Where Am I?

[KathyG70]

Your housemate sounds like he has some mental health issues that he will have to deal with ... just think of all the lessons you learnt .... and how wonderful it will be to have your own place!!
A big WOOHOO!! to you for getting out!

[WhereAmI?]

2 more sleeps! I'm wired, not sleeping and just want this to hurry up and be over!!!!!!!!!!! I guess it will be in no time though! WOW, can't wait for Friday night, sitting in my new home and celebrating my new freedom!!!!!
Sooooo I can't really eat right now, it's like I'm running on adrenalin, so annoying, I went to the doctors and got something to help me relax because I need a good nights sleep tonight so I can get stuck in tomorrow and be up super early Friday to start things rolling...................... UUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, moving, it's not fun but it's totally worth it

[Butterflywings]

Read your story. There are only good things waiting for you in a few days. Hang in there, enjoy the positive change and experiences that await you.

To lose the cm's you have under such duress is so admirable. Imagine how you're going to thrive (and lose) in a more tranquil environment.

Wishing you luck for the move !!

[WhereAmI?]

OMG the sleep I want to do!!!! Bought my groceries and I'm ready to rock and roll, couldn't follow the plan today, couldn't eat!!! I've been sleeping 12 hours!!! Need to get up and move!!! I did expect this might happen since I had been so wired, I am finding the place is tiny but we will make it work, met the neighbours, they are lovely, the dogs seem to love the yard, BONUS!!!! So now it's time for me to get back on plan!!!
So he's messaged and called crying and saying he misses us, I don't miss him, not a bit, this was the first weekend I didn't have cranky pants annoying me,banging around, yelling, blaming me for everything..... It was great!!! My boy seems sad though which worries me, I'm just going to have to step up and walk them more and are sure they know they are loved.......

[Andie27]

Oh poor you. Rest up darl. It's sad your boys are feeling it but they will bounce back. I agree that walking them more and lots of affection is the way to go. At least you're not going to be stressed out anymore.
Am so happy you are safe and sound.
Hugs Andie 😉

[KathyG70]

Wow - sounds like you needed a big rest to get over the last few weeks/months of rubbish that you have been put through!!
A look at you on moving out ... like a different woman - I'm so happy you have gotten away!! Now you just need to stay away from him!
Enjoy the peace and quiet - coming and going as you please ..... and this is why I stay single

Glad to see the new home and neighbors are great as well! Here starts the next chapter of your fabulous life!

Kathy

[WhereAmI?]

Hello everyone! Well it's my first day at work since the move, I'm feeling off with a sore throat and headache dammit! I need the money though so I have to be at work!! I still feel wired so I have bought the Bach Remedy spray, spraying like its water hahaha!! He rang last night saying he misses us terribly and could he see us? I replied 'I know it's hard, it upsets me that my boy is depressed but I'll never forget the ties I had my kids on my bed in a locked room hiding away from your abuse and trying to calm them down'.... I hung up, I think I handled that well!! So far I don't miss anything, I just need to make sure my babies cheer up!
Day 2 on plan, apart from feeling sick but I'm going to make myself eat everything today and I'm going to be kind to myself and relax....
Hope everyone else is doing great, I'll catch up on everyone's diaries, it's been awhile XO

[WhereAmI?]

OK I'll admit it, I've been too scared to weigh or measure myself since the last 2 weeks have been really bad!! BUT I finally had 2 people notice I have lost some weight!! AND that I look happy, well, I was hoping that would be the case since I have moved away from the main stress in my life!!!!
I've been following my plan though OMG I LOVE eating the food on the plan, it tastes so much better than the pizza and take away I ate when I had no fridge or food for awhile!! It's funny how simple food can taste so good!!

[KathyG70]

That's awesome!!!
And I'm so happy to hear that you are happy too!!! Good work!

[Andie27]

Wow, WhereAmI - you're screen name needs to change to something else now. Cos girl, you have made some AMAZING changes. I sincerely hope that you are proud of yourself cos I'm in awe. You're a fantastic role model for other women that are still in toxic relationships. You got yourself out of there, moved yourself and your fur babies, found the perfect place and you're LOSING WEIGHT as well! Superb effort. A stunning example of self loved and self determination.
Lovin it darl, just freakin lovin it!
Hugs Andie 😊
(you're biggest fan)

[WhereAmI?]

Thanks Andie and Kathy, I had a tough weekend- for starters I still have no internet which made it hard for me to come here and read everyone's diaries which helps me, I am hoping I have it fixed by the end of the week until then at least I can come into work and catch up!!
I went to the docs Friday after spending the week feeling wired, anxiety is insane at the moment, don't know why? It's very frustrating!! I got tablets to calm me down, well, they knocked me out for most of Saturday haha so I am only taking a quarter when required..... that was today after locking myself out of the house so I couldn't get in, wanted to get to work because I wanted to help with EBA work etc etc....... ended up 2 and a half hours later getting here but not before wanting to just call it quits, crawl into bed and give up for the day!!!
It's so annoying that I'm getting worked up so badly over little things right now and I am speaking with someone who has told me to stop being so hard on myself....... thats so hard!!! I thought that after a week of being free everything would be perfect, I'd be happy and I'd be back on track, instead I felt anxious all weekend, ate and drank and had terrible anxiety............ I did walk my fur babies though and they seem to be settling in which is a positive and I have been getting things done around the house which apparently is a good sign I'm not as bad as I think I am........ lol, stupid brain overthinking EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you are all going well, I'm going to try to catch up when I'm at work!!

