Faithy's Diary

[FotoHijinx]

Yay Faithy

*does the happy dance with you*

Those are awesome measurements girl! Congratulations.

I told MM over the phone last night about how your hubby takes you shopping to reward you and suggested he needs to do this to keep me going I'm so evil...heehee, but sweet man that he is said he would - gotta love these blokes.

Have a good one.

Cheers
Irene

[Faithy]

Oh Irene.. you're a norty girl HAHAHAHA I love it!!!!!

[HAILS_WANTS_2_B_THIN]

wow faithy those measurements are so great. Well done keep up the good work.

[pandora]

Faithy

Your story is such an INSPIRATION!

You have lost 62.5kg in approx 9 months, wow! With yr 27.5kg to go, you should be done and dusted in about 4 more months!

And another thing, you are such a beauty! I love seeing your pic at the side of your posts! You are already a stunningly beautiful girl and i for one am so looking forward to when you are at goal and enjoying yourself in your amazingly transformed body, whether its size 6, 8 or 10!

You also seem to have a heart of gold as you so profusely share the "LUV" end encouragement on here! You are a gift to the world and all of us on here! Thank you! Pandora

[PurpleRose]

WOW FAITHY!!! EXCELLENT!!!

I agree with Pandora, you are such an encouragement for us all... especially for me
Can't wait to see your after pics... you are definitely going to be one hot mamma!!!

[Wendy9]

WOW! WOW! AND DOUBLE WOW! Faithy - Congratulations on your new measurements and great body - that's a fabulous loss - and I'm pleased to see the arms have lost as I've big arms and hope to lose it off there as well!

[Melissa]

Hi Faithy,

What can I add that isn't similar to everyone else - NOTHING. You are an amazing inspiration to all here what with your deviation free Christmas, New Year etc.

Congratulations on your committment and your partner what wonderful support you have. There is only down hill from here to goal.

I have read the last couple of pages of your diary and found you are so intouch with how you feel and what you're doing that you have reset the bench mark for me.

Happy Cohens day.

Melissa

[meagain]

Wow!!

[Faithy]

Thank you Hails, Pandora, Purplerose, Wendy, Melissa & Meagain .. I really appreciate all your compliments.

I am actually VERY proud of myself.. it's funny because it's not something I like to think or dwell on too much, I've just got my eye on the prize, my goal. But after realising that Christmas was a lot more difficult than I imagined, I am very proud that I hung in there.

I am 100% deviation free & it feels awesome. The reason I think that is because I know me, if I deviate once it's so much easier to deviate the 2nd time. I'm just not allowed too. Also, I know that I won't be sitting there thinking to myself, 'what if'.. what if I hadn't had that piece of cake etc..

It's hard & I'm not saying all of the above to upset anyone, I'm just sharing how I'm feeling

This weight loss has been a time for me to be honest with myself, with those people around me.. to be strong enough to realise that I CAN face anything & I CAN achieve anything if I really, really want too.

When I went in to this I knew it was all or nothing. I was so depressed & over being so big & unhealthy.

I wrote this on my photo diary..

People's reactions are funny, but none as bizarre as today & I found my reaction even more bizarre.. I was walking through the Mall this afternoon with my Daughter Tami.. I saw a an old friend of mine whom I haven't seen in quite some time. I smiled at her as she walked towards me, she just looked. We had eye contact for a while, but then she kept walking. I could hear her son running after her saying "there's Tami Mum'.. anyway I sort of stopped & then Tami said to me, that was weird.. I just shook it off & kept walking... anyway a few metres on I turned around & she was running after me with her son. She came up to me & said "Oh I'm so sorry, I honestly didn't recognise you, you look really, really good."

We chatted for a minute or 2 & then left..

THEN I got in the car & just burst in to tears..

WHY???

So anyway, I'm not sure why I cried. I have been experiencing so many weird emotions. Looking at myself in the mirror & that same person I saw look back for so many years has gone..

