Snugglebear's Diary - Page 3

SOON TO BE · #41 27-08-2008, 21:00

Dont stress about the cake SB, you are better than that
Just imagine that the person who baked it had been scratching his b*m or something when they baked it.
Well done on ur sons achievements...must have smart parents !!

Oh doesnt the world fall in when something happens to our food!! mine got thrown out one night few weeks back when we were out...monor meltdown. I didnt end up eating at alll which isnt a good thing.
Goodluck 4 2moro.
happy days
tara x

AlmostHappy · #42 28-08-2008, 00:35

HI SBear

That Frickin Cake!!!!! Good on you for sticking to your guns.

I know how you feel about the food.... I packed lunch one night for the next lunch (as I always do). I did not seal the container tightly and when I got to work the next day I smelt something that smelt off. I was in a state of panic when I realized that it was my veggies that smelt like that. What to do, what to do. Deviate by not eating or deviate by buying something and not weighing it or............ Eat the smelly food.
Guess what I did - It felt like fear factor, but I knew if I got sick I could go home. Haha

Don't stress - the scales will be kind as you have done a fabulous job!

Take care
H

Snugglebear · #43 28-08-2008, 11:21

Greetings

I need you guys more than every now, I am so disappointed that I could just cry.

No, I didn't deviate!! I got on the scales this morning and was only down 1kg. Now I know that that isn't bad but I just wanted/expected more. I kept being told that I would lose 10kg in the first month, well 3 weeks in and it is only 6kg (which in itself is good), I can't imagine dropping 4kg this week. It is just the whole expectation not living up to reality thing. I spoke to my hubby and he said I was amazing losing what I have already lost but somehow I still feel like I have failed. I know it sounds stupid but it is how I feel.

Soon to be, girl you crack me up with the whole bum thing. I did something a little different though. I just bought a cake that I have absolutely no interest in eating. I went to the cheesecake shop and bought an apple-cinnamon cake. I absolutely hate cooked apples, problem solved.

I engaged in some retail therapy this morning to try and cheer myself up. I went and looked at all the pretty little undies and the size 10 &12 clothes and I felt a bit more resolved. I also did some shopping for Father's Day.

My son did his computer exam yesterday and brought his copy of the exam home so I could check it for him. Looks like another High Distinction is on the way, little legend he is, did I mention that he is 8!!!! We were told when he was 2 to look for a school with a gifted and talented programme. I don't really think that he is either but he has an amazing memory and is working way above Grade 4 level. He is in a class with Grades 4,5&6 so he can work his way up to Grade 6 while in Grade 4. He is with the grade 6ers for English and Maths and has been pretty much all year. The best bit about him is that he is sweet and sassy and funny and very nice looking (yes, I know, I may be a little biased).

I am having a little pity party at the moment (Pepsi-Max and crackers)but I am sure I will sort it out in my dopey brain really soon.

I hope someone has some wise words for me................

J

shell · #44 28-08-2008, 16:52

Hi SB,
How much weight do you have to loose ? (I can't see the numbers on your ticker!)

That is still 2kg per week, which is great !

People with bigger weight to loose, seem to loose it a bit faster at the start.
Have you checked your measurements, you might have lost cm's-which is what it is about!

If you stick to the plan 100% you can't not loose weight, it will come off when it is ready-nothing you can do to make it go faster. (as much as we all would have liked it to!)

Shell

Mette · #45 28-08-2008, 19:54

Hey chicky, chin up. In my third week I lost 500 grams. I was so disappointed I almost cried. It happens a lot though, it can have something to do with where you are in your monthly cycle, or maybe you are retaining water for some reason. A friend of mine, who just got her refeed program and who has lost 45 kilos, said the exact same thing happened to her in the third week, and the week after she lost 3 or 4 kilos.
Also, remember that the average loss in the first month is 7-10 kilos. No one can guarantee 10. I know exactly how frustrating it feels, but you are doing so well! And as Shell says: if you stick to the program, you can't not lose the weight. Stay strong, drink your water and be kind to yourself. Have your soft drink, get rest when you can, and give your son a big hug for doing so well on his exam!

