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[rettstar]

Today was pretty good.

We harvested some blueberries, my hubby will be happy there's enough for him to have blueberries in his yoghurt tomorrow morning.

I did poached eggs today - no eggs blowing up this time but I think my microwave is old. I don't think we cooked them long enough - so experiments next week.

Lunch was simple, chicken with a crispy salad and dinner was turkey. However I did something different this time. I created zucchini spaghetti! It was great mixed with mushroom, diced zucchini and crisp bread.

I'm wondering how to make crispy noodles with vegies, so I'll contemplate that for next week.

3 days till weigh in!

[rettstar]

food ...

it plays a huge role in our lives.

We eat it when we celebrate birthdays, special events, Christmas. We eat when we are sad - wakes, comfort break up food! Today I had some really bad news. I got really hungry afterwards and went down and got a coffee instead. Progress.

Food - normal brekky and lunch (tuna) and dinner - made a better cauliflower mash with prawns, spinach and some crackers.

Still on track. I love myself more than I want that nasty food.

[Kaz28]

Go Rettstar

Good on you!!!
I used to be the same and just reach for food for any reason. Don't you feel pleased with yourself when you don't resort to old habits? I am now thinking before I put food in my mouth rather than rushing to get something in there. Even now when making a coffee I automatically go to grab the milk out of the ****. It's just thinking about what you are doing rather than mindlessly shoving food in your gob!!

Have a great week.

[rettstar]

Originally Posted by Kaz28

Go Rettstar

Good on you!!!
...
It's just thinking about what you are doing rather than mindlessly shoving food in your gob!!

Have a great week.

Thanks Kaz,

I appreciate the encouragement.

I have a lot of personal problems at the moment, I'm working hard to keep from focusing on them and therefore keeping my eye on the prize.

The mindless shoving of food certainly rings true for me too. When we start conquering the behaviours that lead us to weight gain, this is where we know we can keep the weight off.

Food today
Yoghurt and apple (big surprise)
Tuna! with turmeric and finely diced tomato and some spinach
prawns (I think I am going through a phase) with zucchini spaghetti, brown mushrooms, cucumber, tomato and spinach salad

I am pretty happy I am able to enjoy my salads.

Weighing day tomorrow!

[allie_82]

Hi Rettstar

I am so enjoying reading your diary and following you along your Cohen's journey... you are doing so well

Looking forward to hearing how your weigh in went to day!!

allie

[rettstar]

Hey friendly internet people.

I'm kicking few goals. I have lost 12.7kgs in 4 weeks + 2 days.

For anyone working in pounds, 27.9

I'm not getting another weigh in until next month, December 2.

I'm stoked, I still need to work on getting my water drinking properly regulated, but overall, my consultant is very happy.

Food today - usual yoghurt and apple, I'm going to buy pink ladies next time, I really enjoy the taste, I've been eating Fuji apples, but they just don't have the zing I want.
Tuna again, but with more spinach, cucumber and tomato.
Turkey - bit salty, I can't remember what I seasoned it with. My salad as usual and I'm munching on portabello mushrooms too.

[Kaz28]

Hey Rettstar - that is awesome!!

Great for our motivation to see such great results isn't it? It is so worth it and so are we!!

Keep up the great work

[Tannalee]

WOW 12kgs in 4 weeks. That is a huge amount of weight. I am so looking forward to my first weight in but 1 day at a time.

How do you stop yourself eating the junk food? I tend to snack on rubbish after I have cooked my son his food and cannot be bothered to carry on cooking.

[rettstar]

Originally Posted by Tannalee

WOW 12kgs in 4 weeks. That is a huge amount of weight. I am so looking forward to my first weight in but 1 day at a time.

How do you stop yourself eating the junk food? I tend to snack on rubbish after I have cooked my son his food and cannot be bothered to carry on cooking.

I had a long spiel, I've cut it down to this:

I don't eat junk food (long long story), but I do go to the gym and not losing weight meant I was doing something wrong. Turns out I'm eating the wrong food. I will not deviate, because if I want any chance of a normal life. Even having a better chance of getting pregnant and at my age, each day my chances get lower and lower. If I end up not being lucky and having kids, at least I will have great health and a much more active life.

[rettstar]

Ugh today was a disaster.

I don't know how I can do this work thing right now. I am totally disengaged. It's hard being a team leader at the moment. I'm keeping my staff motivated and interested in their jobs but in the mean time, I am seriously just wanting to flip "the powers that be" the bird and just get out.

So a very talented staff member was turned down for a position. Now I have enough experience to know that my staff member will probably end up gone and out of the company in the next 6 months. He was pipped at the post by someone younger with no qualifications but who talked more BS. I sat him down and chatted today, asked him to make sure he trains people as much as he can on some vital systems. He confirmed he's planning on looking elsewhere after the new year. *sigh* Not going to lie to him and make promises - but he's missed out on a progression step where it's vital for him to gain that experience to move into programming.

In two months, I'm going to give 4 weeks notice. My work did something similar to me last year. I applied for a promotion, got declined because HR didn't understand my job role (they turned down 3 other managers in my dept. for the same reason). We then did what they wanted us to do by demonstrating we could meet the KPIs for our customer service department (which was easy) for 2 months and then - nothing. No interviews as promised to us, then it got pushed back, now the offer has dried up.