It's sure not a bad thing, but in a way I go in to mourning for the person that was me, but rejoice in the new person, the person who changes & grows every day.

Mouring the fact that I got so big in the first place, but realising that there's nothing I can do about that now except to learn from it.

Learning how to take compliments & realising that people mean what they say...

So many, many differing emotions - but at the end of the day they are all positive ones.

[SOS]

Hi Faithy,

Years ago, I was in the supermaket and walked past a friend that I used to work with. I hadn't seen her for about 2 to 3 years. I walked past a couple of times and could see she was trying to say hello to me. I realised who it was and she looked so different. She had lost nearly 40kgs since I last saw her. I apologised for not stopping at first before I realised who she was. She said people not recognising her was complimentary and made her feel more proud and a reminder of what she had achieved. She loved the feeling.

There is a new person emerging. You are still the same beautiful person on the inside, its just the outside changing its skin...
Accept all the compliments that come your way as you know how hard you have worked to be where you are. Enjoy and reap the benefits of this. I am in awe of your amazing achievement and commitment.

[PurpleRose]

Originally Posted by Faithy

I am 100% deviation free & it feels awesome. The reason I think that is because I know me, if I deviate once it's so much easier to deviate the 2nd time. I'm just not allowed too. Also, I know that I won't be sitting there thinking to myself, 'what if'.. what if I hadn't had that piece of cake etc..

This is SOOO true Faithy! Cheats just snowball! But the best part is to sit there afterwards (if you withstood the temptation) to say "I'm soooo glad I didn't!".

Apparently cheats sits us back another week! And who can spare another week?? Definitely not me! I'm the instant gratification type... so not to cheat and fulfill my "need" is very difficult, but it's sooo worth it to look back afterwards and realize I CAN defeat temptation, and I'm losing!!

So good on you with the 100% deviation free approach! You will definitely reap the benefits (and Fast too)!

Hope you have a great weekend!!

[FatCat]

Unreal peel!! I have just been reading through your diary and you are the most amazing inspiration (and local too, woohoo!!). We really must get together for a crispbread and a glass off water one of these days hahahaha!!!

Well done on an absolutely AMAZING effort. You have sure shown your fat self who's the boss.

xx

[jeannie77]

Faithy

What an inspiration you are!

Have loved reading your diary.

Jeannie

[FotoHijinx]

Hi Faithy

I think being able to accept compliments is this hardest thing to do, especially if you haven't had them very often. I know when I got with MM it took me a while to be able to accept his compliments as my ex didn't really give them out. At first I would talk down his compliments and sort of give excuses for them. But they were so genuine and heartfelt that really I was almost insulting him. So now I just look him in the eyes and say thank you - so hard to do at first but now its so much easier and I know it makes him just as happy.

I think what happened to SOS's friend is spot on and you will learn to think that it is the greatest compliment someone could give you. You are a new you and it will take time for even you to come to terms with it.

I'm looking forward to go back to winterball baseball in April and seeing all of those people's reactions to me - I just think it is going to be soooo entertaining. Bring it on, I say.

Come out Faithy and accept what we see - you are just as beautiful on the outside as we know you are on the inside. Believe in that, we all do.

I love reading your exploits, so real and genuine.

Love your work Faithy girl.

Cheers
Irene

[Wendy9]

Hi Faithy, yThanks for your post in my diary - May I say you're a champion - congratulations for not deviating - and it's just not worth it is it! I want to use my 6 months on Cohens to do my best - and the only one we hurt deviating is ourselves - so why do it! The great thing i've discovered is if I don't deviate the I don't get cravings so I don't need to want to deviate! Keep up the great work - you're an inspiration to many of us!

[pandora]

Hi Faithy, i can relate to how you feel as if you are greiving the "old" you and you get used to the new emerging YOU! And yr friend who walked past you, remember you are not done yet so you can expect more of that! You are not that person anymore and there is no going back! I have had similar feelings. Its as if as we lose the fat and get closer and closer to goal, we emerge as our TRUE SELVES and that can be scary!

