Trips Diary

[Dedeemay]

Hey Trips,

what a tremendous effort in clearing out your wardrobe. I can totally understand your feelings about letting go of your large clothes, but you know...you are NEVER going to need them again.

You know they are going to be going to someone who desperately needs them however, and I am sure your old favourites will help those people tremendously.

I am so glad you and yours are safe, and my heart goes out to all those who have been affected by this tragedy.

Good luck with your new beginning, and I am sure you are gonna power through these last few kilos in no time flat...and we will be reading your refeed diary very soon!

Cheers

[km64]

Hey Trips - glad you are ok and also amazing to hear you let go of the old you and the clothes to go with it. I guess lots of us have protection issues going on with our weight. Hope you love the gym and have a ball there.

Cheers - Kay.

[Ren]

Hi Trips,

I have been reading through your previous posts, and your journey is so inspirational. I commend you for going through your clothes and culling your wardrobe - a promise to yourself that you will never need them again. I have lost quite a lot of weight in a short period of time, and have somehow managed to skip a size or two - I just kept wearing the same few outfits to work as always, until last week when I thought i might try something that I hadnt worn for a while. Several ppl told me that I needed a reality check and that the top I was wearing was far too big!! Probably the best compliment I have had for a while. Anyway, back to the point - I am going to try everything on this weekend and send down all my stuff that is too big and in good condition, and some of the things I have collected over the years that I will never wear. A great idea methinks - plus sized clothing is hard to come by on a good day, and I cant think of people who would need them more than those who have been affected by this terrible tragedy. So thank you for sharing and spurring me into gear - and dont stop posting! I am looking forward to your next entry.

Renxo

[Trips]

Wow alot has happened since my last update. I am VERY close to Refeed now, and it's only a matter of time before I start it. I have had some signs to say I should start, but I'm trying to hold off in some respects because I would love a 'little' buffer and I also need to get my head around this new phase I'm about to undertake.

It's been remarkably tough towards the end, much tougher than I imagined, and I have alot of self doubts about how I will go sustaining my weight loss. I'm very aware of the fact that losing the weight is only one part of the journey, keeping it off is another thing altogether.

The Clinic has been flat chat since ACA which is great, but challenging. I am VERY busy and finding it extra hard once I've left work as I'm feeling extremely hungry again. I know this is probably my body telling me to eat more, but the scales still say I have about 5 kgs to go.

One thing I'm thinking is that maybe the 'skin' I have left weighs that much and this may impact on where my true weight is at. I've now lost 80kgs in a year and would love to hear from others who have lost similar amounts and who might share their experiences on this.

I also have some health issues I need to get sorted, the result of years of being obese, and my curvature of the spine is much worse than I ever realised. Mainly because it was so well covered by my fat! I am unsure what the outcome of this will be, but I will probably need a brace to try and help correct some of the damage.

I have mixed feelings lately about myself and my weight loss, and while I'm extremely proud and grateful to the program on the one hand, I still have self doubts and reservations on the other. Maybe it's more about the fact the weight loss part of my journey is coming to an end, I'm not really sure. But I am still left realising that years of abuse of my body mean I will never look like the next person does at the same weight. I hope I'm not sounding ungrateful or unhappy because I'm not that at all, it's just that I now need to get to a place where I can say this is the 'new' me and I'm ok.

I seemed to sit better on this front while on the program and doing it, than I do now. Not sure why. Anyway I'm sure I'll get to the bottom of it eventually. I guess perception is interesting. I still dont 'see' myself as others do. I still can't conceive that I am a size 12 now, I still sit with trepedation in a movie theatre seat, and I still plonk down on the toilet seat like I used to only to discover I nearly fall in it now when I do!!

Life is a learning curve in this 'new' body. This much I know for sure!

Much love,
Trips xx

[Faithy]

Hey trips..

Wow.. only 5 left.. that's so exciting & awesome..

Al passes on his love & good luck..

I was starving about where you are now.. but it did settle down.. the 'extreme' hunger set in bout 2 kilos from goal..

As for your skin.. I suppose it depends on how much there is.. some have 5 kilos but some dot.. I dont think I had that much, maybe 2 or 3? I'd be asking my doctor what they think as they are usually the best judge..

I do feel the need to say though.. make sure when you do stop & do refeed that it is because your body is ready & not that you've just had enough.. refeed works at its best when we are truly ready..

I wish you the best & I'm so incredibly proud of you..

MAsSIVE HUGS!!