Snugglebear · #46 29-08-2008, 16:13

Greetings all

I just typed this huge big diary entry and was told that I don't have access to enter anything. What ??????????? So I am trying again.

I am feeling muchly better today. Not so grumpy and down. Now I have accepted that I will not be at goal by Christmas all seems to be well again.

I must just add that I am being treated for major depression and am in the process of reducing my dosage. It doesn't take too much to push me over the edge at the moment. I am supposed to reduce it again from 1 Sept but somehow I just can't see that happening.

Thanks Shell and Mette for the moral support.

Shell, I have been 100% faithful to Cohens and intend to stay that way. Don't worry about me, I have another 30 to lose and I plan on doing it the Cohens way. I have tried to fix my stupid ticker but I just can't seem to change the colours so that they are easy to read. They look good when I change them but turn pale again????

Mette, it is so weird lost 1.5kg with TOM and 1kg the week after. I will hope for better news next week. I am so glad that you felt the same way as me (wanting to sob into a pillow) it makes me feel just a little less mental. BTW consider my son hugged.

My boss has gone, and no I didn't eat any cake. I made the excuse that I couldn't eat flour or sugar (true) but one of the guys I work with,who is a chef, said I should have told him and he would have baked a special cake so that I could have had some, so sweet! I still couldn't have eaten it but the thought was great.

Catchya all tomorrow

Jo

Mette · #47 29-08-2008, 16:18

Hey pretty lady, I'm glad you're feeling better! I was a bit worried about you. You won't be alone on your journey though, never forget that. I'll be around (I'm like a dandylion, almost impossible to get rid of

)

SOON TO BE · #48 29-08-2008, 17:23

Hi SB,
doesnt it sux when you are expecting big losses ...and they just dont happen. I only lost 600gm lsat week, did have a small D though, but was really dissappointed.

I think we just want this whole thing over with...but it will happen. Im sure if you hang in there you will have a great loss next week....water..water..water.
Great going on the cake though.
We are all here for you.
happy days
tara x

AlmostHappy · #49 31-08-2008, 17:07

Hi SBear

I hope you are feeling better. I felt so bad when I heard you got the blues about the weight loss.

Cohens is a great journey, but definitely not an easy one.

I also suffer from depression and take daily medication ( and will have to do so for the rest of my life) As soon as one finds the right drug at the right dose one can have a fairly normal life, until then..... I will think of you and know that I am here for you.

6kg is 6kgs and is not to be frowned upon. Every 100g is closer to the finish line.

All the best
H

Snugglebear · #50 01-09-2008, 10:56

Greetings all

I am feeling so much better this week. Last week sucked so bad it just wasn't funny.

Almost Happy - I am glad someone else understands that sometimes life just isn't easy and can't be fixed just like that. My doctor is hoping/trying to get me off the pills but there is a distinct possibility that I could end up on lifetimes as well. We are lowering the dosage slowly and hoping my body learns, it doesn't feel like it is, I feel like I am on the edge sometimes.

Mette - I love reading your messages and feel very loved

. I have so much to do before I go away that there is no time for wallowing in self pity.

Soon to be - You are a great support to me and I really appreciate it. I know it is going to be a long journey but I am soooo up for it.

I think my back fat is shrinking and my undies feel baggier. Weird to tell others that, but who better than you gals to share with. And the fact that I poo like a guinea pig

.

I have so much to do in the next 2 weeks, getting ready for going away that I won't have time to stress about my weight. I sat down this morning and made appointments, hairdresser, vet, doctor. I am still waiting for my Dad to ring me to see if he can fix my car or whether it has to go to a mechanic (my dad is a mechanic too).

I have my 4week blood test on Thursday so I made a Doctors appointment for the same day (they are next door to each other) for the dreaded smear test.

