Jem_HA's Diary - For the Second and Final Time

[Andie27]

Hey JemHa - I have been following your posts, and you seem to be really hard on yourself. You're only human, trying to pinpoint your reasons for deviating can become obsessive and in the end have a negative impact on your motivation. Maybe try accepting yourself as you are right now - go and have a look at yourself in the mirror, stare into your own eyes and say to yourself 'I love you JemHa'. It will feel really weird at first, but self-love is the key to your success, deviation is a punishment - stop punishing yourself darl. We all stuff up from time to time, but the important thing is that we acknowledge it, own it, learn from it and we push on. Try focusing on your blessings for one whole day and see if you notice any difference in your outlook and self-esteem. I'm with you all the way and one of the most difficult things to do is to be kind to yourself - but it is achievable, afterall you're back on your program right? You can do this! Andie

[Jem_HA]

Thanks, Andie. You're very kind and offer some sage advice. I've been following your journey also - I love your writing!

[Andie27]

I hope you feel better soon JemHa about the bumps in the road on your weight loss success, we all have them, please remember - you're not alone OK, we are in this together. Sending you hugs and best wishes.
Andie

[trishieness]

Hi JemHa! I agree with Andie. Don't beat yourself up. It will just make you feel more demotivated. Just think of your deviation as a treat prior to your actual journey. And leave the past behind. Just keep going for a week or two and you'll realized how far you've been.

Hope this helps you. I've been a naughty girl too, I deviated a lot on my first month. We can no longer undone it but we can move forward.

Just a suggestion, you may want to prepare your meals for 1 week so during the time that you're not feeling well, you still have something to eat without getting too exhausted. You may need to take vitamins to keep your immune system strong. Praise yourself each meal you did not deviate, just take one meal at a time, take it slow, enjoy and you'll get there in no time.

[Jem_HA]

Back to weighing in...and back to not mentally beating myself down (in time)

Check-in for Week 13...11/04/2015
Weight: 103.6kg
Bust: 108cm
Waist: 88cm
Paunch (Lower Abdomen): 113cm
Hips: 123cm
Thighs: 64.5cm
Arms: 33cm

[Andie27]

Good for you JemHa - hang in there. Small steps ok - one day at a time lovely

[Tes]

Keep coming back - dont give up ever - eventually you will just get fed up and commit - but as long as you keep coming back your desire to change remains.

Good luck

[cumulus.inc]

Hi JemHa,

I've been reading through your diary, keep up the good work! it's hard and not always a straight line, as long as you keep walking forward you'll get there

I look forward to your next update

[trishieness]

Hi JemHa, How are you doing so far? We missed you. I hope everything is okay with you. And that your health gets better and won't affect your plan.

[Jem_HA]

If it wasn't clear to me before, it is now...our minds are the key to physical transformation.

After something 'clicking' for me back in January of this year and drawing me to Cohen's once more, I lost sight of my goals and myself after only 8 weeks. I repeatedly 'crashed the bus' since the end of February until just last weekend - beating myself up emotionally and spiraling all the while.

I've had my 'click' moment once again and I'm honouring that but drawing a line in the sand on my prior progress and starting my stats fresh.

Check-in for Week 1...25/04/2015
Weight: 105.2kg
Bust: 110cm
Waist: 89cm
Paunch (Lower Abdomen): 114cm
Hips: 125cm
Thighs: 64cm
Arms: 34.5cm

Weight: 102.3kg (2.9kg loss)
Bust: 107cm
Waist: 88cm
Paunch (Lower Abdomen): 115cm
Hips: 123.5cm
Thighs: 63.5cm
Arms: 33cm
**2.9kg weight loss and 6.5cm loss over entire body since 24/04/15**

[Andie27]

Yay! You're back. Missed you Jem. Don't you just love it when the penny finally drops! A great read. Well done.
Hugs
Andie

[trishieness]

Welcome back to this journey JemHa! You're gonna make it dear! 2.9kgs loss is awesome! We're happy to have you here and looking forward for more updates from you!!

[AZ1908]

Welcome back! Be kind to yourself!

[Jem_HA]

Check-in for Week 3...9/05/2015
Weight: 102.3kg (0.3 kg gain)
Bust: 107cm
Waist: 87cm
Paunch (Lower Abdomen): 114cm
Hips: 122.5cm
Thighs: 63.5cm
Arms: 33cm
**2.6kg weight loss and 9.5cm loss over entire body since 24/04/2015**

Still pleased with my results. Some tweaks to make to start achieving my goals!

[Andie27]

Hi Jem. Hang in there darling. Hugs Andie

[Tes]

You know what they say Jem - the wheels on the bus go round and round - I aint never heard of them stopping. looks like you are back on this bus now - keep going - looking forward to your updates.

[Jem_HA]

Check-in for Week 4...16/05/2015
Weight: 103.6kg (1.3 kg gain)
Bust: 107cm
Waist: 88cm
Paunch (Lower Abdomen): 113cm
Hips: 122.5cm
Thighs: 64.5cm
Arms: 33.5cm

Not a great week this week - a bit of backwards movement in both weight and scales. I attribute this to being sick all week and not having the appetite to eat enough and at the right time. Week 5 = a better week

[Andie27]

I hope you feel better soon Jem. It's not easy to remain on plan when you are sick. Don't be too hard on yourself ok. We still loves ya! No matter how many times you have to stop and start, up and down - I will be here on the sidelines cheering you on darling. Hugs Andie

[trishieness]

Hi Jem. I hope you are feeling well now. We miss you here in Cohen! xoxo

[WhereAmI?]

Hi Jem- I'm reading your diary and feel your pain, I'm starting out again, I'm on week 1 and reading through this reminds me of my thoughts and feelings. Its such a mental battle with ourselves but I hope you are ok and make sure you keep going, you have people here who cant wait to see you succeed!