pennys refeed diary

[hexi2]

Thats great things are levelling out a bit weight wise....3 more days and its all done and dusted...keep strong

[ropemaha]

ok people, i just found this photo while cleaning up....november 2006

[ropemaha]

and this one...whoa posting photos is so inspirational...

[shell]

OMG Penny,

Is the first one your Mother!!

You look totally amazing and different!!

You should be so proud of yourself and walking around with a stupid grin on your face!!!!
Shell

[ropemaha]

lol shell, my mm said a similar thing...he reckons i look 20yrs older...these photos have really spun me out...gotta get a new photo done soon

[Faithy]

WOW!!! You do look so different, younger & so much healthier now.. BRAVO!!!.. You're doing so awesomely too not long now.. good on you Penny XXX

[garden goddess]

Oh you have GOT to be happy with THAT......you could seriously be in the witness protection program you look so different.........
How's the three day eat-a-thon going ?
LILY

[hexi2]

And look at thos fat little hands! They are no more!

[ropemaha]

geez lily...dont blow my cover mate....just cause my x is doin life....

hey hex, that is exactly what max said....he freaked out about my hands and said 'no, thats not you mum' and genuinely looked upset....i said not any more honey and he gave me the most heartfelt hug....awwww....gotta love that kid

yep people, that photo yesterday really freaked me out....i dont really recall seeing it before, although i must have, and gone straight into 'fat cow denial' and duly packed it away.....

it has made me feel so focussed on getting my body right....i had a conversation with a friend recently and it really hit home to me that i have, for many years, drawn my validity from my ability to make a difference. i have always been intelligent and drawn to work that gives me the opportunity to improve peoples experience of life. i have found that people respond well to my capacity to be supportive and i love this part of my personality. i love being able to help and it makes me feel good.

but i realised the other day that it also makes me feel good to look good. dont get me wrong, i havent always been obese. i hovered in the same weight range for most of my adult life before i had kids.....around the 75kg mark and i wasnt fat....and i didnt think i was fat either. but now i want to draw some of my validity from my capacity to look, and more importantly, feel great. feel strong. feel sexy. god i am seriously having a mid life crisis i reckon...

at least it doesnt involve motorbikes and young men.....

anyway, whilst i am nervous about finishing the program tomorrow, i feel determined to shift my focus to toning up my body for my wedding in 17 weeks!!!! gonna do it too...

so this morning i had a milk coffee....i only had it because i havent introduced it back in yet, the milk that is, and i thought i had better do so before i finish refeed. i have been feeling happy with the black coffee. well, it was like drinking great sex for gods sake....absolutley fantastic....and as soon as i finished it i wanted another....mmmm....better watch that i spose.....

still sitting on 68.3 kgs....so that means i have been in a 500grm range for four weeks....thats gotta mean i am where i am supposed to be and bloody hell i am happy with this....i feel great.

have a great day people

pen

[shell]

Hi Penny,

How are you coping with the extra food on the last couple of days?

17 weeks until you get married, you must be getting excited!!
Are you all organised for it?
Have you heard form Emma at all, she has dissapeared??

Have a great day
Shell

[ropemaha]

hey shell,

the food is better since i started exercising again...no where near as full in the last couple of days....

i am excited about the wedding, but i am also way more nervous...and not organised at all...the kids are going on holidays for two weeks soon so mm and i are gonna do the planning stuff then....just no time otherwise

no havent heard from emma....not sure where she is at.

thanks for dropping by

pen

[Almost Eden]

I don't see anything wrong with moterbikes and young men...

Actually I think it's hot...

I love your attitude Penny and I also love your capacity to care and make a difference...which you certainly have in my journey to date. I know that Hexi really appreciated your support on her journey as well. You were so great for each other during this Cohens revolution. You are truely an amazing woman. Good luck with the strengthening and toning...you are going to look even hotter by the time the wedding comes along. HOT!!! Big love Miss. Huggles

AE.