[WhereAmI?]

OK, positives from here on because that's all it should be right now!! I'm feeling better today and look forward to my work today and then going home to my fur babies, hopefully it isn't raining still and we can go for a walk!! It's going to be a great day though

[Andie27]

Nice one darl. Love your attitude!
Hugs Andie 😉

[Tes]

Hey WAI

Ive been away a month and look at you. You have rid yourself of an abusive partner, moved to your own home, stood your ground and not allowed him to see or hurt you and you are taking positive steps to move on with your life - not giving in to exhaustion and stress to skip work and taking the lead in getting yourself healthy.

Well I am bowing to you - strength and continued growth I wish for you.

well done.

[WhereAmI?]

Thanks Tes & Andie, I haven't been keeping up with everyone's diaries and can't wait to see what you have been up to- apparently my internet will finally be fixed tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! OMG I'm going to have Netflix back!!!!!!!!! Any wonder I've been anxious, it's hard living without internet you know!! I have to watch tv and can't binge watch tv series and tv series- I'm 2 episodes behind on season 2 of The Following (FAVORITE TV SHOW!!! Kevin Bacon=divine!!!).
I expect the sympathy to roll in for me now
On another note lets see, 3 good things to take from yesterday;
- Reached agreement with a work negotiation, loved the whole process and can't wait to put together the legal clauses (It keeps my brain occupied, I actually really love industrial relations law, I'm weird though!)
- Presented to my leadership team and showed them how far ahead of schedule my area is, I'm really proud of what we have achieved.
- MY BABIES make me laugh!!!!!!! I seriously was sick of trying to lie in bed reading last night because I had all 3 cats and 2 dogs smothering me, of course I get my pillow and set myself up on the couch............... within 10 minutes I had 2 cats and 1 dog there!!!!!!!!! AAARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH, but so funny and let's face it, it's so nice to feel loved and my little girl dog in particular is such a funny bunny, she has to have at least a paw touching me at all times at bed time or she comes looking for me! Even thinking about it now makes me smile and feel blessed I have such gorgeous characters living with me!!
OK, hopefully internet is back tomorrow and I will have 3 more good things BYE!!

[KathyG70]

Good to see you in such a good place!! Our fur babies are wonderful for keeping us happy and grounded! Couldn't do without mine!

You have made such amazing progress this month! What a woman!

Onwards and upwards from now on!

[Andie27]

Hi WhereAmI.
I love my fur baby. He makes my day every day and I have no idea where I would be without him.
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His name is Sidney and he is my world. Much to the indignation of my hubby and children!
Hugs Andie xoxo

[diana31]

Wow what a journey..........

Remember to put yourself first when you can and if that means everyone visits your page and supports you for a while without you being able to reciprocate then that is just the way it is at times - don't stress we are all with you and want nothing from you. I also have a fur baby... Archie is a bichon and I adore him!!!!!!

You are amazing and you have made the right decision ( speaking from experience...)
Look forward to visiting when I can

Diana xx

[WhereAmI?]

Well I gorged, I ate pizza, Thai, a kebab and drank all weekend............ no idea why?!?! I achieved quite a bit, gardened, walked my babies and tidied my place up a bit more, I love my little place BUT, no internet, its going to cost a few hundred dollars so I'm forgoing that in place of a vacuum cleaner, its dreamy, I love it! Much better decision hahaha! Totally broke, but I do have 3 good things;
1. My little kitty Red was desexed and health checked and he has come out of it happy and smoochy, he's doesn't hate me
2. I live in a gorgeous area that is wonderful for walking my babies, they love it!!
3. I'm feeling good today, I have energy and determination, I'm ready to get back the control I keep losing, I want to lose this weight, I need to lose this weight!!!

I'm sorry I haven't seen much of people and their diaries right now, it's annoying not having internet, god know I'm struggling without Netflix!!!!!!!!! BUT, I have a place and I'm doing this, I'm so glad I left!! He knows where I live now though and turned up last night a mess, crying talking about suicide, it's not fair, I struggle with that and he knows it, I let him cuddle with my babies for awhile and thankfully he had to go to work but I'm upset, he's invaded my personal space and I don't want him turning up whenever he feels like it.
OMG Andie your baby is such a cutie!! They are such a blessing!! Although I wasn't thrilled yesterday when my kitty was being supervised for his first time outside and within the hour got himself stuck on the roof!!! It wasn't easy getting him down! Needless to say he is staying inside while I am not there to supervise.......

[trishieness]

Cute furries!!! adorable kitten you have there whereami.

You definitely can do it dear!!! xoxo i'm cheering for you!