Giddyupgirl's Diary

[Deelight]

No matter how long you must wait,
never let go of your dreams.

Looovve Your quote of the day Gug. I think I will always check your site out daily to catch my little dose of inspiration to keep me in the right mindset. And a big WOW to you. 73kg - exactly 10 above goal.

Awesome ! ! Awesome ! ! Awesome ! !

No chocolate could ever taste good enough to sabotage your accomplishment to date. Well done on the 12 sizing. I have been happy and feeling good in a size 14 and alas I have these gorgeous lined white linen pants I bought in America - they are a 14 worn about once cause couldnt squeeze into them..... Went to put them on this morning and they almost slipped off! Yikes, I will have to wear them night n day for the next week just to have the feeling of how good they make me feel. Couldnt believe it so heading into the 12 department with you I'd say. Amazing. Have a great Easter

[Laura77]

Rumour has it.... your a size 12!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!? anddddddd only 73kgs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just thought id make you aware incase you hadnt realised

[giddyupgirl]

Hi Guys,

Busy day today, but my house is nice and shiny again, only have this weeks ironing to do and that can wait until tomorrow, I so loathe ironing!!! And it is harder now with smaller clothes, the legs of pants don't fit over the end of the ironing board too well Yay I am a size 12 Laura and only 73kg to boot, hehe.

Koh, I have decided to sit back and enjoy the ride, it's not like I am missing out on anything by being on the program (except Easter eggs, but there will be more Easters). I am losing weight, I am losing cms so no reason at all to get stressed over the rate of weight loss, cause it is going to happen when it happens, and not before. I am feeling much calmer with myself since I made that decision.

Thanks M&N, yup the light at the end of the tunnel is getting much brighter now, not long to go.

Hey Narelle, I am glad you like my quote of the day, for me it is a nice positive way for me to start each day. And doesn't it suck when you are so looking forward to wearing something then you miss your window of opportunity, but it sucks in a good way cause at least they aren't fitting you because you are too slim for them as opposed to where you were before and you couldn't wear them cause you were too big for them.

[hexi2]

Yep GUG

Its great when we put our faith in the program and know there is nothing more we can do than 100%...the weightloss will follow no matter what...

[giddyupgirl]

I agree Hexi, when I finally decided to just let it go and accept it will happen for me, it was like I had been holding my breath and I had finally given myself permission to exhale, it was very liberating, and totally changed my attitude altogether. Trying to be in a rush to get to the end is pointless, there is no end, this is a change of lifestyle as much as it is a weight loss program. I am never going to be able to eat the way I was before, that is a fact. Once I accepted that a sense of euphoria came over me and that is an excellent feeling worth hanging on to.

[giddyupgirl]

Quote of the day:

A life full of wishes makes each day worth living.

[mumandnana]

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Koh, I have decided to sit back and enjoy the ride, it's not like I am missing out on anything by being on the program (except Easter eggs, but there will be more Easters). I am losing weight, I am losing cms so no reason at all to get stressed over the rate of weight loss, cause it is going to happen when it happens, and not before. I am feeling much calmer with myself since I made that decision.

This is good Giddyupgirl !

[louise41]

Size 12 and only 73kgs - Way to go!!
I think that not being able to fit the leg of your pants over the end of the ironing board is probably a great feeling!!
I notice you and I have a similar amount to lose - its a great feeling to be nearing the final goal! (even if for the second time)
Louise

[Bronwyn1955]

Good for you u GuG that attitude will help you heaps. I have had that attitude for a while now. size 12 is amazing and must be making you feel even better!

Have a great eggless and bunless easter. Bronnie

[giddyupgirl]

Hiya Louise and Bronnie, thanks for visiting, looks like the 3 of us will be stumbling around refeed land together, woo hoo that will be fun

Hey and guess what, I picked up a pair of size 10 target pants from vinnies this morning and they do up, damned tight, I wouldn't wear them yet, but the suckers do up hehe, so that is something to look forward to. I know target work wear is quite generous sizing, but I don't care, just to be able to wear something that says size 10 is good enough for me, yay!!!

Haha, just had a thought, maybe I need a skinnier ironing board???

I went to the supermarket this morning, thank goodness they are all out of easter eggs, made me feel much better, but then into the bakery to get some bread for stick insect and they have millions of hot cross buns, what is the go with that, I thought hot cross buns were for good friday? So I just got the bread and walked out with one eye closed hehe. Bring on tuesday when this torture is all over. grrrr.

We are going to visit with neices and nephews later on, (I don't really want to be around tomorrow when they are eating chocolate all day) they are going to be a wee tad disappointed, no chocolate from me, instead I have bought them all little gifts, pretty hair ties, books, games etc. I am being all righteous and refusing to add to the next generation of obese adults. (I had better be careful, my halo might slip and strangle me).

Look out I have already become an over bearing former fat person, hmm had better get that in check, but figure I will do it covertly via action and example rather than being vocally opinionated, I know the pain of someone making inappropriate comments about someones weight issues, and I don't ever want to be that person. (There's that halo again hehe).

[giddyupgirl]

Holy heck, I just noticed my BMI, it is soooo close to being in the normal range, heck I will be just like Gremlin and be normals soon, yay. Owww now that is mega exciting!!!!

[Deelight]

ha ha Gug, careful careful - your halo nearly slipped then!!

Awesome Aweome realisation Gug re your Normal BMI - That would be a huge motivation to stay good for these few days. No bun or egg could give you that sense of empowerment. By the way: scuse my ignorance - what is the normal BMI range?