2 out of the 4 managers in my Dept. have checked out already. Ill be number three. Unlike the other two, I do have knowledge of the business that is unique to me and I need to teach people what I know so I've started teaching without telling them why.

===
phew.

that's off my chest

BREAKY! yoghurt and apple, but I've noticed peaches are in season so I might try peach and yoghurt some time next week.
Lunch: Tuna, with salad and turmeric.
Dinner: I think I've outdone myself - PRAWNS!! with mushroom and peaches (cooked together) and a green leafy spinach salad. I used my fruit allowance IN my meal. So good.

[Tannalee]

Sorry your day was so terrible. Work stress is the worst! There is a saying - Never push a loyal person to the point where they no longer give a damn! I left my corporate job about 3 years ago. I just handed in my resignation and walked out. I was scared BUT dammit I could not take it anymore. To this day I have never regretted it. Truthfully I dont make as much money but I know my son is benefitting more from me being around and I am happier!! Change is always scary!

Your prawn with mushroom and peaches sounds lush...I am going to try it this weekend. Now just to hunt down some prawns.

Have an awesome day and I hope work gets better!

[rettstar]

Update for food for the last 2 days.

I had snapper for dinner last night - was delicious with salad.
Lunch was a greek salad with feta (no onion or olives though)
breaky was the usual apple and yoghurt.

Today

Breaky - apple and yoghurt
Lunch - fresh tuna with a thin coating of turmeric - pan fried and salad.
tonight will be turkey, with a peach sauce, zucchini and mushroom.

[Tes]

Hi Rettstar

You are doing such an awesome job - a huge congrats on your losses so far - I just caught up with all of your news. Work sounds like a nightmare and I promise I know what its like to be demotivated professionally and if you can just continue to say - stuff it let me rather focus on me during this time and just give what I can to work - then you are really going to come out of this the winner. I often have to remind myself that no one is going to look out for me - except me. So keep up the brilliant losses you can do it!!!

[rettstar]

Hello World!

Breakfast was poached egg, I don't think my microwave likes poaching eggs, another explosion his morning.

Lunch - first time ever used ricotta. Made Ricotta and spinach stuffed mushrooms - delicious.

Dinner, usual tuna steak with salad.

Really busy day with hubby, I'm cleaning out the back room - we're going to convert a small room behind the lounge and turn it into a study for the two of us. I'm starting Uni next year.

Then we're turning the second bedroom, into a second bedroom. If I am lucky and can have at least 1 child in the next 18 months that would be awesome. Otherwise, I guess I'll need to have a fulfilling life and bring others joy.

[rettstar]

Originally Posted by Tes

Hi Rettstar

You are doing such an awesome job - a huge congrats on your losses so far - I just caught up with all of your news. Work sounds like a nightmare and I promise I know what its like to be demotivated professionally and if you can just continue to say - stuff it let me rather focus on me during this time and just give what I can to work - then you are really going to come out of this the winner. I often have to remind myself that no one is going to look out for me - except me. So keep up the brilliant losses you can do it!!!

Thanks Tes, really appreciate the encouragement.

I need it

[rettstar]

Food for the last 2 days.

Apple and Yoghurt for breakfast for the last 2 days
Tuna and salad for the last 2 days...
Dinner - last night - turkey, zucchini (steamed and cut into spaghetti type strips) and mushroom
Dinner - tonight - red snapper, salad - crunchy kind.

I have a thumping great headache again today.

I think it's lack of sleep and stress.

[rettstar]

Hi friend.

I'm feeling tired. I am much more comfortable with my eating plan and social life is being worked around. I had to turn down a friend's birthday celebration - changed from a BBQ to a pub crawl. She's turning 40 and I guess, celebrating her freedom. She's been doing a lot of pub crawls recently so I've bailed on her party.

I have said yes to a hen's night which appears to be held at a bar. *sigh* I'm taking food with me.

I have said yes to go to a high tea - I'm just going to drink the tea and take photo's of the food. I have no idea why I am torturing myself, but I do want to socialise with my friends and I love food photography.

Food - apple and yoghurt
greek salad with feta
Tuna steak - we used a fresh steak, but hubby wanted to experiment with a George foreman grill. So he overcooked it.

[rettstar]

So tired today.

I stopped taking iron tablets last week due to some issues with going to the loo. I don't think that they really did contribute to my problem but I need to start them again.

I'm thinking about telling my employer that I plan on exiting the company in Feb 2016.

I'm going to start handing over my work to others.

Food for yesterday and today
apple and yoghurt * 2
tuna and salad * 2

Tuna steak last night - was much better last night.
Tonight was turkey and cauliflower mash with mushroom.

[Fuzzy]

Hey rettstar.

12.7kg in 4 weeks is awesomeness!!! Well done, especially with drama in your life.

You eat a lot of fish, that's cool.
Always scared it won't keep me full.

A

[Winterboots]

Fantastic loss Rettstar - your ability to stick 100% Cohens through challenging times is reflecting in those downwards numbers

Your work sounds horrible but congratulations for gaining a place in uni next year - do you plan to work as well study?

Keep up the great work
WB