[FotoHijinx]

Yeah - what the hell is wrong with you!!!

I can see nothing wrong with motorbikes and young men - sheez girl, don't go getting all soft and gooey on me now - I still need ya!!

And another thing - milk in coffee is like great sex!!! I mean, really - snap out of it girl - get back into the real world where real great sex is!!

Well weren't those photos a good jab in your skinny ribs for you - so fantastic to see how far you've come - yay you!

Good luck for your last day - lucky cow

Cheers
Irene

[ropemaha]

thanks irene and ae....i have just posted my end of refeed shots and i am only going to leave them on for 1 day cause they are a bit too embarrasing for me....i feel very anxious about having them up there but mm seemed to think i looked pretty good....nows your chance..

pen

[ropemaha]

lol at the milk/sex thing irene....i tell ya though....after this long without it....you will see my friend....it was freakin delicious....i am not having any more....well maybe one....see its started already....

funny story about motorbikes and sexy boys.....a mate of mine, quite a few yrs ago, was doing remote nursing in central australia. anyway she was on her way back into alice one day and had to stop to get fuel. so she pulls up and fills up the ambulance and there is a group of blokes there on their bikes....one comes over to her and asks her about the ambulance and they have a bit of a conversation about the work she does and he seems quite interested.....so she thinks 'oh he was a bit cute but too young for me'....and goes to pay the bill. when she gets inside the very excited woman on the counter says to her 'did you get his autograph' and she is going 'who's autograph'....it was russell crowe....10 yrs ago...i thought what an opportunity....

[garden goddess]

I tell you what girlie ...if you start getting round Alice dressed like THAT (your photos today)...you'll have alot more than milky coffee and Russell Crowe sightings to worry about........have to reiterate the words of my collegues ...
A/ You make a HUGE difference around here ....and I'm sure everywhere else that you grace...
B/ There is SOD all wrong with motorbikes and young men.....just add a leather jacket to today's outfit and you could 'mount and ride' as we speak......SO to speak....
LILY

[ropemaha]

aww shucks....thanks lily....

i tell you what love, if i am in sydney later this yr we are meeting up....hope your finished the diet by then .... hehehehe.

already planned to meet with irene post cohens so you are next woman

pen

[Annabelle Joy]

Well, I had the same thought as Irene and AE, Penny. However, I'll reinforce it. Nothing wrong with sexy boys and motor cycles, particularly the way you're now looking. It's a wonder anyone who hasn't seen you for a few months recognises you.

AJ

[ConnieK..]

I always thought sex was like Pizza .... even when it's bad it's still pretty damn good LOL

We were having a conversation today and dec ided that if Lasagne sounds like Barry White, Birthday cake sounds like Florence Hendersen

Which made me decide I wouldn't eat it anyway LOL

Have a great week Miss Pen

Connie

[ropemaha]

well its true, people dont recognise me....

ok so today is the last day of refeed. i finish on exactly 68kgs....totally stoked about that.

it has been a long road and i have definately stuffed up along the way, including during refeed....

to anyone who is reading this and considering doing the program, i can only reiterate what others say...this is life changing. my self esteem is so strong at the moment, i feel focussed and proud of myself.

i am truly amazed that i have got to the end, bumps and all. but it is the best feeling i have had in a long time. probably since i gave birth....that feeling of 'wow, did i do that'....

i dont plan on doing anything exciting in the next few days....i actually plan on just continuing as is and going to the gym. but i tell ya what, on friday i am going out....big time.

i will start a maintenance diary and try to get to it when i can....life is busy and i start my new job next week so i guess thats gonna take a fair bit of my time....but i will be around.

keep going people cause even though its hard....you will get the results if you persist.

remember, persistence is more strongly related to success than any other personality trait....doesnt matter if you are smart or not, strong or not, emotionally intelligent or not, rich or poor, male or female....whatever....persistence is what you need, nothing else.

love to you all

penny