"Yippiddee do dar for Gug !" YAY

[giddyupgirl]

Hi Narelle,

I would rather stick a fork in my eye than deviate at this stage of the game, normal BMI is between 20 and 25, ideal is in the middle of that range.

[pandora]

Hi GUG and thank you for the prompt reply and encouragement today in my dairy!

I have read the first page of yrs and the last few (will read the rest at my leisure as its gonna take time LOL). You are amazing and i wish i had had yr mindset when i first did Cohens in 2007 and then new program Oct 2009 but still, here i am, learning important lessons. You wrote :

Trying to be in a rush to get to the end is pointless, there is no end, this is a change of lifestyle as much as it is a weight loss program. I am never going to be able to eat the way I was before, that is a fact. Once I accepted that a sense of euphoria came over me and that is an excellent feeling worth hanging on to.

Wise words indeed and i am posting that on my desk beside the computer AND on the fridge AND in my purse so i can remind myself if that smart little voice that sometimes takes over my head and convinces me its ok to deviate or race to the finish line etc, so i can tell it to go away and shut up as i am changing my lifestyle just like GiddyUpGirl, woohoo! Here i go, face first into euphoria land! You are a legend. Pandora

[Gremlin]

Ohhh wow GUG, you ARE really close to 'normal'....and it really is super exciting. Well done on resisting the evilness of hot cross buns - those b@stards have been everywhere this week!! Ohh the warmy smell! And also on not buying into the choccy giving ritual.

I didn't buy any eggs for my family this year, but I did bake a few things to give them - at least that way I can keep an eye on how much sugar etc is in them. And they loved it!

Ooo congrats on the size 10, it really is a big mental boost to see something....anyythhinnnggg....with a size 10 label hanging in the wardrobe hehe. I got a work jacket from Target in a 10....and to be honest it could've been the ugliest darn jacket in the world but I couldn't NOT buy it, it fit and said sz 10

Haha, I can relate to your frustration with Stick Insect's chocolate eating / lucky body! My partner got on the wii after me yesterday, after I realised I was in normal BMI - he wanted to see what my lil character looked like. He managed to lose nearly 2kgs in the past week. And he eats sooo much more than me, and had a few cookies and a choccy egg that week. Darn lucky metabolism!! Although could also be because I cook healthy meals for him and portion it all out....good to see it's working anyway!

[giddyupgirl]

Hi Pandora, thanks for the visit, if you do read the middle part of my diary you will see why I had to change my mind set. I think if I hadn't they would have been carting me away in a straight jacket. I really ended up in the depths of despair and was totally lost as a human being. After reading back through my own diary I really do sound quite manic (probably am), going from despair to euphoria is very manic like behaviour I guess. But right now I am happy and relaxed and that is reflecting on my scales which makes it all good. I am so pleased that you can get something positive out of my experiences and I hope you can feel this good about your journey too, it is so worth the effort of just letting it all go, this is my (your) journey and no one elses, it is up to us whether we make it hard on ourselves or easy and enjoyable. We have the ultimate choice and I have chosen the easy and enjoyable after forcing myself to experience the hard for no good reason.

Yay Gremlin is normal and I am nearly normal. I love vanity sizing, but who the heck cares it is size 10 and I agree, it wouldn't have mattered what they looked like as long as they were a size 10 and fitted. Damned stick insect is eating chocolate for breakfast, again grrr not fair. But woo hoo I had a 300g loss overnight, success tastes so much better than a chocolate easter egg. Just 100g to go and I will have lost 35kg, now that tastes amazing.

Have a wonderful easter sunday everyone, I am off to spend some time with family, the SIL who is a cohens graduate, a very safe and supportive place for me to be, she is tougher than I am, so won't even let my BIL have any chocolate and he has the same build and metabolism as stick insect, I think SI is going to sneak him some, I heard them whispering on the phone haha.

Quote of the day:

Whether sunny skies or rain, dreams brighten all your days.

[Mum Chum]

GO GUG!!! Love reading your posts - and just wanted to give you big hugs & make the hurt go away when you were in the depths of despair. I love the way you have turned everything around. It awesome too, watching you encourage others. Just love it.

Hugs still xx

Veneta

[shuki]

Hey Gug i think we all fly from despair to euphoria pretty regularly - well I do - maybe it is just part of being on a forum where we can truly say what we feel without censoring it as we do in other social situations......but whatever we do we hve to be ourselves I reckon 'cause that is the best most authentic thing we can be.

[jlou]

I love that you are not giving the kids chocolate gifts - set a good example

[Pommiegal]

Wow what a roller coaster ride your diary is!! (For the reader, let alone you!!)
You are a phenomenal person, Gug - not just for the weight loss but for your incredible strength of character to pick yourself up from such a dark, depressing place and to come out with a positive, relaxed attitude! I was seriously worried about you a couple of times. Maybe you should write a book about your weight loss success

Something I found particularly interesting is that once your therapist retired, after the intitial sense of loss, you have blossomed into a beautiful, confident, self controlled woman. And that control you were so desperate not to lose...now you really have it cos you are just enjoying the ride. How cool are you? Funny isn't it, how sometimes when we just sit back we are more in charge of our own lives than when we stress and worry?

And 73kg and size 12 Just a whisker ahead of me, although I think you are losing size quicker than me. As for the boobs, I still have plenty (unfortunately), so if you'd like me to send you some Express Post...

Keep up the fantastic work!

From one chocoholic who's almost made it through Easter deviation free, to another!