking at myself in skinny leg jeans I realised that it is all worth it. I feel good, and I am proud of myself.

Yes, I know it's hard for you to hear this, as you never were... but I am proud of myself.

I have an amazing family, funnily enough, it's the same family that you have, and have had all along, but you never asked them for help. You never leaned on them like I am. It's ok to ask for help when you need it. It's ok to feel overwhelmed and out of control, but this is not your life forever. Your destiny is not set in stone. You can, as I have, change your life.

I really hope that this letter helps inspire you to work to get where I have. I also hope that it will inspire me to remember who I am, and how I feel now, and that as much as I love you, I never want to be you again.

All my love,

Daisy Chain (size 12)
xxx

[Mum of DC & Aimz]

oh babe you made me cry again! what a wonderful letter 2 read & see that its all finally clicked into place 4 u. I was so proud of u last night coming out in them skinny jeans and seeing you look in that mirror & it the light bulb went on in your head i saw it this is me in these jeans & i look like i used 2.it was such fun shopping last night & watching u slowly change your outlook as we went from shop 2 shop it was a buzz. i luv u munch & am exceptionally proud of u. It was just a shame aimz had already gone back as she would have enjoyed it as much as me. but these things happen in their own time & this was yours woo hoo skinny minny!

[Kohinoor]

Hi DC,

What can I say, but


I have a big smile on my face after reading that - mainly because it seems to me you are succeeding in all aspects. And there's a smile there for Mum too, the lovely lady who has been supporting you so well....

Onya Mum !!

There's one other thing too - when I read an uplifting post that makes so much sense, I tend to borrow them, to highlight them for others who might not find their way to your diary.

I haven't been as diligent as I was in the past with gems, but your post has re-enervated my desire to share super-good posts.... i.e. yours !!

Hugs,

Koh

PS Would you consider adding that post here? It needs a bump...
http://newyouforum.com/forum/showthread.php?t=5373

[Kirst]

aawww you made me cry! DC you are so amazing! I hope one day we get to meet in person as you are definiately someone I'd love to have in my life! Keep up the great work sweets!

Kirst xo

[daisychain]

Ohh mum, you are such a wonderful person and I love you SO SO much. You are so right, something clicked for me during that shopping trip and I actually saw the 'old me' in the mirror. I have no idea how it happened but it was such a huge step and I couldn't have done any of this without you. I love you so much.

Koh - thank you so much for your lovely words and for the fact that it was a super good post that you think may help others. So lovely of you! I have posted it on the thread you suggested and appreciate your beautiful words. xxx

Kirst - sorry for making you cry! It was such a cathartic experience to write that all down. I would really suggest it if you ever get into that headspace where you think it will help you 'shed' the old you and move on with the new one. I would LOVE to meet up, I fee like you're one of my friends already, and it's been so great to share this journey together. Whoever is in the other persons state next will have to organise it. Need a real live cuddle!!

[Kirst]

The cry was good...I needed it so don't be sorry Your post helped me in more ways that you can know! Glad you put it out there for others to read And yep...definitely need a real live cuddle! I've always wanted to go to Melbourne!

Edited to say...holy 70's lady! Did I miss that or do I just not remember? WOOOHOOOOO! Rock on little one! Congrats!

Kirst xo

[daisychain]

Thanks gorgeous. xxx

[sammie]

Wow DC so much awesomeness in one little gal xxx
I loved loved loved your self letter - I think I need to do something similiar as I keep letting the old me creep back. Its such a challenage and the way of dealing with through writing it down is so cool xxx

Hugs xxx

[Jazzi]

wow wow wow!!!!!!

[Mum of DC & Aimz]

told u your letters were incredible now others r saying the same thing i so think u should do something about publishing this stuff or similar one day u go girl! thanx koh its nice 2 b recognized sometimes!!!!

[Chrissie]

DC, you are so close! 23kgs down is an awesome achievement and I know you are going to get rid of those last pesky 12 kgs to be the size 12 you are working towards!!! And we are all here to support you and cheer you on!

You are SO CLOSE now!!
xxxx

[daisychain]

Day 143 (week 20 ) - Thursday 28th October

Good morning everyone,

Well I can't believe it - 5 months on the program. Wow, on one hand it feels like the time has flown and on another it feels like I've been on it forever!! lol

I'm feeling a bit flat stanley at the moment - I have a wisdom tooth that is deciding it wants to break free of it's comfy home in my gum and is trying to come out and say hello. Youwch! It hurts soooo soooo bad and my ear is blocked and my glands on that side are swolen too. *sympathy please*

On another delightful note, dinner at my in-laws last night was filled with yet more comments about me having a baby...ugh... hubbys nan found a baby blanket that was his mums and when I said it was lovely (just being nice!!) I got a 'well FILL IT THEN'... yep... nice huh?
I was so hurt and insulted I didn't know what to say. Then later on his mum told me that she'd just had the boys christening gown dry cleaned for me..?? Umm.. I don't have a baby?! Grrr.... so over it guys. I really am. Why the heck can't they be happy for me getting healthy and happy? Why am I only defined by the child that I produce. It's like it means absolutely NOTHING that I am a good person, that I look after them all, and my hubby, that I care about people and try to do the right thing by them. I am really really hurt. And what does hubby say "laugh it off babe - they don't mean anything by it"... god. *again - sympathy please*

Another thing is that my beautiful little niece Tori is going in for surgery as we speak. She has a twisted hurnea which is very dangerous for little bubbas and is having surgery on it now. So scary - she is only 3 months old. Poor little poppit, hate it, so worried about her...

