MiniMe's Diary

[minime]

I feel extremely humbled that you all do care so much and be moved to write.

I totally agree with everything that you all said.

This 'experiement' could quite well have been detrimental to all my efforts over the past month. You know the whole I've finished refeed and now I'll just 'do as I goddamn please' attitude. Please understand that this wasn't my intention. To be totally honest with you I'm not entirely sure if I understand fully what my intention was. But it was definitely to gain the motivation and momentum I 'felt' I needed to start back on Cohens.


So here's the thing..... In thinking about it a bit more in depth it was about this.

I finished refeed last week (Saturday). I finished refeed 10kg out from the top of Dr Cohens goal range. I don't feel like I am at the right weight yet, even though my body essentially was telling me that it was hungry. I am feeling really good about myself and how I am currently wearing size 8-10 clothes. If I didn't do it this way, then I would have decided to continue with the maintenance side of things. Let these things (possibly) creep back into my diet and over time see the scales creep back up. (I know this is my pattern to yo-yo weight gain and loss. I can not eat any of this junk food for months and months, lose weight and then for some reason start eating it again and whammo!! weight is back up!!)


Could I have started back on the program today if I hadn't had such a terrible week. The answer is probably not 100% committed as I am now. I may have allowed myself a bit of chocolate here and there. The occasional chip or whatever.... It was getting to the point were I could feel myself weakening to all the offers from the people around me. And they offer me crap at work EVERY DAY! So last week - I accepted their offers. I told everyone I was 'off my diet' for the week. I joined in with morning tea (hence the timtams) I had 3 x 50g packet of chips (thanks to the coke machine) I had a couple of Lindt balls and 2 x 150g packets of Maltesers. I did also have pizza for dinner one night. Had 3 slices and put the rest in the bin. Everybody could all see how unwell I was feeling. I don't think they will offer me anything again for a while. (at least I hope!!)

I honestly did want to make myself feel truly sick from the food. If I didn't then those foods could have been something that I included back into my diet. Believe me, the first bite of the timtam was delicious. The first handful of maltesers were divine. So in future I will know this - 1 or 2 timtams is all I can handle. A handful of Maltesers won't make me feel sick. A whole packet will. Simple.

Oh and Andy - I'm a bourbon girl so no, no rumbo. I was going to have a drink - but I fell asleep on the couch and didn't get to it.

The biggest thing that I noticed about this week was that I was so tired. I was asleep on the couch in front of the tv at 8.00pm some nights. I'm ususally not in bed until at least 10.30pm. I was crazy tired. My body really didn't like and was just shutting down at the end of the day.

So there was method in my madness and rhyme in my reason.

I am back in 100%. I have even decided that I will continue completely with the program until the 10kgs is off. That will then mean that I will redo my refeed.

Thanks again everyone. Be rest assured that I am back on the wagon and will see this out to the end!!

With the warmest regards to everyone

Cheers
MiniMe

[minime]

From starting back on Cohens as of yesterday the scales this morning was -1.4kg.

I gained a total of 2.5kg from my 'experiment' week. So the scales are now heading in the right direction again. (YAY!!)

I have been feeling a bit hungry today. Haven't been tempted to stray in the least. But am hoping that getting back into the swing of things my hunger should return to normal within the next few days. If I am still feeling hungry by the end of the week then I may need to reassess the situation again - And maybe have to conclude that 70kg is my ideal weight. But I'll deal with that then. For now it's strictly Cohens - all the way!!

Dedication, motivation and determination.

These 3 words will get me to the finish line (AGAIN!!)

Cheers
MiniMe

[Andy46]

Minime - I have great faith in you - it will be interesting to see what happens over the next few days - so far for me I have found my body tend to be about 3 to 4 days behind me - not that I have deviated at all - just with tiredness and things - but old mate all the best and I hope you get to what suits you - with Dedication, Motivation and plenty of the good old determination - how can you go wrong - your focus is alright.

All the best

Andy

[minime]

Thanks Andy,

I have faith in myself. I know that I'll make it to the end. But it's great to know that there is a little extra out there for me!!

Don't be too disheartened. If there is anything that we all know to be fact on Cohens is that the scales move in fits and starts. When the scales don't move, the cm's do. It's all part of the process.

As for my progress - down another kg this morning. It's great to be back on just regular Cohens.

Take care

Cheers
MiniMe

[minime]

Hi everyone!

I hope you are all well.

I have had some fairly sad news recently about a close relative. Life is so fragile.

It has really made me reassess where I am in life. I want to go out and embrace it. I'm tired of hiding away feeling like I'm not worth it. I am looking good and feeling good. My mind now needs to catch up with the rest of me. I no longer need to feel self conscious and shy. Life is a journey and I need to join the ride.

Hope everyone has a wonderful day.

Take care,

MiniMe

[meagain]

Oh MiniMe, I think I might know how you feel.

nothing anyone else says is any help - and life can feel like it's collapsing in on you. Seek professional help if you need it.

When anyone says to me that at least your sister didn't suffer for long or at least her children were teenagers, I want to snot them one!

[magenta]

Hi MiniMe, hope you are doing ok through this time. Sending you lots of strength, love and healing vibes to you and your relatives. I guess my words may not help, but you're in my prayers.

[MamaK]

Very sorry to hear about your sad news and sending lots of love and light to you and yours.

What you say is so very true, life is so fragile and we need to embrace it and make the most of every day.
It's great that your Cohen's journey is helping you to do just that.

Take Care
K

[Melissa]

Sorry to hear you have bad news. Take care of yourself through this.

Regards

Melissa

[minime]

Thanks for your kind thoughts and words.

It's all part of the cycle of life but it doesn't make things any easier.

MiniMe