Vees Diary - Page 42

thenewvee · #**821** 07-10-2008, 07:20

Last night I slept well again. I think using a meditation CD to fall asleep to is what helped me have a good sleep. I was awake very early again, but at least I felt refreshed this morning, and no more headache!
So I hopped on the scales just before my shower, and it was

It showed a 500g drop. Interesting, it does still feel good to see the scale number come down. That puts me back to what I was around the 29/9/08 more than a week ago! In this game, persistence certainly pays off!

Thanks Katrina, hugs much appreciated!! Hugz back to you who are doing a fantastic job yourself!

Off to work again today and to see what the day brings!

Have a good one, everyone!

Vee

TwoZeds · #**822** 07-10-2008, 11:12

Vee - how often are you weighing yourself? I was thinking I was crazy doing it every day...but most diaries I visit has everyone 'sneaking' peeks left, right and centre!!

katiefrank70 · #**823** 07-10-2008, 12:48

Hi Vee

Thanks for the lovely compliment on the new avatar.

Glad to read you had a good drop today and the headache has lifted. Now it seems you are on your way again, those kgs will fall away and so too that kg holding stress. It's a nasty cycle, but you found your way out. Good on you

go vee

Happy losing

Katie

Ps Im 2 subjects from completing my EEN, and then I will start my RN next year. Great feeling to be so close. And you only have 1 to go....Im jealous

thenewvee · #**824** 07-10-2008, 14:10

Chailee, I used to weigh only once a week, but things happened and since then I like to keep an eye on what my weight does and get a better idea of what is going on with me, like water retention, if a particular food is not agreeing with me, etc. I know I can't have drops every day, and I understand and accept that and I just go with the flow of it. I would miss out on vital info if I only weighed once a month, and even if I only weighed once a week, so it's become a habit that I'm happy to keep and I'm happy to take the consequences for.

Everyone has to do what is right for them!

Yes, Katie, it is good to see that things are moving again. It was interesting to note the progression of the last 2 weeks. All more info to work with.
Oh, aren't you close to finishing your EEN, how exciting! How long will the RN take you? I'm so pleased I'm just about done with my bachelor of IT, it has taken me 5 years if I count the year of tafe prep first! All very worthwhile!!

Here's to getting all those assignments and study done!!

Vee

SOON TO BE · #**825** 07-10-2008, 14:29

Glad to hear the scales were down this morn and the headache gone.
A good sleep makes everything seem so much better, doesnt it.
The scales will move, you know that !!
Congratulations on nearly being finished your IT degree, thought you sounded like a computer wizz !! 5 years is a long time.....time to reap the rewards now.
Thankyou for your continued support, trying to figue getting the CD info onto my ipod ......yes my ipod but nu 2 son hasnt got one so he uses mine, Ill have to make way for it in between all his bip bop music.......better than heavy metal I guess!!
Thanks again
tara x

Mette · #**826** 07-10-2008, 15:34

Hey pretty lady, I'm glad things are starting to move again for you! I find that good sleeps make all the difference. I've slept well for two weeks and have been rewarded with really good drops. I'm expecting it to slow down a bit and for the centimetres to catch up though.
Stay strong and keep smiling!

louise41 · #**827** 07-10-2008, 23:50

Vee I hope you are rewarded in the same manner that mette was with a big loss!

Francesca · #**828** 07-10-2008, 23:55

Hi Vee

I'm so so happy for you! Well done on the 500g loss

It must feel wonderful to see some movement on the scales again. Looks like good rest (and some quality meditation before bed) really does make a difference!

thenewvee · #**829** 08-10-2008, 07:55

Seems like meditation before bed every night works pretty well. Although this morning when I woke up I still felt tired. The scales showed numbers on the way down again with a 300g drop, so have to be happy that things are moving along again.

Thanks for dropping by and for your continued support STB (nice to see you back), Mette, Louise and Francesca. Hope you guys are all travelling well, I'll catch up with your diaries later in the week hopefully!

Have a good one, everyone!

Vee

thenewvee · #**830** 08-10-2008, 07:57

Mette, girl, you are difinitely winning the race!!

Mette · #**831** 08-10-2008, 08:00

I'm glad things are moving for you again, Vee. Seems like it's a week for not sleeping well, though. I've been having trouble falling asleep the last few days too. Oh well, it'll get better, I'm sure. Have a great day!

thenewvee · #**832** 08-10-2008, 13:53

I'm struggling today. All I want to do is eat. I know it is because of anxiousness due to assignment I'm having trouble doing. The silly thing is that the anxiousness seems to be affecting everything, even my work, which is definitely not good.

