Donzie's Diary

[Donzie]

Finally, picked up my program today and jumped on the scale while I was there - Starting weight 102.6kg - not impressed to have broken through to triple digits, but hey, that's why I'm here, to not be in the triple digits, right.

I've decided to officially start my plan on the 23rd (12 days from now). I've had a weekend trip planned for months and while I don't plan to go crazy I want to enjoy it, along with a glass of wine. Also, it gives me more time to really grasp this diet (lifestyle) and ease into it a bit. It's pretty extreme, comparatively, and I've never come close to staying on any diet 6 months before.

Unofficially I have been eating Cohens(ish) for around 5 days now i.e.(breakfast: 1 egg, 90g mushrooms, Lunch: 110g chicken 110g veg, Dinner same as Lunch, 6 crisp breads, and two fruit. and 3L of water) and let me tell you, that first day was not good. I even checked the back of the enrolment form to see if I could get out of it via the 'cooling off' clause. Too late, I'd done the blood test...Damn it!

Then I found this forum.

Reading about others journey to hell and back (aka, first week on the EP) made me convinced I could at least give it a go. Geez...I once spent 16 weeks eating nothing but vegan raw food - surely, I can do this!

So, so far, it hasn't been too bad. Mild headaches the first day, but I'm definitely sleeping better and while (lets be honest) it's bugger all food, I have experienced something I don't think I have ever experienced before in my life - Eating until you no longer feel hungry, then stopping. Yep, it's true, I did not know what that felt like. Sure, I have read about it before, but actually done it myself, never, not once. I can only liken it to a feeling of being in 'Neutral' after eating, I'm neither hungry nor full. I've kind of found it rather fascinating, how can I eat this teeny, tiny, little barbie doll's size meal and be done. Who'd have thought?

Anyway, I don't want to get too ahead of myself here, 5 days, does not a 'lifestyle change' make! I'm not 35kg overweight (goal is somewhere between 63 -66kg apparently ...yeah right.) because I like to eat largish meals. I got this way, due to snacking on sweet sugary things, particularly after dinner on the couch while watching Masterchef (Also insert, My kitchen Rules, Great Aussie Bake off, Jamie Oliver, Nigella, etc etc) I love food and watching TV about people who love food. Perhaps the answer is to get rid of the TV?

Did, I mention I'm a 80% Stay-At-Home-Mum (two boys aged 2 and 6 years) 20% freelance Designer/Artist. So really I have no excuse. I control the cooking, the shopping, the menus. I can't blame deviating on 'manic work schedules' and 'forced to eating out all the time' (although I might try to occasionally.) Nope, I have it lucky from that respect.

But it has recently occurred to me that my littlest one, the two year old, is about 12-13kgs and I'm carrying around two of him as extra body weight EVERYDAY! It's bloody heavy carrying him around for 5 mins. And I have two of him strapped permanently to my frame. No wonder I am exhausted by 6pm. No wonder my feet ache so badly at night that I can hardly walk. Sorry, but these two toddlers need to get off Mummy. Mummy is done carrying you.

So, that leaves me here today, excited, scared, hopeful, sceptical, but mostly ready to start a journey somewhere new. I wanna get off the fat train.

Thanks for being a part of it.