I will be trying to avoid seeing my other doctor (the one who is treating my crazy brain), I want him to see me slimmer and I just couldn't let him below the belt, it would be tooo weird. I have decided not to reduce my medication until after I get back from holidays. I don't want a meltdown while I am away and far from his wonderful assistance.

I will catch up with some diaries today, hopefully.

Catchya

Jo

Mette · #51 01-09-2008, 11:03

Hey pretty lady, them doctors sure are keeping you busy! I hate smear tests... I have to have one next month. Yuck! Am I the only one that feels like yelling 'welcome to the Muppet Show!' on that bench?

I think it's a good idea to wait with reducing your meds till you come back. You don't want anything to spoil your time away.

I hope you have a wonderful week chicky! I'll be checking in later on

AlmostHappy · #52 01-09-2008, 16:44

Hi SBear

Wow, it seems like you have loads to do before you leave.

I also tried to loose weight before I saw my brain doc, I wanted to show that I was taking control back. But as you said nothing is ever easy.

Good for you for not changing the meds during holidays. Waiting until you get back is the best idea.

Take care

H

SuzieQ · #53 01-09-2008, 20:19

Hey Snugglebear,

Just catching up on your diary, so sorry to hear what a rotten time you've been having. With a little luck your meds will be sorted out soon and all will be a lot better for you

.

You are doing so well with the weight loss, I know it sucks when the scales don't tell us what we want but as long as they are going down that is the most important thing. I have had some really slow weeks (600g) and a few good ones 2+kg losses, the most I've lost in a week is 2.6kg and compared to some others that isn't much but you know what.....I'll take it! Just got to try and keep it in perspective, all these little losses add up to a big one at the end of this.

Chin up okay.

Suzie

SOON TO BE · #54 01-09-2008, 21:24

Hi SB,
You will be fine while you are away, Im no expert but I would have thought it be a good idea to leave the medication changes till you get back to, different evrioment..trying to keep the food right etc..etc,

Everyone will be so proud of you when they see you..be proud of yourself.
Im with you losing that back fat is sooooo good, and I figuring if we eat enough green stuff, as we do..like a rabbit, we have to poo like one too!!

Might be time for some new undies soon, buy some nice new sexy ones, that will make you feel good about ur weight loss, even if nobody sees them you will feel good. Looking like we have pooed ourselves isnt a good look ar good for the self esteem !! HA HA

Hope your organisation for ur time away goes smoothly.
Have a fun day tomorrow
Happy days
Tara x
PS thanks for posting in my diary, you cheered me up and made me smile. x

Snugglebear · #55 02-09-2008, 16:56

Greetings

Ok listen up everyone I have something to say.

I think I had a double deviation the other day. It goes like this, I was cooking dinner for everybody else, fine, then I cooked mine, fine, then I looked at the clock, it hadn't been 5 hours (about 4 1/2) since lunch. Dilema - eat early and do the deviation thing or let it go cold (that half hour is a heat killer). I ate.

Then a little later I fall asleep on the couch (I had had a very big day), fine, my hubby wakes me up and tells me to go to bed, fine, I go upstairs, put on my jammies and brush my teeth, then I look at the clock, CRAP, it hasn't been 2 hours since dinner and I couldn't keep my little eyes open. Stuff it, I went to bed.

I go from being D-free to a double D in one night. Shame on me!!

I am having real trouble drinking my water at the moment and I can't figure out why. I guess I am running around like a mad woman and not sipping all day, poo. I am probably just squeezing in 2 - 2 1/2 litres a day.

I had my first day with the new boss today. I am withholding judgement for the time being, she seems ok or maybe she is just humouring me. Like I said, I am giving her 2 weeks before I make any decisions. I do love that job, and it is good for my brain.

Think skinny thoughts for me on Thursday and I will keep you posted. Maybe even some measurements.

Love you all madly

Jo

AlmostHappy · #56 02-09-2008, 17:37

Hi Jo

i am sorry that you are feeling bad about the deviations. I took a nap on Sunday afternoon 1 1/2 hour after lunch. I felt like a dog, but I just needed a bit of shut eye.