While it helps to know what is causing the very strong feeling of wanting to eat, it is not reducing the feeling in any way, and today it is a big battle to stay on top of it and not give in! Other feelings are surfacing as well, you know, those beat yourself up ones, ie, I'm weak, I'm silly, I'm not good enough, etc. I've challenged these, as I know they are not true, but it hasn't seemed to diminish the feelings at all. Mmmm this assignment must be really stressing me out... which is not good at all. But it has to get done, so will keep plodding on with it, as well as with staying on track.

I've put off having lunch for a while, so that I would last longer, and that has helped somewhat. Now having had lunch, I feel a little better and the bad stuff I see when I have to walk past the Purchasable Treats Box may be a bit easier to resist!

These feelings are VERY uncomfortable, no wonder I wanted to get rid of them as soon as possible!! I just wish my head would unfog so I can write the damn assignment and get it over and done with!!

Anyways, I feel better for getting that out and it's given me some perspective on it as well.

Vee

Mette · #**833** 08-10-2008, 14:00

I'm sorry you're struggling today, Vee. I wish I could help you kick those negative feelings in the bum and then stomp on them for good measure.
I hope they will go away soon. I know what you mean with your assignment. I have a few like that. The worst one I'll be putting off for a few more days, so the pile of assignments I have to do in the holidays is gone before I start it. At least that way it won't be quite as stressful.

Sending you lots of good karma and hugs!

thenewvee · #**834** 08-10-2008, 23:24

I made it through this difficult day, and have not succumbed to eating all that I craved and fantasized about!! Yay me!! I've decided that with the assignment, perfect is not obtainable, so it'll have to be my reasonable best that will have to do. Don't need all that extra pressure that is making me want to eat.

I still have the feeling of wanting to eat, and could murder something with chocolate in it, but so far I'm holding strong! I don't want to undo the equilibrium and set myself back by doing it either. I also know that I may feel good for a moment, but that is all it will be, and I'll be beating myself up for days after, trying to get back on track. It's so not worth it to me anymore!

I must be getting stronger and better at this, and also at making better choices.
I so want to get to my goal and see this program finished!

Thanks Mette, big hugz for your lovely, supportive words and thoughts!

Vee

Francesca · #**835** 09-10-2008, 00:19

Hi Vee

I'm so sorry to hear about your rough day. Sounds like a very difficult assignment you had to complete. I'm so proud of you for not deviating. That was completely the right decision to make. If you had done the chocolate thing, you would have felt even worse afterwards, I reckon. At least that's what I found when I deviated (while ill and on holiday).

I'm sending you a big hug, Vee. Tomorrow WILL be a better day!

thenewvee · #**836** 09-10-2008, 07:50

A new day today!
I was soooo rewarded for not caving in yesterday with a 300g drop on the scales again today! So very happy about that!

Thanks so much Francesca for your thoughts and hug! Very much appreciated!
I'm so glad I managed to stay on track too! Yes, it is rather a difficult assignment, and it's not over yet.... Monday it is due, so that is when it will be over...

I'll just have to keep my head and priortise my priorities and keep going. The world is not going to stop for an assignment!!
Hugz back!

Vee

Mette · #**837** 09-10-2008, 08:07

I'm so glad you were rewarded for your struggle with a nice drop, Vee! And I'm so proud of you for staying strong!

thenewvee · #**838** 09-10-2008, 13:53

Thanks Mette!
I forgot to change my ticker, so have just done it, and it feels great!
I'm almost at my next milestone of 40kgs gone!
I've decided my reward is going to be to get a cleaner in once a fortnight so that it leaves me with more time for study etc and less stress about trying to do everything myself.
Hope you are cruisin' (well I could check in your diary, but I've run out of lunch hour, so will catch up later on).

Vee

jester2619 · #**839** 09-10-2008, 14:02

39.3kg lost already, that's great. Keep going your nearly there, it's a long journey but the prize at the end will be so worth it.

Francesca · #**840** 09-10-2008, 16:09

You see? I knew today would be a happier day!

Glad you got a good drop on the scales this morning

and oh my gosh, you're so so close to the big 4-0! How amazing is that? We have to throw you a special diary party when you get there, pretty lady! We'll only serve Cohen-friendly food, of course - virtual Sprite Zero in fancy cocktail glasses and crispbreads in funky shapes!

Have a happy day, Vee.