Hmm... well that was a bit whingy wasn't it - lol - sorry guys! Hope you didn't read this wanting a perk up!! lol

On a positive note, I'm wearing a new yellow cotton 50's style short sleeved jacket today with a high waisted black skirt and heels. I feel like a million dollars and have had SO many comments on how good the yellow looks on me. It's nice to want to wear colour again rather than just black all the time!

Heading to the clinic tonight for my official weigh in, will be interesting to see what they say. My scales say that I'm 76.9, mum's say I'm 77 but another friend said that the clinics scales put 2kg on her weight from her ones at home - and the lady at the clinic actually said to her that the scales are normally out a bit as so many people weigh on them they don't get calibrated enough! Yikes!! lol
So we'll see what they say tonight about how much I weigh and how much longer I have to go. Starting to get fed up with this but doing my best to keep focused.

Now to my lovely friends who have visited me:

Sammie - thanks so much love, glad that you enjoyed reading it and I hope that it helps you too. I know how busy your world is at the moment so I appreciate you dropping in!! Have missed you on here but so glad that you're new job is making you happy. xxx

Jazzi - just wrote in your diary, but thanks love, we'll get there won't we?!

Mum - thank you, yes you do often say how good I write and that means the world to me as I don't see it, but it is so lovely to see that people are getting some inspiration from my words as I have from others. Thanks again for everything mumma bear. Love you. xxx

Chrissie - thank you so much for your encouragement. I'm feeling a bit better about everything now. I'm still finding my new goal range a challenge mentally as I was all set to get to 72kg and now I have to get to 62-65kg but I think I'll take your advice in Jazzi's diary and see what feels right for me and my body when I get down there.

Ok everyone, hope that you have a great day. Talk to you all again soon.

All my love,

DC
xxx

[louise41]

I know what its like with the baby comments! I used to hate that, but now I htink my mothers given up as she just gave me a heap of books on the menopause!!!!!! I wanted to say I havent go there yet mum - but thought best to just keep my lip buttoned as at least shes given up on the other!

That must have been lovely getting all those compliments about your outfit - its a great motivator to keep up the good work!

[Sunny]

Oh dearest DC!!! I go away for a few days and I miss a beautiful post like that. What a treasure you are and thank you so much for sharing you deepest feelings, insecurities, hopes and dreams.

You are doing so well on this program and just keep your chin up babe and try not to worry too much about the baby talk, I know it hurts but you just focus on you and what you are going through right now. Not only are you losing weight and getting healthy, you are also getting happier and stronger - all of which will help you deal with the in laws and their baby talk!

Keep up the good work babes xxx

[daisychain]

Thanks Lou - glad to see that it's not just me! lol ohh dear!! The things that we have to put up with hey!!

Sunny you're so gorgeous - thank you for your comment. So good to hear that my sharing makes a difference in your world. You're so right - I'm keeping focused and not taking any more crap!! hehe

[daisychain]

Day 144 (week 20) - Friday 29th October

Ok everyone, to those of you who have shared this amazing journey of ups and downs I have some amazingly brilliant news for you all...

I weighed in at the clinic last night and I'm now 76.9kg which is great - but that's not the amazing bit!

We had a big talk about the way that I'm looking and feeling and my 'new' Cohen's ranges, and they think that for me and my body the orginal range is the best one to use. I totally agree with that.

SO.... my new goal is 72kg.... and are you ready for this...??

THEY HAVE ORDERED MY REFEED!!!!!!



Ohhh my goodness!!!!

I am in shock! I cannot believe it, I was so disheartened thinking I had another 10kg to loose and now I only have 5kg!! I am SO excited I'm just over the moon!!

My program arrives in 2wks time (appt on the 11th Nov) and then I do my refeed and I'm done! I can't believe it. Honestly in shock!!

WOOO HOOOO!!!

xxx

[EdwardQ]

WOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Congrats DC

[daisychain]

Have just put some recent pics up too in my album.

[Brownie]

Hi daisy chain,

just read through your diary/threads, {am new still trying to figure out how this all works} and I feel exactly like you at the moment. I am on day 8 1/2 and yesterday was my worst day so far... was crankier than I have been evey other day and then had to make gingerbread men and lollie cake for a party at my 4 year olds kindy...it was so hard not to eat the mixture when making them...and then even harder today at the party watching all the kids and other parents eating them and all the other party food BUT came home had my lunch and felt better, and know that its going to be worth it, to not only look good, but be healthier for my kids, and also to be able to get dressed in the morning and having so many choices! Yay!

Good luck on your journey,

Brownie { was my favourite food, yum}

[Brownie]

Hi Daisy chain,

forgot to say that I had my first weigh in 2 days ago, they weigh weekly here in New Zealand and I had lost 3.1 kg!!! So that definitley gave em a boost as I am sure you will fing too when you have your weigh in, also couldn't help myself stepped on the scales this morn and had dropped another 1.5, yippee...very inspiring.

Brownie

mmmm..misread your diary and just realised that I missed quite a bit...told you I was new! Any way WOW you have done amazingly and congrats on reaching refeed! I hope I can do as well as you. great stuff.