On Cohens they say that you are either on it or not (a bit like being pregnant - either you are or you are not). Or like my mother always said, like steeling - whether you steel a pencil or a Porsche - steeling is steeling.

I do however try and comfort myself with saying that we did not deviate by eating chocolate cake or eat a full buffet, we just mixed our times up.... It is comforting at times and feels like bulls%hit at other times.

Best we can do is just not to make a habit out of it. We must try and be stronger next time.

Good for you on not judging your new boss right away. I hope giving her the benefit of the doubt pays.

Take care
Happy losses for you.
H

Mette · #57 02-09-2008, 17:55

*skinny thoughts skinny thoughts skinny thoughts skinny thoughts* Is it working?

I really don't think that eating half an hour early once and falling asleep early will do much harm in the long run chicky. Don't beat yourself up about it, stressing will only decrease the weight loss. The water thing is important though. Maybe you should get one of those hydracoaches that AJ mentions a lot. They seem to be really clever. My pump bottle works for me though. 4 of them in a day and I've made my 3 litres.

Withholding judgement on the boss is smart. Take the time to get to know each other. And if you enjoy the job, giving that particular work relationship a chance is really important.

Goodness, I'm chatty today! Take care pretty lady, I'll check in and see how you're going over the next couple of days!

ropemaha · #58 02-09-2008, 19:19

hi sb,

ummm you have 30kgs to lose in 4 months??? i lost 36 in 5months and i had numerous deviations....including a 5 week holiday where i only lost 1.5kgs....me thinks you can do that....

its funny y'know, i was like you, focussed on how much each week etc and i would also feel disappointed if the numbers werent great...but then outta the blue you get a 2kg week followed by a 500grm week...or whatever...

shell's right, it comes off if you dont come off...simple...

dont sweat the small stuff mate, just move on and keep going, yr doin great

pen

SuzieQ · #59 02-09-2008, 20:40

Hi Snugglebear,

I wouldn't worry too much about your little baby D's. I thought I did the same thing with eating too early at lunch today. I always write the meal times down so I can keep track but was accidentally looking at the wrong day and thought I'd eaten an hour early - panic stations.....then I realised what I'd done. Not a good feeling is it?? But really, it's not like you ate reeeealllllly early is it, just a little bit and it was a once off so won't hurt too much surely.

Good luck for Thursday! Not that you need it

.

Suzie

Snugglebear · #60 03-09-2008, 09:20

I don't have anything much to write today (too much to do), sorry.

I just wanted to thank my faithful and loyal (and super-sweet) readers who give me much appreciated support and advice.

SuzieQ - I know that in the grand plan they were just little D's but I have lost my 100% thingy and that sux. Unless I just pretend it didn't happen

. In fact it has probably happened before and I just haven't noticed. I do take note (not written down) of the times, it was just that I was cooking and just kept on cooking. Little brain failure.

ropemaha - You are just the coolest, you know how to say the right things and make me grin. I know that you are right there with me, encouraging me. Hopefully I will be as good as you were and will be wearing a cute litle dress for Christmas.

am

Mette - You make me smile girl. I do have a pink 1 ltr bottle that seems to come with me wherever I go. And usually I am sucking on it all day, but the last few days it just doesn't seem to happen. I have drunk a litre already today, its 9.15am so all should be sweet today. I am weighing tomorrow and am feeling much more confident this week, I am thinking seriously about doing some measuring too

.

Almost Happy (soon to be called Incredibly Happy) - Legend! I am definitely a happy little Cohenite (not preggie, not a thief) but I think I just had a busy day and needed to sleep. I think we have probably all done it at some point, if we are truly honest. Besides I am a sleepyhead at the best of times. I must make a point not to lie down on the comfy lounge until 1 1/2 hours after dinner.

Think thin thoughts for me for tomorrow

Love you all

Jo