I feel as tho i have been masquerading as someone else for years! Pretending a lot! I am finding out who i really am for the first time in ages and you will too! And, it can be uncomfortable as nothing "fits" anymore and i dont mean clothes, I mean things the "old me" or "old YOU" created or liked are not the same for the new Me or YOU! Go figure!

The trick is to give yourself time to integrate all the changes and expect tears of joy and sadness! This is a very big deal what is happening to you!
Pandora

[Wendy9]

Oh Faithy darling - don't mourn the old you - you're still the same person on the inside - probably just happier now - I can promise you your friend when she looked at you would have seem someone familiar but couldn't place it and kept walking and wondering and than goodnes it clicked to her and she came back - but when I look at myself I can still see the Wendy I've always known - look truly into her own eyes and you're still the same person.

[Faithy]

Thank you SOS, Purplerose, Wendy, Irene, Pandora, Fatcat & Jeannie...

Yes Purplerose, I believe that it does set you back a week.. I'm not certain.. is that if you cheat all day or just a nibble.. I thought about it a lot when I first started.. if that's the case & I cheat 4 or 5 times.. that's at least a whole extra month, no thanks :P

Fatcat, name the day & I'll be there :P.. have been busting to meet with a Cohen's buddy & just yakk with someone who gets where I'm coming from.. even people on a low joule diet dont get me.. it can be quite frustrating at times..

Compliments have never been something I've been able to deal with.. I'm guessing that that's part of the reason I got so big in the first place.. I've said that a lot.. I tend to self sabotage all the time when I get to the compliment stage.. not this time though (one has to wonder why)

Anyway, I really appreciate all of your support & advice, you guys rock!!!!

I'm feeling a lot better about things now.. just one day & one bump in the road at a time.. who knows why I react the way I do sometimes.. but I'm not going to let my crazy emotions rule me this time..

Well I received another awesome compliment recently.. I attend a church fairly reguarly as some of you may have realised.. anyway the Pastor & his wife (lovely people ) are always complimenting me on my weight loss & my dedication to it.. at church a lot of people have been commenting, asking questions etc.. about what am I doing & so on.. now everyone feels like they now have no excuse & they all want to lose weight.. soooo they are starting up a Biggest Loser Challenge in the church.. the Pastor reckons he wants me to be the person up the front who encourages everybody etc cause I'm all the proof anyone needs to say ehy, yeah it can be done..
Who knows, but it still felt awesome.

He said to me today that they are only going to run it for 3 months cause he feels that no one will dedicate themselves to it much longer than that.. except for someone with real dedication like me LOL..
Sad really..

Weigh in day tomorrow.. I can hardly wait. I KNOW I've had a good loss this month, I just hope it's as good if not better than I think it is.. only issue is my monthly friend George is here.. wish he'd leave for good.

[SOS]

Hi Faithy,
Good luck with you weigh in tomorrow. Wow!!! A Church Biggest Loser Challenge......I might have to join your group.....need all the help I can get.

Faithy and Fatcat, sounds like a good idea to meet up - coffee?

Cheers.

[Kohinoor]

Hi Faithy,

WHAT a compliment to you !!

soooo they are starting up a Biggest Loser Challenge in the church.. the Pastor reckons he wants me to be the person up the front who encourages everybody etc cause I'm all the proof anyone needs to say hey, yeah it can be done.. Who knows, but it still felt awesome.

Woohoo - and you will handle it well - as they all know you (and have done over the last 8 months), all you need to do is stand up, pause (and posture in your size 12's) for 10 seconds, and say "Any questions?" That should do it !!! :P

Or is that too "blokey" ?? Hehe - maybe it is, but I see things as I see things - and anyone with a brain who has known you for the past 8 months won't need any more than that - end of story.... Go give it, girl - they are out there waiting for you,

Koh